Shepherd said it anyway. “It’s possible Kaylie hallucinated these incidents, if her mind was already unbalanced.”
“Sure. That’s what the sheriff and his boys told me too, after Kaylie shot Justin and got arrested for it. They said it must be all in her mind, and to prove it they went into the house and searched the garage.”
“And?”
“They found Justin’s guns and trophies, but nothing more. No jars of blood, no cassette tapes of Indian chants, not even any candles.”
“That seems to undermine Kaylie’s story, doesn’t it?”
“They thought so. I don’t. The stuff disappeared, I don’t know how. But if Kaylie saw it, then it was real. I can’t explain its absence. Well, I can’t explain why owls hoot, or what makes the desert smell of wood smoke after a summer rain. There’s plenty I can’t explain, but I know what I know. The problem was never with Kaylie. It was Justin, always.”
“If you knew all this, why didn’t you get help for him?”
“Psychiatric help? Personally, I’ve never bought into that headshrinking stuff, and I still don’t. But Regina had a different view of things. She talked to a doctor, for all the good it did. You’ve met the gentleman. Dr. John Cray.”
Shepherd sat very still.
“Cray?” he said quietly.
“The Hawk Ridge Institute is the only psychiatric hospital in the area. It was the logical place to go. Cray was the director even then. Regina had a meeting with him. She told him everything about Justin — the car theft, the fires, the shoplifting, and now this new strangeness in his life, the hunting. She hoped Justin could be treated as an outpatient, but she was prepared”—Anson hesitated, the words painful to utter—“she was prepared to have him committed.”
“Did Kaylie know about that meeting?”
“No. We never told her. She had enough to deal with as it was. Anyway, nothing came of it. Cray promised he’d consider the case. But he never called us, and when Regina telephoned him, he was always out, or so his secretary said.”
“Why would he give you the runaround?”
A shrug. “I always figured it was because Justin didn’t have any insurance. Goddamned institute needs to maintain its profit margin, after all.”
“You could have tried somewhere else. There must be a few psychiatrists in private practice around here, or a psychiatric ward in a local hospital….”
“Regina talked about it. I believe she would have found somebody, in time. But there wasn’t time. Justin died too soon. Less than two months after Regina’s meeting with the good Dr. Cray, our boy was dead.”
Twilight had passed by now. The sun was long gone, and even the mountains had vanished. There was only darkness.
“Do you know why Kaylie shot him?” Shepherd asked.
“I can only make a surmise. Way I figure, Justin got crazy and violent, and Kaylie had to kill him in self- defense. She ran away for no good reason — she was in shock, not thinking straight — a scared girl, nineteen years old, out of her mind with panic. The cops caught her, and after that she was the one at Hawk Ridge.”
“Under Cray’s care.”
“Yes.”
“He treated her personally.”
“So I was told.” Anson looked at him. “You find some significance in that?”
Shepherd didn’t answer. He studied the dark.
“Roy?” Anson pressed. “Just what are you thinking?”
Shepherd thought for a moment longer, then asked, “Do you know how we arrested Kaylie?”
“The newspaper said she was on the grounds of the institute. I don’t know why she would go there. It’s one of the things I wanted to ask her, but they won’t let me in to talk with her.”
“She was stalking Cray.”
“Stalking him?”
“Following him around. Trying to break into his house.”
“That doesn’t make any sense. Why would she do that?”
“She seemed to think he was guilty of a crime. She wanted to prove it.”
“What crime?”
“Murder. A whole series of murders.”
“She never said — I mean, she…”
“I know what you mean, Anson. She never told you anything about it, in all the years you kept in touch with her.”
“You know I can’t admit to that, Roy. Aiding and abetting, they call it.” He looked away. “But if she’d had any suspicion of such a thing, she’d have told me.”
“Not necessarily.” Shepherd hesitated. “Not if she thought it would hurt you.”
“Hurt me? How could anything Cray had done…? Oh. I see. It’s not Cray alone you’re thinking of. It’s Justin.”
“Possibly.”
“You think Cray got hooked up with Justin somehow? You think after he met with Regina, he sought out Justin on his own and struck up some kind of unholy partnership?”
“I don’t know what to think.”
“It doesn’t add up, Roy. Whatever else you think of him, Cray’s smart. He wouldn’t need Justin’s help for anything. If he meant to kill somebody, he could do it all alone. What could Justin tell him?”
“How to hunt,” Shepherd said, the idea taking shape in his mind in the moment he uttered it aloud.
There was silence between them, just silence and the dark.
“Yes,” Anson allowed at last. “Yes, my boy could’ve taught him that.”
Shepherd rose from his chair. “What’s the fastest way from here to Hawk Ridge?”
“Take High Creek Road east and hook up with Highway Two-sixty-six. That’ll take you to One-ninety- one.”
“I’ll get going, then. Thanks for the root beer.”
Shepherd headed for the porch steps. Anson’s voice stopped him.
“Roy. You going to talk to Cray? Is that it?”
“Not Cray. Kaylie. She has a lot to tell me, I think. She tried more than once already. I’m afraid I didn’t listen.” Shepherd took the steps two at a time. “This time I will.”
52
At seven o’clock, midway through her three-to-eleven shift, Nurse Dana Cunningham headed down the hallway of Ward B to give Kaylie McMillan her evening injection.
An orderly walked beside her. Cunningham never entered the room of any violent patient without backup. This was a lesson she’d learned years ago at a youth facility in Phoenix, when a kid had gouged her cheek with the pull-tab of a soda can. She still saw the small puckered scar every time she looked in a mirror.
She didn’t mind the scar. It was helpful. It was a reminder.
“McMillan’s a tiny little thing,” she told the orderly, “but she killed a guy once — her husband, I think. So watch her.”
The orderly just nodded. Not a talker.
