“I cannot have this conversation once more,” said Lucy. “It means nothing to you because you have the luxury of it meaning nothing. I must live in the world as a woman, and if I am not returned before that spell expires the situation will be grave indeed.”
Byron’s hands on her shoulders felt hot. Lucy felt herself flush. The blood was now full in her face, and she felt a strange, delicious energy building inside her. She did not know what would happen next, and for the moment she did not care. Perhaps her life was all but ruined with nothing before her but shame and exile. Should she not find pleasure and comfort where she could?
“Should the worst happen,” he said, “and you fail to return on time, then you must burn in the scorn of the world and emerge from it anew, a phoenix reborn, to live by your own law.” He retreated a few steps. When Lucy raised her eyes to look at him, he met her gaze with a smile. “And yet, I do not believe it will come to that.”
She hated that he was so beautiful, that she could not look at him and talk to him without thinking, even for a second, that there was no man to match him. “What is she?” Lucy managed, attempting to master herself. “How can she do what she does? Who were all those strange people who listened to her as though she was their master?”
He shook his head. “It is you who must tell me.”
“I think you know her better than you allow,” she said in an intentionally stern tone. “She takes liberties with you that she would not with a stranger.”
He shrugged. “Lady Harriett acts as she wishes.” He encircled her fingers in his hand, his grip loose and warm.
Lucy pulled her hand away. “What if I cannot stand against her?”
Byron had no answer for this, so instead he kissed her. Their lips met, and she offered no resistance. His fingers gently clenched her shoulder. He pulled her closer until his broad chest pressed against her breasts and she felt the power of his thundering heart. His breath was hot and sweet, and she had never known anything so intoxicating. She wanted him, to possess him, to have him upon her and over her and for him to smother her entirely.
“Yes,” he said. “We shall comfort each other.”
Though it took all her will, Lucy pushed him away. With only a few inches between them, she looked into his beautiful, wild face and staggered back a few steps. “The world may yet choose to despise me, but I will not despise myself.”
“Lucy,” Byron began.
“I am tired,” she said. “I must be gone from here by noon tomorrow or I shall be married or ruined. I have few resources. You may have made a career out of sacrificing everything to your pleasures, Lord Byron, but I cannot.”
He reached out, stroking her face with the backs of his fingers. “Lucy, you are confused.”
“No!” she shouted, not caring who heard, not caring if Lady Harriett and all her servants were awakened. She walked away from him, toward the fire, as though its heat might burn away her shame and desire. “I am tired and I am frightened and I am desperate, but I am not confused.” She took a deep breath and ran a hand over her face. “Do not attempt to seduce me again, or I shall hate you. I must sleep and clear my mind, and in the morning, I shall escape this house. My niece, my flesh and blood, is held prisoner somewhere, and the monster that has taken her place sucks the very life out of my sister. I will not sacrifice them on the altar of gratification. I cannot fail my family again. Are you my ally or not?”
He bowed in response. “You must never doubt that I am. I shall obey your wishes and meet any challenge you may present to me.”
“Will you obey me?” asked Lucy, thrilled by her anger and her sense of power and authority. She had neither lied nor deceived nor used vile magic, and he was still hers. Women
He bowed again.
She thought of the things she had yet upon her, the knowledge she yet possessed. She had three pages of the
“These walls shan’t hold us,” Lucy pronounced, feeling her courage form into something material and adamantine. “Lady Harriett and her allies and her imps can do nothing against us.”
He turned to open the door. “Then I shall see you well rested in the morning, Lucy.”
“I wish you good night, Lord Byron.”
He began to walk out and then turned to her. “As a point of clarification, do you say that I must never try to seduce you ever, or not while we remain here?”
The thinnest smile, constrained but quivering, danced upon his lips, and Lucy could not help but laugh. “Here to be sure,” she said. “We shall see what comes later.”
The smile blossomed fully. He bowed one last time and closed the door behind him.
Sitting on her bed, Lucy listened to the ticking of the tall case clock outside her door, and she heard nothing else. Perhaps ten minutes passed. Perhaps twenty. When it seemed like enough time, she removed from the folds of her skirt the pages she had cut from Lady Harriett’s book. By the strong light of several tapers, she began to unravel their meaning, which came into sharp relief.
Before allowing herself to sleep, Lucy had opened her curtains so she would awaken at first light. Nevertheless, she remained in deep slumber perhaps later than she wished, not rising until an hour or so after dawn. She refreshed herself as best she could with water from the basin, dressed, and began to go through her materials that she had collected the night before, organizing her notes and charms. She had fallen asleep before finishing, too exhausted to go on, so she finished her work now, writing for as long as she dared. When the clock struck eight o’clock, she knew she could wait no longer. She had perhaps four hours to escape Lady Harriett’s estate.
Though she had slept only a few hours, her mind was much clearer, sharper, focused by anger and desperation. Lucy opened up the bag she kept hidden in her gown and examined once more the herbs, the tools, and the ingredients. What she hoped to do was possible. From memory, she made a talisman of vulnerability. She would not be surprised again by Lady Harriett’s strength.
Placing her bag within the secret compartment in her gown, she left her room and knocked upon Byron’s door, and found him dressed and ready to attend to her.
“Let us then see if Lady Harriett will offer us breakfast,” she said.
Here they had a bit of good fortune, perhaps the only good fortune upon which they ought to depend, so Lucy embraced it most gratefully. Breakfast was, indeed, set out—a series of chafing dishes with eggs, toast, bacon, porridge, and meats. There was salt, which Lucy required, and she saw a parsley garnish, which she quickly pocketed. Upon the table was a vase containing a variety of wildflowers, including, Lucy noted, bluebells. Lady Harriett was careless to leave such things lying about.
They were not to dine alone, for sitting at the table, enjoying a plate piled high with sausage and bacon, was none other than Mr. Buckles. His tall frame was stooped over his plate while he worked his knife and fork with determined fury, slicing and smothering. His face was slick with perspiration, as though the act of cutting and eating taxed him to his limits.
He looked upon Lucy, took a bite of sausage, and then spoke while he chewed. “I hear I am to wish you, as they say, joy, Miss Derrick. To become Mrs. Olson after all. It is very grand, and more than you deserve, if I may be so bold. But it is Lady Harriett’s will.”
“Where is Lady Harriett?” asked Byron, touching his cheek. It had begun to bruise, disrupting his beauty like paint spilled upon a portrait.
“Lady Harriett and her associates have departed,” said Mr. Buckles. “Something happened with that John Bellingham fellow—some disaster that she blamed upon you, Miss Derrick. I am hardly surprised you would have