matching candy van that towed the small open trailer used to convey the balloon and basket.
The surge of flame, the delayed rise and Marian saying, 'Greatest birthday present ever.'
'Ain't seen nothing yet,' I said.
She said, 'What made you think of it? This is something I've always wanted to do without knowing it exactly Or knowing it but not at the level of ever making plans. You must have read my mind.'
Then she said, 'I didn't know how much I needed to get out and see this landscape again. Too cooped up with job. But I never dreamed I'd be doing it from here. When you said four a.m. I thought what sort of birthday are we talking about.'
'Now you know,' I said. 'But you only know the half of it.'
We leaned close, my arm around her, our thighs pressing, and we were rocked and whirled, although not turning-whirled within ourselves, blood-whirled into quickened sense. I had my free hand around an iron bar, part of the rigid frame connecting the basket to the load cables, and I could feel the metal breathe in my fist.
About twenty minutes later Jerry touched me on the shoulder and pointed straight ahead and I saw the first splash of sunlight on wingtips. The piece began to emerge out of distance and haze, the mesh rectangle completed now, ranks of aircraft appearing as one unit of fitted parts, a shaped weave of painted steel in the monochrome surround.
Jerry said, 'Now if the Air Force don't shoot our asses off, we'll just mosey on over.'
And that's what we did, approaching at an altitude of four hundred feet. I felt Marian hanging a sort of tremulous gawk over the padded edge of the basket. It was a heart-shaking thing to see, bursts and serpentines of color, a power in the earth, and she pulled at my sweater and looked at me.
Like where are we and what are we seeing and who did it?
The primaries were less aggressive than they'd seemed earlier. The reds were dampened, taken down by weather or more paint, deeper permeations, and this brought them ably into the piece. There were orderly slashes across the fuselages in one section, beautifully mixed blues and flat blues and near blues. The piece had a great riverine wash, a broad arc of sage green or maybe mustard green with brushy gray disturbances, and it curved from the southeast corner up and across the north edge, touching nearly a third of the massed aircraft, several planes completely covered in the pigment-the work's circulating fluid, naming the pace, holding the surface together.
Like my god Nick, how could this be here without my knowing?
The tension of our pressed bodies was heightened by the physical fact of color, painted light pouring toward us. The sun burned high on the line divide. We'd dropped to two hundred feet and Jerry ran a blast of flame. When we were nearly on it the work grew rougher and frontal. I could see unpainted intervals, dead metal strips across the wings of several planes, peroxide white, scabby and gashed, and a trace of stenciled safety instructions apparent on one fuselage. The piece looked hard-won. It lost its flow and became more deeply grained, thick paint in uneven sheets, spray-gunned on. I saw the struggle to make it, scores of people in this chalk heat, muscles and lungs. And I looked for the blond girl in the flouncy skirt painted on a forward fuselage and was elated to spot her, long and tall and unre-touched, the nose art, the pinup, the ordinary life and lucky sign that animated the work.
I could see Marian try to absorb the number. She was not counting but wanted to know, simply as a measure of her amazement. And when I whispered two hundred and thirty at last count, she concentrated more deeply, testing the figure against trie dense array, trie giddiness of general effect. We passed directly over. The planes were enormous of course, they were objects of hulking size, stratofortresses, thick and massy, slab-finned, wings set high on the fuselage, a few missile pylons still intact, a few outrigger wheels suspended, the main wheels chocked on every plane.
And truly I thought they were great things, painted to remark the end of an age and the beginning of something so different only a vision such as this might suffice to augur it.
And we moved toward the blank flats that framed the aircraft and saw how the work lost vigor at the fringes, giving way, melted by intention in the desert.
Marian said, 'I can never look at a painting the same way again.'
'I can never look at an airplane.'
'Or an airplane,' she said.
And I wondered if the piece was visible from space like the land art of some lost Andean people.
The breeze took us past and the pilot yanked the blast handle, giving us a final inchmeal rise. We saw a cloudwall hung many miles to the east and hawks floating in the unforced motion that makes you think they've been up there, the same two birds since bible times. There were stones tumbled in a field, great bronze rocks with carved flanks. I felt my wife at my side. We saw dust blowing off the dark hills and a pair of abandoned cars flopped in forage grass, convertibles with shredded tops. Everything we saw was ominous and shining, tense with the beauty of things that are normally unseen, even the cars gone to canker and rust. The pilot pointed to an object some miles away and we saw it was the chase car, a droplet nosing down a long road toward the place on earth where we would light.
That night we had friends over for dinner and the talk was swift and funny, flying cross-table well past midnight, and when they were gone but also while they were there-they were still there when I felt the distance and stillness of that sprawled dawn like some endless sky waking inside me, flared against the laughter.
When they were gone we lay in bed. We slept in a bookwalled room with creamy shelves and deep carpets and lighting that had a halftone density, warm and whiskeyish. Marian looked at a magazine, turning pages with a crispness that might have seemed short-tempered to someone who didn't know her habits. 'The long day.'
'The long drive. The drive was oh boy,' I said, 'a killer.'
'Is this the longest day of my life?'
'The drive was the screaming meemies. I Kate those trucks, man.'
'I still feel the drive. But it was marvelous, all of it.'
'It was unmarvelous. It was marvelous because you slept.'
She turned a page.
'Did you notice how they finish each other's sentences?'
'I drove, you slept.'
'She says, Da da da. He says, Dumdy dum.'
'It's not the worst fate. I mean even strangers do it. Everybody does it to somebody.'
'And I didn't sleep. I was one level down for ten minutes.'
'It's the only way to get certain sentences finished.'
'They ate the roasted corn relish.'
'Of course they ate the roasted com relish. The roasted corn relish was great. Speaking of maps. I'd like to get some old maps. I hate our maps.'
'Look at this. The Rapture is approaching. October twenty-eight. They give the exact date.'
'I saw that.'
'The mark of the beast. Did you see that? It's on the universal product code. Every product.'
'That's right. Every box of Jell-O they put through the scanner.'
'I'm having one of those nights,' she said.
'What?'
'One of those nighty nights.'
'What?'
'I'm having that sort of thing where I know I won't sleep. It's the knowing that does it. It's not the tired. Because I'm actually very tired.'
'Restless.'
'No, it's a tired but not sleepy type thing. Six six six. So the supermarket is a weird sort of place.'
'We always knew it was.'
I turned off my light and looked into the deep cream ceiling with my hands behind my head.
'She's got a great body for how many kids? Alison. Four kids?' I said.
'Which means I'm either half as great or twice as great but let's not pursue it. What's-his-name Terry was here. The heavyset one.'