“I would.” Alban studied the door he’d almost taken, then looked at Grace again. “Tell me what my welcome will be, Grace O’Malley. I was confident a moment ago, confident enough to forget myself. But now I find myself remembering that these men and women were called to pass judgment on me, and while they have granted amnesty and I can once more walk among the memories, I know very little of them, or how they think of me.”
“And you think I know?”
Humor quirked Alban’s mouth and he quoted, carefully, “‘Grace knows more than she should, love.’”
Surprise brightened the woman’s dark eyes and she laughed. “There’s a spark of cleverness left in there after all. All right, Korund. They’re curious, is what they are, which I think you could learn quick enough from the memories.”
“I could.” Alban hesitated over continuing, and Grace hopped on his pause with a spark of humor in her eyes.
“But it seems like prying, does it, after all this time? Ah, Korund, you’re not one of them anymore, but you can’t be human, either. Maybe you’re well matched with Margrit after all, the both of you forging ahead into new territory.” A shadow passed over Grace’s face, aging her unexpectedly and making Alban realize he had no idea how old the platinum blonde was. She’d been part of the city’s underground for years, according to Margrit, but it hadn’t left its mark. Just then she looked far older than even the greatest number of years he could accord her, though it faded and left her as she had been, young in form and face, but somehow ancient in her gaze. “Go on, then, Stoneheart. Join them. See who you are among them, and then move on to see who you are in the world.”
“What about you, Grace?” The question held him in place even when he might have wanted to move at her command; to embrace the world as it had become and learn his place in it. “Will you stay where you are while the world changes around you? Will you not move on, too?”
“Ah, sure and you know the answer to that,” Grace said with a sighed smile, and a ghost of humor turned Alban’s mouth up at the corner.
“You’ll move on when you’ve been given the kiss of angels, isn’t that what you say? What does it mean?”
“Grace’ll let you know when she finds out.” She nudged him toward the door with a bump of her hips, encouraging him to move without touching him. Alban chuckled again and went where he was bid, putting weight onto the heavy iron door handle that opened the way into the below-streets central refuge.
It opened silently. Grace’s territory was inevitably well oiled and smooth-running, far more so than might be expected of a ragtag bunch of teens led by a leather-clad den mother. The group within, though, was wholly different from the youthful faces and chip-on-the-shoulder attitudes Alban had come to recognize and admire over the past months.
Instead an older man straightened from his crouch and turned to look at Alban. He was stocky, not gone to fat, but broad and jowly. White touched otherwise steel-gray hair at the temples, and deep-set eyes were much the same shade as his hair. Alban wondered suddenly if it would be as clear to Margrit that this was Eldred in his human form, or if the ability to recognize one another in any shape was part of what made them unique.
Looking over the others, he thought it took no more than an ability to extrapolate. The lanky youth—younger, certainly, than Alban himself—had a touch of strawberry to his white-blond hair and was as leggy and elbow- ridden in human form as in his gargoyle shape. The two women were as much Valkyries—Margrit’s memory intruding, that; Alban wouldn’t have chosen the word himself—in mortal form as in immortal, both broad- shouldered and blue-eyed with long, pale hair. They looked like themselves, all of them.
And they were all riding judgment on him. Nervousness that hadn’t been present the night before fluttered in Alban’s gullet, a reaction that seemed inordinately human. He bowed, as much a slight offer of respect to the elder as a way to hide his own sudden nerves. After an instant Eldred tipped his head in response, gesturing Alban to join them. A mockery of outrage rose to replace worry: this was, after all, Alban’s home, and it should be he who offered a place at the table to the newcomers. Only a mockery, though, the thought seeming laughable even as he felt its sting. There were far more pressing matters to be concerned with than whether he was welcomed or welcoming.
“Alban Korund.” Eldred’s voice was as deep and rich in his mortal form as it had been the night before. “Welcome home.”
What had been a trickle of mental touch suddenly became a flood, emotion ranging from reserved to angry and, as Grace had said, to curious. Unprepared, Alban shuddered under the onslaught, the round walls and concrete seating around him disappearing and staggering mountains replacing them.
There was vitality in these mountains, unlike the memories he’d slipped through over the last months. Those peaks had been worn with time, too many lives lost to grow them taller. They had been his family, his closest friends, and they had reflected a dying race.
No longer. Now mountaintops were jagged with change, snow patches glowing blue in moonlight beneath clear skies. The tree line burst with the promise of spring, hints of green in the night, and echoes of voices rang the stone, shivering loose rock into short slides.
Stunned, Alban turned, taking it all in, and when he’d completed a full circle, he faced a campfire, the half- dozen gargoyles in the room with him seated around it. Beyond them rippled hundreds of others, faces and minds joined in the gestalt but not physically present. Challenge was written on those faces; challenge and interest, anger and hope.
“What has happened?” Astonishment pushed his question out before he knew he intended to form it. “We live. We…live.”
Biali thundered in, door clapping shut behind him in the real world and carrying ricochets of sound into the mind of memory. He muttered, “You happened,” and sat down at the fire, making himself comfortable in a way that seemed beyond Alban to accomplish himself. “You and that lawyer of yours,” Biali added, clearly not expecting Alban to put it together himself. “You and that quorum.”
“You sat for the gargoyles at the quorum,” Alban protested. “Not I.”
“Pah. You started it, Korund. Talking to the lawyer. Telling her what you were. Deep quakes send waves across the world.” Biali shoved a thick hand into the fire, rearranging branches, and Eldred, looking wry, picked up where he left off.
“We have been dying, all these centuries. You know this.” You encompassed far more than just Alban: a shift of agreement ran through a thousand faces, swirling back through crowded memories until it had touched them all. “We are slow to change, and have always chosen the safety of tradition over the risk of innovation.”
At that, Margrit’s image, rife with exasperation, swam before Alban’s eyes and made him chuff laughter. That thought splashed through the linked gargoyle minds, making Eldred lift a heavy eyebrow. Alban ducked his head in apology, finding a smile still stretching his face. “I’ve always held that we were right to stand by our traditions.”
“And yet you have disregarded them broadly through your entire life.”
Fresh astonishment burned away Alban’s humor and he straightened again, agape as he met Eldred’s gaze. The elder gargoyle’s expression was cool, though beneath it lay a pool of warmth, even admiration, welcoming enough to startle Alban anew. Eldred’s sense of self carried a hint of envy, memories shifting and exploring the choices he might have made, all of those thoughts visible to the gargoyle overmind. Hundreds of years earlier he might have embraced the selkies and their decision to save themselves by breeding with humans. Instead he had been repulsed, holding tight to tradition. Now, for all that gargoyles were not creatures in the habit of second- guessing themselves, it was clear that Eldred wondered what changes might have been wrought in the world if he had admired the selkie daring and accepted their choice rather than turned his back on a man who had been his friend for centuries.
“You left our mountains before your hundredth year,” Eldred said. “You went to live among humans, to explore the world that they were creating. To try to understand it. Only one of us was bold enough to join you.”
“And she paid for that choice with her life,” Biali snapped. For an instant tension sang through the gargoyles, Hajnal’s loss fresh and painful through the intimacy of memory.
Alban, softly, said, “We’ve all paid,” and after long moments Biali settled back, no longer pressing the point.
