Laburnum and Trot and Sir Godfrey. Since yesterday.
Don’t think about that, she told herself, willing her wobbly legs to walk past it, to walk up the foggy road. Don’t think about any of it. Find a taxi.
She finally did, after what seemed like years of walking and wreckage and craters and fog. “Townsend Brothers,” she told the cabbie as she opened the door. “On Oxford Street.”
“Townsend Brothers?” he said, looking oddly at her.
She’d forgotten shopgirls didn’t take taxis. But she had to. “Yes,” she said. “Take me there immediately.”
“But you’re already there,” he said.
“Already-?” she said, looking bewilderedly where he was pointing, and there was Townsend Brothers. She looked at the boarded-up display windows, at the doors. And at the empty pavement in front of them.
The retrieval team wasn’t there. She’d been so certain they would be, so certain that when they couldn’t find out where she lived, they’d go to Oxford Street. They’ve been delayed, that’s all, she told herself. They couldn’t find a taxi either. Or they thought there wasn’t any point in coming till I arrived for work. They’ll be here at nine. She looked at her watch, but she couldn’t make the hands mean anything. “What time is it?” she asked the cabbie.
“Twenty past nine,” he said, pointing up the street at Selfridges’ clock. “You all right, miss?”
No. “Yes,” she said, and realized she was still holding on to the open passenger door. She shut it and started toward the store.
They’ve already gone inside, she told herself, going in the staff entrance and up the stairs. They’re waiting for me in my department. But they couldn’t be. The store wasn’t open yet, and when she reached third and opened the stairway door, there was no one over by her counter.
They’re not here, she thought, and the sick dread she’d been trying to hold at bay since she saw the wrecked church, trying to keep from herself, washed over her in a drowning wave.
The drop had been damaged by the same parachute mine that destroyed St. George’s and killed-oh, God, Sir Godfrey and Trot and all the rest of them. They’d been killed and the shops flattened and the drop damaged all at the same time-the night before last, while she was in Holborn, standing in line at the canteen, talking to the librarian, sitting in the tunnel reading the newspaper. No, earlier than that. “Not more’n an hour after the sirens went,” the old man had said. While she was trying to convince the guard to open the gate so she could go to the drop-
But it had already been out of commission. Already out of commission when she came to work yesterday morning. The retrieval team should have been here yesterday. They should have been waiting for her outside Townsend Brothers yesterday morning, not today. Yesterday.
“Polly!” she heard Marjorie say, but when she looked up, it was Miss Snelgrove, the floor supervisor, who was walking toward her. She looked appalled.
She’s going to discharge me, Polly thought, because I didn’t get a black skirt.
“Miss Sebastian,” Miss Snelgrove said. “What-?”
“I couldn’t get my skirt. I tried, but it wouldn’t open-”
“You mustn’t worry about that now,” Miss Snelgrove said, taking her arm as the old man had.
“And it’s nearly half past nine.”
“You mustn’t worry about that either. Miss Hayes,” Miss Snelgrove said to Marjorie, who’d come over. “Go and tell Mr. Witherill to telephone for a taxi,” but Marjorie didn’t go.
“What happened, Polly?” she asked.
“They’re not here,” Polly said. “They’re all dead.” She started blindly over to her counter.
Miss Snelgrove stopped her and steered her gently back toward the lifts. “We’ll find someone to fill in for you today,” she said, patting Polly kindly on the shoulder. “You need to go home.”
Polly looked at her bleakly. “You don’t understand,” she said. “I can’t.”
It sounds perhaps callous-I don’t know-but it was enormously exciting and tremendous fun.
En Route to London-9 September 1940
THE TRAIN WASN’T QUITE AS JAMMED AS THE ONE EILEEN had sent Theodore home on in December, but every compartment was filled, and she had to wrestle the children and their luggage through three cars before they found space in a compartment with a portly businessman, two young women, and three soldiers. Eileen had to hold Theodore on her lap and sit across from Alf and Binnie. “You two behave,” she told them.
“We will,” Alf promised and promptly began tugging on the sleeve of the stout man who had the window seat. “I got to sit by the window so I can look for planes,” he said, but the man went on reading his newspaper, which read, “German ‘Blitz’ Tests London’s Resolve.”
“I’m an official planespotter,” Alf said, and when the man still refused to move, Binnie bent toward Alf and whispered loudly, “Don’t talk to ’im. I’ll wager ’e’s a fifth columnist.”
The soldiers looked up.
“What’s a fifth columnist?” Theodore asked.
“Here,” Eileen said, taking a packet from the basket the vicar had given them and handing it across to Alf and Binnie. “Have a biscuit.”
“A fifth columnist’s a traitor,” Binnie said, staring hard at the man.
He rattled his newspaper irritably.
“They look just like me ’n’ you,” Alf said. “They pretend to be readin’ the papers, but they’re really spyin’ on people and then tellin’ ’Itler.”
The two young women began whispering to each other. Eileen caught the word “spy,” and so, apparently, did the man, because he lowered his paper to glare at them and then at Alf, who was munching on a biscuit, and then retreat behind his newspaper again.
“You can tell fifth columnists by the way they hate children,” Binnie told Theodore. “That’s ’cause children are ’specially good at spottin’ them.”
Alf nodded. “’E looks exactly like Gцring, don’t ’e?”
“This is intolerable!” the man exclaimed. He flung his newspaper down on the seat, stood up, yanked his valise down from the overhead rack, and stormed out. Binnie immediately moved into the now-vacant window seat, and Eileen expected an explosion from Alf, but he continued calmly munching his biscuit.
“You better not eat that,” Binnie said. “You’ll be sick.”
The soldier and the young women looked up alertly.
Alf dug another biscuit out of the packet and bit into it. “I will not.”
“You will so. He’s allus sick on trains,” she said to the soldiers. “’E threw up all over Eileen’s shoes, didn’t ’e, Eileen?”
“Binnie-” Eileen began, but Alf shouted over her, “That was when I ’ad the measles. It don’t count.”
“Measles?” one of the soldiers said nervously. “They’re not contagious, are they?”
“No,” Eileen said, “and Alf isn’t going to-”
“I don’t feel well,” Alf said, clutching his middle. He made a gagging sound and bent over a cupped hand.
“I told you,” Binnie said triumphantly, and within moments the compartment had emptied, and Alf had scooted over to the other window. “Can I have a sandwich, Eileen?” he asked.
“I thought you got sick on trains,” Eileen said, moving Theodore off her lap and onto the seat beside her.
