he would become. “Ever since Sosakan Sano came here, I have been suffering from the most terrible feeling of doom.”
“But why? What have you to be afraid of?” Though she kept her voice calm, Lady Miyagi was disturbed. Why hadn’t she sensed his fear? Why hadn’t he confided in her sooner? Were they losing their precious spiritual connection? Anger filled Lady Miyagi like hot, suffocating flame. Harume had done this! And beneath her anger, a shard of fright lodged in her breast.
How much did Shigeru know? What would happen to them? Suddenly Lady Miyagi didn’t want to hear what he was going to say. Lying rigid beneath her quilt, the fear growing into a jagged crystal in her heart, she braced herself for disaster.
“I’ve heard that Sosakan Sano is a man who will stop at nothing to discover the truth,” Shigeru said. “Suppose he finds out what happened between Lady Harume and me? I could be charged with murder.”
“He already knows about the affair,” Lady Miyagi said reasonably, though horror sickened her. Shigeru, arrested-perhaps even convicted and executed? How would she live without him? “You’ve admitted sending the ink, but Sosakan Sano can’t prove that you had anything to do with the murder.” She had to force herself to speak the next words: “And what more is there for him to find out?”
Even in her terror of losing Shigeru, Lady Miyagi tasted bitter jealousy. She didn’t want to learn anything about him and Harume that she didn’t already know; she didn’t want to be hurt again.
“Harume said that unless I gave her ten thousand koban, she would tell the shogun I had forced myself on her,” Shigeru said unhappily. “I thought she was bluffing, but I couldn’t be sure. So I paid her, a little at a time, so you wouldn’t notice money missing from the household accounts. I didn’t want you to worry.”
Shigeru seemed to deflate, as if drained by the confession. “Harume’s blackmail gives me a strong motive for murder. If Sosakan Sano learns of it, I’ll be the prime suspect. Now do you understand why I’m afraid?”
Relief flooded Lady Miyagi. Forgetting her doubts and fears, she wanted to laugh with joy. Blackmail-that’s all it was, not another cruel betrayal. And how kind of her husband to consider her feelings. New confidence flowed through Lady Miyagi, washing away her suspicion that he’d hidden the truth from her for some less noble reason. She was the strong, sensible one who always took care of problems. She could avert any threat, triumph over any adversary who threatened them.
“Don’t worry, Cousin,” she said. “I’ll fix things so that you’ll be safe from Sosakan Sano. Rest now, and leave everything to me.”
Shigeru’s eyes were tearful with relief and gratitude. “Thank you, Cousin. What would I ever do without you?”
Rolling over, he snuggled under the quilt. Lady Miyagi extinguished the lamp. Soon Shigeru was snoring quietly, but she lay awake, scheming. Lieutenant Kushida was the logical prime suspect, and Lady Miyagi expected him to be convicted of the crime. Yet she didn’t dare count on it. From the beginning she’d anticipated and prepared for trouble. Already she’d acted in their mutual defense. Now she must take further steps to protect her beloved husband. Their special marriage.
Her life.
26
As midnight approached, the fog dispersed over the bancho, the district west of Edo Castle where Tokugawa hereditary vassals lived. Stars glittered in ragged patches of indigo sky. The moon’s radiance turned the fleeing mist to a silvery haze that lit the labyrinth of deserted streets. In the dense bamboo thickets surrounding hundreds of tiny, rundown yashiki, nocturnal life seethed. Foraging rats rustled the wet leaves; stray dogs fought; crickets chirped. But most of the human population slumbered within dark houses. Sentries dozed in gatehouses, enduring the tedium of a quiet watch. All was peaceful-except the Kushida estate: There torches burned above the gate and around the bamboo thicket. Tokugawa troops patrolled the perimeter and perched on the thatched roof, preventing the escape of the criminal under house arrest.
In a small, dark storage chamber converted to a jail cell, Lieutenant Kushida lay on his futon. The alchemy of sleep carried him out of imprisonment, into the Large Interior. Down empty corridors he followed the sound of Lady Harume’s singing:
“Summer’s green bamboo shoots grow tall and bold,
The lotus spreads its pink petals…”
Kushida’s heart filled with joyous anticipation. This time she would accept his love. She would satisfy the terrible lust that gnawed at him.
“Rain showers the roofs,
A cuckoo calls-
Come to me, my love…”
At last Kushida arrived at Lady Harume’s door. He pushed it open and saw Harume lying dead on the floor. Blood drenched her nude body and long, tangled hair. The fatal tattoo branded her shaven pubis like ink on ivory. As Kushida stared in horror, Lady Harume’s eyes opened. Her hand beckoned. In a strangled croak, she sang:
“Come to me, my love!”
Jerking awake, Kushida lurched upright in bed. His chest heaved as though he’d been running. And his manhood was erect, painfully engorged with the lust he still felt for Lady Harume. She had haunted his dreams ever since they’d first met. After her death, the dreams had become nightmares. Yet love and desire persisted. And within his spirit, like underground steam seeking a fissure through which to explode, swelled his anger toward the woman who had humiliated and ruined him.
Clambering to his feet, Kushida cursed himself for succumbing to sleep and allowing the dreams to come. But he’d needed a reprieve from the harsh reality of his situation. Now he paced the floor, trying to bring his emotions under control.
At first he’d attempted to resign himself to his imprisonment with samurai stoicism. He’d spent the day in quiet meditation, eating the meals brought to him, depositing his urine and feces into the waste-bucket. But soon he could hold his peace no more. The room had grown dark and steadily colder since nightfall because his captors would give him no lamp or charcoal brazier, lest he try to burn his way out. The shame of being caged like an animal tormented his spirit. And the internal pressure of anger and need expanded within him, fueling his desperate craving for freedom.
Ten steps along one blank wall, then Kushida turned the corner and marched eight steps along another, and ten more past the door outside which a soldier stood guard. Having memorized the room’s dimensions, he needed no light to direct him. The fourth wall of the room boasted a high, barred window that had once overlooked the garden but now faced a corridor-the house had expanded over the years, with new wings added to accommodate the family’s growth. Now the wavering glow of a candle moved across the window, casting dim light into Kushida’s cell. An old, white-haired samurai appeared in the corridor.
“Can’t sleep, young master?” It was Yohei, a retainer whose family had served Kushida’s clan for generations. As he smiled, sorrow deepened the wrinkles in his round face. “Well, neither could I, so I came to keep you company.”
The rest of the household, including Kushida’s parents, had avoided him all day. They believed him guilty of murder and wanted no share of his disgrace. But Yohei had adored Kushida since his birth, always giving him special treats, caring for him like a doting uncle. He alone had braved social censure to visit Kushida periodically. Now he said, “Are you bearing up all right? Anything I can do for you?”
The old man’s kindness brought tears to Kushida’s eyes. “How did this happen, Yohei?” he lamented.
“Fate often does strange things. Perhaps it is punishing you for the sins of your ancestors.”
After hours of soul-searching, Kushida could blame neither fate nor his ancestors for the ills that his own actions, his own history, had created. Across the distance of twenty-five years, he saw the school where he’d learned the art of the spear. He heard the voice of his teacher.
“All your energy must be channeled into the development of combat skill,” Sensei Saigo lectured the class. “Don’t dissipate your strength in wasteful self-indulgence. At meals, stop eating before you’ve had your fill; let hunger sharpen your awareness. Abstain from liquor and frivolous recreation, which dull the mind and weaken the
