“You try.”
Rafael smiled shyly. “This a girl I meet in my neighborhood. We’re goin to Haydee’s. You know it?”
It was a place that served Mexican and El Salvadoran food. The owner had come to America from El Salvador, worked as a waitress, and opened her first restaurant on Mount Pleasant Street and then a second on Georgia Avenue. Alex had taken the family to the Mount Pleasant location for dinner one night and bored them, no doubt, with his enthusiastic retelling of another immigrant success story.
“It’s nice,” said Alex. “Reasonable, too. So don’t ask me for too much.”
“Can I get forty dollars?” said Rafael.
Alex reached into his pocket, produced a roll of bills, peeled off two twenties. “You want it all taken out the next payday?”
“Half nex week, half the nex. Okay?”
Alex handed him the money. “Wear a rubber, Rafael.”
“ Que? ”
“You heard me. You’re too young to be a father.”
“I don’t like the raincoat.”
“Do what I tell you, boy.”
Rafael winked. “Thanks, boss.”
Alex made a small wave of his hand. “Have fun.”
Rafael headed for the back door with a cocky, athletic dip. Alex was reminded of Gus. He had had that kind of physicality and confidence. Alex had constantly reminded him to use condoms, too. “Your mother and I don’t want any grandchildren yet. You don’t want to mess up some girl’s life.” Gus, like Rafael, didn’t look past the pleasure at the consequences. It was not that they were insensitive, but rather, they were insensible. Alex never had to tell Johnny to use a condom. He knew little about his personal life, but he felt that Johnny would be cautious. Gus, on the other hand, made decisions based on desire and emotion. Gus was certain he would play football at a higher level, despite his average size, and wanted to move to Florida. Gus had joined the army behind his romantic vision of the warrior. Gus had dreams and fantasies. Johnny had plans.
Alex heard a knocking sound and turned his head to see a tall black man rapping his knuckles on the glass of the front door.
“I’ll get it, Dad,” said Johnny.
“No, I will,” said Alex.
He slipped the cash box under the counter, shut the register drawer, passed through the break in the counter, and stepped up to the door. Through the glass, he mouthed the word “Closed” to the man, but the man did not move. Alex flipped the dead bolt and opened the door just enough to speak to him.
“We’re closed, sir.”
“I’m not here for food or drink.”
“What can I do for you?”
“My name is Raymond Monroe.”
The name was a common one. It was also vaguely familiar. Alex had the growing feeling that he had seen this man before.
“Can I come in for a minute?”
“Why?”
“Look, I’m not here to rob you.”
“I know that,” said Alex, a bit embarrassed and also annoyed.
“I saw you outside the Fisher House yesterday, at Walter Reed. You and I almost bumped into each other.”
“Right,” said Alex. So that was where he recognized him from. He didn’t quite remember the encounter, but he had no reason to think this man would lie.
“It was Peggy. You know Peggy, don’t you? She told me who you were. See, there was something about you. Well, it was your eye, you want the truth. And then, when she said your name… You are the boy that got hurt out at Heathrow Heights, aren’t you?”
Alex hesitated. “I was.”
“I’m one of the young men who was involved in the incident. The younger brother.”
Monroe drew his wallet and held out his driver’s license so Alex could match the photo to the name. Alex glanced at it, keeping his foot against the door.
“Look, I don’t want anything,” said Monroe.
“You’ve, uh, caught me off guard here.”
“Just a word.” Monroe placed his palm on the glass of the door. “Please.”
“Certainly.” Alex stepped aside. “Come in.”
Monroe entered the shop, and Alex locked the door. They walked toward the counter.
“Can I get you a soda, something?”
“I’m okay,” said Monroe.
“Dad?” said Johnny, standing with Darlene by the rear door.
“Go home, both of you,” said Alex. “I’m just gonna have a word with this gentleman. I’ll be right behind you.”
After Alex waited for Johnny and Darlene to go, he gestured to the stool nearest the register. As Monroe got situated, Alex took a seat himself, leaving one empty stool between them. Alex rarely sat on this side of the counter. He didn’t know what to do with his arms.
“That was your boy?”
“My oldest, yes.”
“Nice-looking kid.”
“Thanks.”
“I have a boy, too, a soldier. Kenji’s in the Tenth Mountain Division, First Battalion. Third Brigade Combat Team.”
“God protect him,” said Alex.
“Yes.”
“Is that why you were at Walter Reed?”
“No, I work there. I’m a physical therapist.”
“That’s admirable.”
“Well, I’m getting paid for it. So it’s not like I’m donating my time. But I’m tryin to help out, you know. I felt a little useless, what with Kenji over there, doing his part.”
Alex nodded. On the Coca-Cola clock, the second hand swept past twelve, dropping the minute hand with a soft click. Alex placed his forearm on the counter and ran a finger along the artificial grain of the linoleum.
“I’m sorry,” said Alex. “I don’t mean to be rude. It’s just that I’m not exactly clear on why you came to see me.”
“I’m just reaching out,” said Monroe. “You move along in life, you feel the need to make the beds you left undone.”
Alex nodded. He could think of nothing to say.
“We don’t have to do this all at once,” said Monroe, sensing the man’s resistance and confusion, deciding that the rest of it would have to be left for another, more appropriate time. “When you feel more comfortable, when you’re ready to talk again, give me a call.”
Monroe reached for the guest check pad and the pen that was lying beside it. He wrote his name and cell number on the top sheet, tore it off, and pushed it along the counter to Alex. Alex was polite and did the same.
“I’m sorry for the loss of your son,” said Monroe.
“Thank you.”
Monroe and Alex got off their stools and headed for the door.
“Mr. Monroe.”
“Make it Ray.”
“Your brother… What was his name again?”
