tried to get some sleep, but nothing was coming easy. I fell into this crazy cycle where, right before drifting into unconsciousness, I would jerk out of it, panicked that if I fell asleep I’d forget how to breathe. It got to the point where I was afraid to close my eyes.
After a while I became terrified that I’d collapse into sleep and then suffocate. I lay there sweating like a pig, and well, what Marge couldn’t do with all her effort, was accomplished out of pure necessity. I had to do something to keep my mind off all that craziness and what I did was to start rubbing her.
She groaned, and slowly became aware of what was going on. When we were finished she whispered to me that she knew I’d be okay if I just gave it a little time.
I prayed she was right but somehow I knew I wasn’t going to be. After the snoring started up again I tried closing my eyes but the same damn craziness took me over. Somehow I got the strength to crawl over to Marge. It kept up like that the whole night. Each time we finished I would try closing my eyes, but that same damn panic would overtake me. Somehow, even though I wouldn’t think it possible, I’d end up on top of her.
I guess at some point I must have collapsed into unconsciousness because Marge woke me up the next morning.
Her face was filled with that big easy smile of hers. In a soft, husky voice she said, “I’m all sore from last night. You couldn’t keep your hands off me.”
I blinked, trying to get my bearings. As bad as my stomach felt the night before it would’ve been a blessing if it felt that way now. I got to my feet and staggered to the bathroom.
When I was done, I got up off my knees and sat quietly while a cold chill shook through me. I looked in the mirror and groaned at what I saw. My eyes were red and had a hollow look to them. The hollowness seemed magnified by a gray clamminess that tinged my skin. I bent over the sink and splashed cold water on my face. I kept it up, hoping to wash away the nausea that had worked its way into my temples.
There was a knock on the door and Marge asked if I was okay.
I ignored her and kept up with the cold water. Another knock. Then Marge’s voice again, this time with a hysterical edge to it.
I opened the door. “Couldn’t hear you with the water running.”
She studied me, the color draining from her face. “Johnny, you look awful.”
“Thanks for the compliment.” I walked past her and poured myself a drink. The scotch hit me like a mule’s kick, and then seemed to warm everything up. I strolled over to her and gave her a pinch. “You don’t look so hot yourself in the morning.”
Concern was still working on her face, making her bite her lip. She placed her palm against my forehead. “You’re a little warm. Maybe your cut is infected. Let me take a look.”
I laughed. “I’m a little worn out, that’s all.”
“Are you sure?”
I nodded. “You look like you could use a hot bath.”
“That’s okay, I really-”
“No,” I said. “You’ll feel better. Go ahead. I’ll be fine.”
She shrugged and walked into the bathroom. After I heard the water start to run, I picked up the phone.
Chapter 20
I was woken up the next morning by Marge shouting. “But . . . can’t you give me a break? . . . Look, I didn’t have any choice! . . . You know what you can do with your lousy job! . . . Yeah, just make sure you don’t bend over near a cattle ranch! . . . Because they’ll try milking you, you fat cow! . . . Drop dead and rot!”
She slammed the phone down and stared at it for a few seconds, then turned to me, still seething. “The dirty bitch can take her job and cram it. She was always jealous of me because the only thing that will touch her is her underwear. Even her vibrators go soft.”
She lifted her eyes to the ceiling and yelled, “Screw it!” Then she gave me her bared-fanged smile. “So, lover, what are we going to do to celebrate my being fired?”
I took some money from my wallet and handed it to her. “Why don’t you go buy yourself something nice?”
“I like that idea. Come on, get dressed and we’ll go shopping.”
“I’ve got some business to do this morning,” I said. “You go and I’ll meet you for a late lunch.”
She was going to say something, I knew she wanted to, but she held it back. Instead, she shook her head and muttered something under her breath.
The clock next to the bed showed that it was nine thirty. I had an eleven o’clock appointment. Marge gave me a long, cold stare, her mouth moving as if she were chewing gum, then turned on her heels and walked out the door.
* * * * *
A thin blond hawk-nosed man sat at a corner table in the lobby. He was dressed sharply in a cream-colored suit and a straw fedora rested on his head. He could’ve been Dutch or German. When he saw me he nodded.
I approached his table and, in a thick accent, he asked, “Johnny Lane?”
Along with his hawk nose, he had small fish eyes that were set off by a white paleness, making his face almost wax-like. I sat down across from him and returned his nod.
“Some identification, please.”
I handed him my passport. He studied it, and passed it back to me. He gave me the type of smile you’d see on a ventriloquist’s dummy. “On the phone you said you like to do some business. First, I need to know how you get my name.”
“From an acquaintance of mine, Tex Halley.”
“Tex Halley?” He frowned. “Yes, I remember. It went very smoothly. It is so much nicer when things go smoothly. All you want is new passport and identification. Very simple. Less messy than your friend wanted. Give you bargain. Only five thousand American dollars.”
I swallowed, feeling a hotness in my cheeks. “You told me it would be three thousand.”
He shrugged. “It is very hard to understand these things. Prices change daily. My costs tied to intangibles like politics and mood of officials, things very difficult to be precise about.”
“It might be difficult for me not to shove your head through that wall.”
He gave me a long look before exchanging glances with a heavy-set man standing by the bar, who nodded and cast his eyes down to the floor. By the way the man at the bar was standing I could tell he was aware of my every move. Hawknose turned back to me. “I hope you do not try something like that,” he said.
I saw the heavy-set man slip a hand into his jacket pocket. I didn’t care. “I’ll take my chances.” I braced myself because I meant it.
Hawknose frowned as he considered the situation. “There is no reason to take such attitude,” he said. “It is only business, right? Okay, I don’t want unhappy customers. We do it for four thousand and five hundred American dollars. Very fair, believe me.”
I didn’t say anything. Hawknose glanced towards the bar where the heavy-set man was showing off a toothless grin.
“Bien.” Hawknose nodded. “All agreed, no? Fair for everyone. You have photograph for me?”
I gave him a two-by-two passport shot.
He remarked that it was a good likeness and asked what name I wanted to use. I pulled one out of the air, and he wrote it on the back of the photograph.
“Where do you want to come from?”
“How about Canada?”
He shook his head. “No one believe you from Canada.” The heavyset man was frowning in agreement. “More believable if from American West. We make it Las Vegas, Nevada. You can be big shot high roller.”
“You make it that,” I snapped, “and I’ll roll your butt out the window.”
He blinked his fish eyes and shrugged. “You don’t like that, we use something else. How about Montana? We use that, then?”
