you push me to excel.”
Her face glowed with exertion and sweat; her eyes held his, cool and clear.
He hadn’t run far enough, Gull realized. He hadn’t nearly run off the need. He hooked his fingers in the bodice of the tank, jerked her to him.
“Hold on. I haven’t got my breath back.”
“Exactly.”
He wanted her breathless, he thought as he took her mouth. Hot and breathless and as needy as he. She tasted like a melted lemon drop, tart and warm. The heat from the run, and from that dominating lust, pulsed off both of them while her heart galloped against his.
For the first time she trembled, just a little. He didn’t know whether it came from the run or the kiss. He didn’t care.
From somewhere nearby, someone let out a hoot and whistle of approval. And for the first time, like a lemon drop in the sun, she began to melt.
The siren sounded.
They tore themselves apart, their breath quick and jerky as they looked toward the barracks.
“To be continued,” Gull told her.
12
In the air the next afternoon, with a golf pro harnessed to him, Lucas watched the base scramble below. He and his daughter wouldn’t eat dinner together tonight after all.
The disappointment ran keen, reminding him how many times he’d had to cancel plans with her during his seasons. He wished her safe; he wished her strong.
“This is the best time of my life!” his client shouted.
You’re young yet, Lucas thought. Best times come and go. If you’re lucky enough, they keep coming.
Once they’d landed, once the routine of photographs, replays, thanks wound down, he read the text on his phone.
“See you later,” he murmured.
Lucas called base to get a summary of the fire.
The one the day before had only required a four-man crew, and they’d been in and out inside ten hours.
This one looked trickier.
Camper fire, off Lee Ridge, load of sixteen jumping it. And his girl was in that load.
Though he could bring the area into his head, he consulted his wall map. Ponderosa and lodgepole pines, he mused, Douglas fir. Might be able to use Lee Creek as a water source or, depending on the situation, one of the pretty little streams.
He studied the map, considered jump sites, and the tricky business of jumping into those thick and quiet forests.
She’d be fine, he assured himself. He’d do some paperwork, then grab some dinner. Then settle in to wait.
He stared at his computer screen for five full minutes before accepting defeat. Too much on his mind, he admitted.
He considered going over to the base, using the gym, maybe scoring a meal from Marg. But it felt too much like what it was. Hovering.
It had been nice to eat in a restaurant the other night, he remembered. Drink a little wine, have some conversation over a hot meal. He’d gotten too used to the grab-and-go when Rowan wasn’t around. Not that either of them excelled at cooking, but they managed to get by.
Alone, he tended to hit the little cafe attached to his gift shop, if he remembered before business closed for the day. Or slap a sandwich together unless he wandered down to base. He could mic a packaged meal, he always stocked plenty at home. But he’d never gotten used to sitting down to one without the company of teammates.
There had been times, he knew, when he’d been jumping that he’d felt intensely lonely. Yet he’d come to know he hadn’t fully understood loneliness until the nights spun out in front of him in an empty house.
He pulled out his phone. If he let himself think about it, he’d never go through with it. So he called Ella before he had a clear idea what to say, or how to say it.
“Hello?”
Her voice sounded so cheerful, so breezy. He nearly panicked.
Iron Man, my ass, he thought.
“Ah, Ella, it’s Lucas.”
“Hello, Lucas.”
“Yeah, hello.”
“How are you?” she asked after ten seconds of silence.
“Good. I’m good. I had a really good time the other night.” Jesus Christ, Lucas.
“So did I. I’ve had a lovely time thinking about it, and you, since.”
“You did?”
“I did. Now that you’ve called, I’m hoping you’re going to ask to do it again.”
He felt the pleasure rise up from his toes and end in a big, stupid grin. This wasn’t so hard. “I’d like to have dinner with you again.”
“I’d like that, too. When?”
“Actually, I—Tonight? I know it’s short notice, but—”
“Let’s call it spontaneous. I like spontaneity.”
“That’s good. That’s great. I could pick you up at seven.”
“You could. Or we can both be spontaneous. Come to dinner, Lucas, I’m in the mood to cook. Do you like pasta?”
“Sure, but I don’t want to put you out.”
“Nothing fancy. It’s supposed to be a pretty evening; we could eat out on the deck. I’ve been working on my garden, and you’d give me a chance to show it off.”
“That sounds nice.” A home-cooked meal, an evening on a deck by a garden—two dinners within three days with a pretty woman? It sounded flat-out amazing.
“Do you need directions?”
“I’ll find you.”
“Then I’ll see you around seven. Bye, Lucas.”
“Bye.”
He had a date, he thought, just a little stunned. An official one.
God, he hoped he didn’t screw it up.
He thought about Rowan while he drove home to change for dinner. She’d be in the thick of it now, in the smoke and heat, taking action, making decisions. Every cell in her body and mind focused on killing the fire and staying alive.
He thought of her when he walked in the house, only minutes from the base. A good-sized place, he reflected. But when Rowan was home, she needed her space, and his parents came home several times a year and needed theirs.
Still, during the long stretches without them, the empty seemed to grow.
He kept it neat. All the years of needing to grab whatever he needed the minute he needed it carried over to
