personally. Hell, I fucked his old lady and with his blessing, too. It wasn't no perverted thing, either. And then I drifted down to Santa Cruz. And I read about they found my old man dead in a car, all wasted up. I think he was trying to get away and they crashed his fuckin' car is what they did… Well, I knew a few things by then, I seen that other world and I knew some Peyote eaters, they showed me a few things…' He gestured toward the fetish dolls hanging from the shelves.
There was only one window, with a wooden, padlocked shutter over it. Drax got up, crossed to the window – only three paces, his every step seeming to bring out a creak in each board of the little one-room shack. He took a thickly clustered ring of keys from his pocket and opened the padlock on the shutter, tilted it back and propped it up with a stick. Lonny blessed the infusion of clean air coming through the broken-out window panes, as Drax pointed through the window at the ground in front of the shack It was all packed earth, enclosed in a circle of waist-high wooden posts. Hanging from each post was a trio of the fetish dolls – made from bright pieces of radio wire, bits of transistors, feathers and dried seeds and strips of cloth; they seemed to glow golden-red in the light of the setting sun. 'You see that? They guard us! They guard us here. The More Man is scareda me, brother, you know he is. I know some things and I got some friends. He knows I'm going to get him sometime soon. The solstices swing around: with the stars you can see and the stars you can't, they tell the story. I'm going to get the son of a bitch, and I'm here practically on his front porch, waiting for the chance…'
Lonny was intrigued. But the coffee having worked its way through him, he had more urgent concerns. 'You got a bathroom here?'
Tongue trapped mischievously between his snaggled teeth, Drax whirled on him, sniggering. 'Well, I guess I sure as hell do! I got a bathroom maybe forty square miles wide! Just be careful there ain't no snakes laughin at the pimples on your butt.'
East Los Angeles
Garner got off the bus a few blocks from Blume's apartment building. The city was supposedly trying to cut back on air pollution but the buses gouted black smoke and this one blew a toxic cloud directly onto Garner as he looked around the street corner. Choking, stomach bucking with nausea, he hurried across the street. On the other side was a liquor store and a row of tenements, most of them draped in the evening shadow; the streetlights had been shot out at both ends of the block. In front of the tenements the Set roiled with men and women, blacks and cholos mostly, and a few skinny white girls. Most of the steady customers for crack were white, middle-class men, Garner knew, and he watched them drive up in their Camrys and Ford Tauruses and buy crack through the car windows.
Garner had been to the Western Union; he had some money on him now, himself…
And he realized he had crossed to this corner only because he'd glimpsed the drug-dealing Set happening down here. This wasn't the way to Blume's place. He should've turned down the Boulevard.
Goddamn, he thought, it's got me already. Two lousy runs and it's got me.
Well, it asked him, so what? I mean, what's the use? Constance probably isn't really alive. The guy probably had some other girl call and say she was okay so we'd stop looking for him. But that didn't make sense – they'd expect someone on the other line to know her voice. Okay – so she was alive that day. His birthday… He's probably killed her by now…
But it didn't seem as if he planned to. Not right away.
Suppose she is alive? What of it? You'll never find her. He can torture her to his sick heart's content – might be cutting off more of her fingers right now – and you could be within a block of her and never know and probably never see her.
So you might as well give up. You give that money to Blume to continue the investigation, it'll be thrown away. He's a waste of time. He's hopeless. It's all hopeless. Might as well use the money to get loaded…
Thinking all this, he'd drifted into the Set.
No one crowded around him, as they would a white guy who looked like he had money, because, instead, he was bandaged and dirty and dishevelled. And he thought for a moment he might get through without buying. He was walking a razor edge; horror on one side and drug lust on the other. He wanted to buy; his bowels felt like they'd let go with the excitement of it. And he very much didn't want to but his hands were clammy, his heart thumped with fear.
Are you crazy, man? What happened last time? Beat to shit in a basement!
But the addict in him superimposed images of the pipe over that, and soothed him: Don't worry. Not this time. This time you'll do it differently. You won't get hurt. You won't get ripped off. This time…
'You lookin' for something, man?' A hispanic guy with wrap-around sunglasses and a red kerchief head-band. It was so dark out here, how did the guy see with sunglasses on?
'What you got?' Garner heard himself say.
'Doves. Choo want it or not, this ain't cool we stan' around an' chit.'
Constance…
But Garner nodded and fished four twenties out of his pocket. The guy swept them from his hand and with the other dropped four irregular white pellets in his palm. Drifted quickly into the Set.
Garner turned around, walked back toward the liquor store, frowning. Something about that exchange…
In the light of a neon beer sign in the store window, he examined his purchase. It looked a little too white and crumbly. He tasted it. Aspirin and baking soda.
He stared into his palm. He'd been gaffel'd. Ripped off.
He tossed the white pellets into the gutter. A weight slipped from his heart.
'You look pretty happy about it,' said a deep voice, just in front of him. He looked up and saw a tall black man in a turtleneck sweater. Gold watch on his wrist. He was somewhere between forty and sixty. Hard to say in this light…
But somehow Garner knew the guy was a minister.
'They gaffel you?' the man asked. When Garner nodded the man said, 'You were smiling. How much money you lose?'
'Eighty bucks.' He noticed two women standing a little behind the man. They had stacks of leaflets in their hands. Smiling black ladies. They seemed amused. The man they worked with just stood there, rocking slightly on his loafers, hands in his pockets, looking at Garner casually but with an irritating knowingness.
''You a minister?' Garner asked.
'Pastor Ray Brick, First Congregational.' They shook hands.
I was a Methodist pastor, if you can believe that. Still am officially, I guess.'
'I can believe it. Man, we lose 'em all the time. You used to be a drug counsellor – in recovery yourself?'
'You guessed it.'
'Uh huh. That's a pattern. One in four long term addicts-in-recovery relapse years later. Most of 'em don't make it back. What was your excuse?'
'My daughter was kidnapped. Probably murdered.'
He looked impressed. 'That's a pretty good one. You had enough, out here?'
Garner stared. His guts knotted.
Don't waste your time, the addict said. You can be more careful next time you buy.
'Let me ask you something,' Brick said, seeing his hesitation. 'You think it was a coincidence, you getting ripped off and me coming along like that? Well, it was. But ydu should know – God's the only one can arrange coincidences. You were happy you hadn't got real crack. You don't really want it.'
Garner nodded, slowly. 'I – was on my way to meet a man… might help me find my daughter.'
'That's pretty important. How about we walk you a ways in that direction – till you get out of this neighbourhood. Can we do that?'
Garner nodded, enormously relieved. 'I'd appreciate it.' He felt tears welling. 'I really would.'
Blume's door was open about two inches. Typical of a drunk to space out something basic like closing your door behind you. The guy was probably useless as a detective, this far into alcoholism. But then, Garner thought, I've been pretty useless as a pastor lately.
He knocked and waited. No reply. No sound of movement from inside. A little lamplight spilled through the door and the angry mutter of a TV set.
The agency had said Blume hadn't been in for three days; hadn't been answering his phone. 'He goes on
