nearby. Just more germs, an all-pervading medium of pathogens, microbes, floating colonies of spirochetes that fuse and separate and elongate and spiral and engulf, whole trainloads of matter that people cough forth, rudimentary and deadly.
The crowd, the constant noise, the breath and hum, a basso rumble building now and then, the genderness of what they share in their experience of the game, how a man will scratch his wrist or shape a line of swearwords. And the lapping of applause that dies down quickly and is never enough. They are waiting to be carried on the sound of rally chant and rhythmic handclap, the set forms and repetitions. This is the power they keep in reserve for the right time. It is the thing that will make something happen, change the structure of the game and get them leaping to their feet, flying up together in a free thunder that shakes the place crazy.
Sinatra saying, 'Jack, I thought I told you to stay in the car until you're all done eating.'
Mays takes a mellow cut but gets under the ball, sending a routine fly into the low October day. The sound of the ash bat making contact with the ball reaches Cotter Martin in the left-field stands, where he sits in a bony- shouldered hunch. He is watching Willie instead of the ball, seeing him sort of shrug-run around first and then scoop his glove off the turf and jog out to his position.
The arc lights come on, catching Cotter by surprise, causing a shift in the way he feels, in the freshness of his escapade, the airy flash of doing it and not getting caught. The day is different now, grave and threatened, rain- hurried, and he watches Mays standing in center field looking banty in all that space, completely kid-size, and he wonders how the guy can make those throws he makes, whirl and sling, with power. He likes looking at the field under lights even if he has to worry about rain and even if it's only afternoon and the full effect is not the same as in a night game when the field and the players seem completely separate from the night around them. He has been to one night game in his life, coming down from the bluff with his oldest brother and walking into a bowl of painted light. He thought there was an unknown energy flaring down out of the light towers, some intenser working of the earth, and it isolated the players and the grass and the chalk-rolled lines from anything he'd ever seen or imagined. They had the glow of first-time things.
The way the runner skid-brakes when he makes the turn at first.
The empty seats were Cotter's first surprise, well before the lights. On his prowl through the stands he kept seeing blank seats, too many to be explained by people buying a beer or taking a leak, and he found a spot between a couple of guys in suits and it's all he can do to accept his good luck, the ease of an actual seat, without worrying why there's so many.
The man to his left says, 'How about some peanuts hey?'
Peanut vendor's coming through again, a coin-catching wiz about eighteen, black and rangy. People know him from games past and innings gone and they quicken up and dig for change. They're calling out for peanuts,
The man says, 'What do you say?'
Cotter raises a hand no.
'Care for a bag? Come on.'
Cotter leans away, the hand going to his midsection to mean he's already eaten or peanuts give him cramps or his mother told him not to fill up on trashy food that will ruin his dinner.
The man says, 'Who's your team then?'
'Giants.'
'What a year hey?'
'This weather, I don't know, it's bad to be trailing.'
The man looks at the sky. He's about forty, close-shaved and Bryl-creemed but with a casual quality, a free- and-easy manner that Cotter links to small-town life in the movies.
'Only down a run. They'll come back. The kind of year it's been, it can't end with a little weather. How about a soda?'
Men passing in and out of the toilets, men zipping their flies as they turn from the trough and other men approaching the long receptacle, thinking where they want to stand and next to whom and not next to whom, and the old ballpark's reek and mold are consolidated here, generational tides of beer and shit and cigarettes and peanut shells and disinfectants and pisses in the untold millions, and they are thinking in the ordinary way that helps a person glide through a life, thinking thoughts unconnected to events, the dusty hum of who you are, men shouldering through the traffic in the men's room as the game goes on, the coming and going, the lifting out of dicks and the meditative pissing.
Man to his left shifts in the seat and speaks to Cotter from off his shoulder, using a crafty whisper. 'What about school? Having a private holiday?' Letting a grin slide across his face.
Cotter says, 'Same as you,' and gets a gunshot laugh.
'I'd a broken out of prison to see this game. Matter of fact they're broadcasting to prisoners. They put radios in cell blocks in the city jails.'
'I was here early,' Cotter says. 'I could have gone to school in the morning and then cut out. But I wanted to see everything.'
'
'See the people showing up. The players going in the players' entrance.'
'My name's Bill Waterson by the way. And I'd a gladly gone AWOL from the office but I didn't actually have to. Got my own little business. Construction firm.'
Cotter tries to think of something to say.
'We're the people that build the houses that are fun to live in.'
Peanut vendor's on his way up the aisle and headed over to the next section when he spots Cotter and drops a knowing smile. The kid thinks here comes trouble. This gatemouth is out to expose him in some withering way. Their glances briefly meet as the vendor moves up the stairs. In full stride and double-quick he dips his hand for a bag of peanuts and zings it nonchalant to Cotter, who makes the grab in a one-hand blur that matches the hazy outline of the toss. And it is one sweetheart of a moment, making Cotter crack the smile of the week and sending a wave of goodwill through the area.
'Guess you got one after all,' says Bill Waterson.
Cotter unrolls the pleated top of the brown bag and extends it to Bill. They sit there shelling the peanuts and rubbing off the tissuey brown skin with a rolling motion of thumb and index finger and eating the oily salty flesh and dropping the husks on the ground without ever taking their eyes off the game.
Bill says, 'Next time you hear someone say they're in seventh heaven, think of this.'
'All we need is some runs.'
He pushes the bag at Bill once more.
'They'll score. It's coming. Don't worry. We'll make you happy you skipped school.'
Look at Robinson at the edge of the outfield grass watching the hitter step in and thinking idly, Another one of Leo's country-boy krauts.
'Now there's a law of manly conduct,' Bill says. 'And it states that since you're sharing your peanuts with me, I'm duty-bound to buy us both some soda pop.'
'That sounds fair enough.'
'Good. It's settled then.' Turning in his seat and flinging up an arm. 'A couple of sportsmen taking their ease.'
Stanky the pug sitting in the dugout.
Mays trying to get a jingle out of his head, his bluesy face slightly puffed, some catchy tune he's been hearing on the radio lately.
The batboy comes down the steps a little daydreamy, sliding Dark's black bat into the rack.
The game turns inward in the middle innings. They fall into waiting, into some unshaped anxiety that stiffens the shoulder muscles and sends them to the watercooler to drink and spit.
Across the field Branca is up in the Dodger bullpen, a large man with pointy elfin ears, tight-armed and
