My heart was pounding as I drove myself forward- covering the distance between Felicity and me with a burst of speed that could only have been the product of an adrenalin surge. I started backpedaling as I drew near, trying to bring myself to a stop. In the end, I literally fell in front of her, hitting the ground hard and scrambling the last foot or so on my hands and knees.
As I crawled, my ears were filled with the thunder of the diesel engine. The cacophony was punctuated by the rhythmic clack of the locomotive wheels against track as the southbound freight train started across the trestle above.
Slipping my arms behind my wife’s back, I pulled her up and hugged her close. Hot tears were already streaming down my face as every ounce of the fear and dread I had been holding at bay was now bleeding out of me in an emotional hemorrhage.
Her body was warm to the touch and I buried my face against her neck, stroking her hair as my own body shuddered in an off-kilter cadence with my heavy sobs. My very soul was rending itself into nothingness as I spiraled into darkened despair. I couldn’t even find the energy to curse Cerridwen for taking her from me, nor myself for allowing it to happen.
All I could do was cry.
The last thing I expected to feel were her arms slowly wrapping across my back.
In my head, I could have sworn I heard the lilting Celtic tone of her faint voice saying, “Aye, Rowan, it’s okay…”
My first thought was that she had now joined the voices of the dead. It only stood to reason that she would speak to me from beyond the veil. And, of course, the whispers of those on the other side had become such an integral part of my life these past few years that I was rarely surprised when they made themselves known.
My second thought, when I considered the pressure I believed I felt against my back, was that the inevitable had arrived without delay. I had stepped over the edge and was officially insane.
I continued to hold her tight, letting the world around me be swallowed by the riotous noise from above. It didn’t even cross my mind that she was actually alive and well until the train had finally passed, and I could actually hear her complaining.
“Row, please,” she said, her voice a strained whisper. “I can’t breathe.”
I loosened my grip and pulled away from her. She was staring back at me with her eyes wide. Her tired expression displayed the cumulative fatigue of the past few days, but she still managed to cock her head to the side and give me a look of concern. She sucked in a deep breath and quickly huffed it back out.
“Thank you,” she said.
“I thought you were gone…” I said, wiping the back of my hand across my eyes.
“Aye,” she returned with a slight nod. “I got that impression.”
“Oh Gods…” I whispered, reaching out and gently brushing her cheek.
“It’s okay, Row.” She gave me a weak smile. “I’m fine. Really.”
“Told ya’, white man.” I heard Ben’s voice come from behind me, and I quickly glanced back over my shoulder.
My friend was standing in the middle of the service road looking down at us. He was nervously fidgeting, wringing his hands around the length of the flashlight I had dropped, and he had apparently retrieved. His expression was a mix of relief and discomfort all at once, and he looked away as if embarrassed to have witnessed my unchecked emotional outburst.
I forced out a hot breath and then sucked in a fresh one in an attempt to relax. I continued to wipe my eyes as I sniffed, somewhat chagrined myself. “How long have you been there?”
“For a bit,” he said softly. “Caught up to ya’ right after ya’ started screamin’.”
“I’m surprised you heard me.”
“Jeezus, Kemosabe, who couldn’t? You were louder than the fuckin’ train,” he told me with a half-hearted chuckle. I’m sure the joke was to ease his apparent discomfort as much as mine.
I let out a clipped laugh as well. “Yeah… So… I guess I looked pretty ridiculous.”
“No,” he replied with a slow shake of his head. “You looked pretty much like any guy would if he thought he’d just lost everything he had to live for.”
The level of understanding Ben was displaying was a testament to the depth of our friendship. I knew full well that he wasn’t one for overt displays of tenderness or sharing of vulnerabilities, so I appreciated his words even more.
“Thanks, Chief,” I told him.
“It’s all good, Kemosabe,” he replied, raising a hand and smoothing back his hair. “So ya’think we can change the subject before this gets all touchy feely?”
“Afraid you’ll damage your reputation with the woodland creatures?” Felicity quipped.
“Maybe,” he grunted. “So what’s up with you? Ya’ damn near gave us all heart attacks.”
She shrugged. “Aye, sorry about that.”
“So what did happen?” I asked, turning back to Felicity. “Why are you just sitting here?”
“Waiting for you,” she replied. “I knew you wouldn’t be too far behind.”
“Look at this,” Ben said, shoving a wrinkled piece of paper over my shoulder.
I took it and glanced at the scribbles. It was the map he had copied from Felicity’s bloody rendition.
“Turn it the other way,” he instructed, motioning with his finger.
I followed his direction and rotated the paper, then looked carefully at the scrawl of lines. My friend reached over my shoulder and indicated several points on the homemade map.
“Service road, railroad tracks…” he allowed his voice to trail off.
I looked up from the paper and at Felicity. “Did you find…”
She was already nodding before I could finish the question. “Aye, there’s a grave on the other side of the tracks. A few yards off the road.”
“Did you disturb anything?” Ben asked, shifting into his official cop persona.
“No.” She shook her head. “I haven’t even been over there.”
“Then how do you know for sure…” he began, then caught himself. “Forget it. Forget it.”
“Not that I’m complaining,” I said. “But I was certain you would try to connect with her. Why didn’t you?”
“I would have, but she wouldn’t let me,” she replied. “She remembered me, Rowan.”
“She what?”
“Brittany and I went to elementary school together,” she replied. “I’d almost forgotten that myself, but she didn’t. She told me she couldn’t allow an old friend to be hurt. All she wanted was for me to find her.”
Behind me, I heard Ben softly whistling the theme from the television show, Twilight Zone.
“Hey! You wanna get off my ass?” Ben’s angry shout echoed through the woods as he stared down at Lieutenant Albright. “It’s not like I’m the one who killed ‘er ya’know!”
“Don’t take that tone with me, Detective Storm,” she spat in return.
“Both of you need to settle down,” Constance interjected.
“I don’t see where you have much say in this, Special Agent Mandalay,” Albright announced as she brought her angry gaze to bear on Constance. “This is no longer an abduction, it is a homicide investigation.”
True to what Constance had told me earlier, Lieutenant Albright was well on her way to reclaiming this case. It was obvious from her display that in her mind, you were either with her or against her. And, the four of us were already marked as against. Of course, I’m sure we had been tagged as such all along.
“The Bureau still has an interest in this, Lieutenant,” Constance returned. “The fact is you have a serial killer on your hands.”
“Be that as it may, you have no business interfering with my command,” Albright snipped.
“I’m not trying to interfere with anything,” Constance replied with a shake of her head. “I’m simply telling you that standing here yelling at one another isn’t getting any of us any closer to solving this crime.”
“I still want to know what THEY are doing here.” Albright shrugged off Mandalay’s observation and shunted the conversation into a different direction as she gestured at Felicity and me.
