Crossroads

AFTER TEN MINUTES OR SO, JOHN-JOHN YAWNS and rubs his eyes. Frey takes the book from his hand and lays him down on the bed.

John-John looks up at him with eyes suddenly wide with worry. “You’l be here when I wake up, won’t you, Azhe’e?”

Frey brushes a fringe of raven hair back from John-John’s forehead. “I wil, Shiye.”

John-John curls up and Frey pul s a blanket from the foot of the bed and snugs it around his little body. Within seconds, the kid is asleep.

I wish it was that easy for adults.

We tiptoe out and Frey closes the door behind us. I fol ow him through the living room to the kitchen. It looks like something from the fifties — turquoise refrigerator and stove, Formica table with a patterned top that looks like cracked ice, four upholstered leatherette chairs with chrome legs. The countertops are empty and spotless. The white lace curtains in the window are starched and ironed. Even the linoleum on the floor sparkles.

“Wow. Sarah is some housekeeper.”

Anal, is what I’m thinking. But Frey’s place is the same way, so I play nice.

He’s crossed to the refrigerator, opens it and withdraws a couple of bottles of water. He motions with the bottles to the table and I take a seat.

After we’ve both washed the dust out of our throats, I say,

“He’s real y cute.”

Frey smiles and nods.

“And smart, too.”

“Whew. Much smarter than I was at that age. Speaks and reads Navajo and English. At four.”

“Who teaches him?”

“Sarah, mostly. But when Mary isn’t here, he goes to a preschool on the rez while Sarah is at work.”

“Where does she work?”

“At Goulding’s Lodge. She’s a tour guide.”

That must be the lodge she spoke of when she took off with Mary. “How long do you think she’l be gone?”

“She has a half-day tour lined up so it’l be a while.”

“How did you ever convince her to leave John-John with us?”

“Wasn’t easy.” Frey shakes his head. “I had to promise not to leave you alone with him. And to tel her why you’ve come

— to seek out the shaman who can restore human life.”

“Does she know about him?”

“Al Navajo know of him. But she’s never seen him and she has no knowledge of anyone here ever seeking him out. She thinks he’s so reclusive, being granted an audience is next to impossible. If he isn’t dead.”

“Dead? Great.” Stil, why would Chael send me here if the shaman was dead?

I look up to find Frey studying me. “What do we do next?

How do we arrange to meet the tribal elders?”

“Sarah wil make the contact for us.”

“Sarah? Why would she do that?”

Frey snorts. “Easy. The quicker we meet with the elders, the quicker we get the hel out of here.”

There’s a lul while Frey and I retreat into our own thoughts.

There’s so much I want to know about Frey and Sarah and that cute little guy asleep in the bedroom. I’m not sure how to broach the subject, so I just ask bluntly, “Why did Sarah run away?”

Frey looks at me with weary eyes, as if he’s been expecting the question. He pushes away from the table.

“Let’s go outside. If uskes up, I don’t want him to overhear.

He’s had enough of that today.”

We go to the front porch, Frey closing the front door careful y behind us, and take a seat on the porch steps.

“Sarah was studying to be a teacher. She wanted to get her degree, come back to the reservation and teach at the Indian school. She was proud of her heritage, proud of her blood. When we met, at a party, we were attracted to each other right off. The Navajo say we were struck by the thunderbolt.” He grimaces and smiles as if it suddenly self-conscious. “I can’t believe I said that out loud. Go ahead.

Laugh. I know how stupid and immature that sounds.”

“Stupid? No. If anything, it sounds very romantic.” What I don’t add is that I think it happened to me, too. With Stephen.

Frey pats my arm. “Be careful what you wish for. She told me her plans. She knew mine. I never had any il usion that I could be content on a reservation — I’d spent a couple of summers volunteering on a Chappiquiddic reservation — just as she could never imagine being content anywhere else.

We came to the mutual agreement that we would enjoy our time for the two months she was in Boston. When the new semester started, we’d go our separate ways. When summer rol ed around again, if I wanted to get in touch, I’d do it.”

“But she got pregnant.”

“She got pregnant. We’d taken precautions, but you know how that goes.” He pressed fingertips against his eyes. “At first she wanted to get rid of the baby. Frankly, I didn’t protest. But to the Navajo, life is sacred. When it came down to doing it, she couldn’t bring herself to have an abortion.

That was when I knew I had to tel her the truth about me.”

“The truth about being a shifter? Or the truth about being a Keeper?”

“Both.”

“I imagine she didn’t mind the Keeper part so much.”

Frey’s short laugh is humorless and bitter. “No. The Navajo have their own traditions passed down from generation to generation. My position of Keeper of the Secrets is not so different from that of a medicine man or shaman. We are both responsible for the accumulated knowledge of our people. With the Navajo, the knowledge is passed on verbal y. With us, the supernatural community, it’s passed on in written works. She understood that. Even admired it, I think.”

“But as a Navajo, isn’t another of those traditions belief in shape-shifters? I don’t understand why she would have such a dramatic reaction.”

Frey turns his face away, looks out over the yard and beyond. I fol ow his gaze. This is a landscape as foreign to a San Diegan as the dark side of the moon. Beautiful in its color and dramatic scope but lonely and unwelcoming to those who don’t belong. I understand how Frey knew he couldn’t spend his life here.

He releases a long breath. “It’s different. I’m not Navajo.

My ability to shift is not a gift from the gods, it’s a genetic trick of nature. Or at least that’s how Sarah sees it. And the possibility that I could pass that gene onto our child, that he might have no choice but to undergo a painful and dangerous transformation every month in order to survive was too much for her. She hated me for keeping such a huge secret.”

“But you didn’t intend to have a child together. It was an accident.”

“An accident that never would have happened had she known what I was. She’s made that very clear.>

“Is John-John a shifter?”

“There’s a fifty-fifty chance he wil be. We won’t know until he reaches puberty.”

“Ah. That’s what Sarah meant when she said she would bring him to you when the time was right.”

Frey nods. “As if I’d wait that long. We’re going to have to work something out. I won’t be a stranger to my own kid.”

My thoughts turn to John-John. When I became vampire, the life I knew as a mortal ceased to exist. I had to learn to control the animal side of me so I could cling to the human side. I wasn’t ready to give up my family and friends so it was a constant balancing act. I handled it because I was an adult.