Duckling Ugly

too good to be true?and that kept me suspicious.

He was also very good at what he did. I got a taste of Aaron's 'recreology' that first Sunday. He organized all sorts of clever races and contests?and everyone joined in, including me.

It was a Tom Sawyer kind of life in De Leon, and Abuelo was like our own Hispanic Mark Twain. I told Abuelo that, and he just laughed. 'I am partial to Cervantes,' he said, and he ex­plained that Cervantes was the Spanish author who had written Don Quixote, a famous story about an old knight who did crazy things, like attack a windmill. 'He thought the windmills might be giants,' Abuelo said. 'I applaud a madman who sees the fan­tastic in the ordinary.'

The point is, life was frozen in De Leon, in a time that may never really have existed. You might be tempted to call them back­ward, or ignorant, but you'd be wrong. They knew and understood technology, all the conveniences of modern life, but they simply didn't need any of it. Cars? Why have a car when the valley was only a mile long, and the walk was so refreshing? Electric lights? What was the point, when candles and hearths were so much more friendly and inviting? Telephones? Why not talk face-to-face when so much of communication is body language?

There was simply nothing wrong in De Leon?and, like I said, that kind of perfection is highly suspect. And then, of course, there were the Seven Mysteries, which made me wonder about the place even more?but I'll get to those later.

Even with my suspicious nature, I quickly fell into the easy pace of life there, and each day I found myself thinking about my old life less and less. It's not like I forgot about my family, or Gerardo, or even Marisol and Marshall... but when your days are packed with people who are genuinely kind and unburdened by their own lives, how can you choose to think of bad times? The thoughts did come, though. Usually at night. I would worry about Momma worrying about me. I thought about how Dad would blame himself because of that stupid deal he'd made with Marshall about the car. I thought of Miss Leticia, and mourned the fact that I hadn't been there for her funeral. But then morn­ing would come, Aaron would be at my door with a smile that ap­peared to have no ulterior motive, and those lonely night thoughts dissolved like the early-morning mist.

Getting to know everyone in De Leon, and seeing how well they all fit in, made it more and more obvious to me that I didn't. It was a constant reminder that I'd eventually have to leave. I didn't know where I would go, only that I couldn't go back home. I mentioned this to Aaron, and he just became un­comfortable, and shrugged. The thought of me leaving was the only thing that ever seemed to rattle him?after all, I was the only one here his age, and beggars can't be choosers.

Harmony was much more open when I talked to her about eventually leaving.

'If you find your place among us,' she asked, 'will you still want to leave?'

I thought about it. 'No,' I told her, and it was the truth?but I couldn't imagine anything I could do that would be of use to anyone in De Leon.

After I'd been in De Leon for a week, my little one-room cottage had become furnished and inviting. There was something missing, though, and I couldn't put my finger on what it could be. It was Aaron who had the insight to see what was really missing from the place.

It was the evening of my seventh day. He had just come over with a wooden board game he had invented and Willem had built for him. Kind of a cross between Stratego and chess. We had just started playing when he looked around the room, and said, 'These are all things other people wanted to give you... but since you've been here, you haven't said if there's anything you want.'

'Oh, I don't know,' I said. 'Maybe a radio? A laptop? A TV Guide!' But I was kidding, and he knew it. If I missed any of those things, I only missed them on the surface, because they were familiar. I thought about his question a bit more deeply. Once I did, my answer was easy. 'How about a bamboo paint­brush, some ink, and some paper?'

Aaron nodded. 'I'll see what I can do.'

The next afternoon he came to my cottage all smiles, with a jar of ink in one hand and a brush in the other. 'We didn't have bamboo,' he said, 'so Willem used his lathe to make you one out of birch wood.'

I took the brush, holding it like something precious. The pale bristles were soft and tapered to a point, the way I liked it. I could tell it wasn't wolf hair, or even rabbit. 'What kind of hair is it?'

Aaron blushed a bit, and scratched the side of his head, re­vealing a little thin patch on his scalp.

'No!' I said. 'You didn't.'

'I did. You've got yourself a genuine Aaron-hair brush.'

'That's just plain creepy.'

He shrugged. 'It just means there'll be a little bit of me in everything you draw.'

I looked at the brush again, deciding it wasn't as creepy as it was sweet. Then I realized something was missing. 'Is there any paper?'

He smiled and gestured toward the empty white walls of the cottage. 'Who needs paper?'

I think that was the moment my feelings toward Aaron took a quantum leap beyond gratitude, respect, and awe.

14 The seven mysteries

I once saw this documentary about a family who had adopted a young chimpanzee. They raised it as part of the family. It ate at the table, had its own room done up like any other kid's room. The little chimp had all the love it could handle, and yet there was a deep sadness in its eyes. It knows there's something wrong, I remember thinking. It knows it can never be like the tall, slender crea­tures around it. I wondered if he was human in his dreams, only to wake up to realize it was never going to happen.

That's how I felt among the beautiful people of De Leon, and no matter how accepted they made me feel, I knew I would never be like them. I wondered how long it would take for them to realize it and send me on my way.

I had been in paradise for three weeks when Abuelo paid a surprise visit to my cottage. What had begun as a bare room was now decorated with furniture, quilts, and other warm touches brought by the residents of De Leon. Everything, of course, but mirrors.

I was doing my ink drawings?I had already filled up two whole walls and was working on a third. I stiffened when I saw Abuelo at my open front door. Abuelo never came to visit you? you always went to see him. I looked at the ink drawings on the wall and felt as if I had been caught doing something wrong.

'Hola, mi hija,' he said as he stepped in. 'I came to see how you are getting on.'

'I'm good,' I squeaked out. Abuelo never did anything with­out purpose. I was convinced that this was the day he would cast me out. After all, I had yet to make myself useful here. Was my free ride over? My heart began to beat like I was running a marathon, but I tried not to let it show.

He took a look at the walls, taking them in, saying nothing, then stepped back from the fullest wall to see it as a whole. 'It looks like . . . writing,' he said.

'It is . . . kind of,' I explained. 'I use the basic strokes of Chinese writing for all my drawing.' I picked up my brush and on a blank spot of wall showed him the seven simple marks I had taught myself years ago.

'The Chinese call these strokes the Seven Mysteries,' I told him.

Abuelo studied the seven marks, then stepped closer to exam­ine the individual drawings, each one no larger than a sheet of paper, since that was the size I was used to. I waited for him to turn to me, offer his apologies, and tell me I had to leave De Leon. But he didn't. Instead he pointed to three of the drawings. 'This one is the view from your porch,' he said. 'This, I think, is Harmony's garden. And this ... this is me!' He smiled broadly. 'Que bueno!'