fierce exultation, and I grabbed his hand and shook it.
He responded, though with less vigour than I expected, his hand almost limp in mine, as though accepting but not fully returning my greeting. Then, staring at his face, I knew. It's hard to say how I knew – possibly the eyes lacked a little lustre; maybe the muscles of the face had lost just a hint of their usual tension and alertness; and maybe not – but I knew.
Mannie, seeing in my face what was going on in my mind, nodded his head slowly and, as though I'd spoken aloud, said, 'Yeah, Miles. And for a long time. Just before the night you phoned me.'
I turned to see who else had come into the room, glancing at each face, then I walked back to put my arm around Becky's shoulder, and face them.
One of the men – they stood there by the door – was small, stout, and bald; I'd never seen him before. Another was Carl Meeker, an accountant in town, a big, black-haired, pleasant-faced man in his middle thirties. The fourth was Budlong, who smiled at us now, as friendly and nice as he'd been before.
We stood by the windows, Becky and I, and Mannie motioned at the davenport and said, 'Sit down,' his voice gentle. We shook our heads, and he repeated it. 'Sit down,' he urged. 'Please, Becky; you're tired, worn out. Go ahead; sit down.' But Becky pressed herself closer to me, and I tightened my arm around her shoulders and shook my head again.
'All right.' Mannie pushed the sheets on the davenport aside and sat down. Carl Meeker walked in and sat beside him, Budlong took a chair across the room from them, and the little man I didn't know sat nearer the outer door.
'I wish you'd relax, and take it easy,' Mannie said, brows lifting, smiling at us in frank concern for our comfort. 'We're not going to hurt you, and once you understand what we… have to do' – he shrugged – 'I think maybe you'll accept it, and wonder what all the fuss was about.' He sat looking at us, then when we didn't reply or move, he sat back on the davenport. 'Well, first of all, it doesn't hurt; you'll feel nothing. Becky, I promise you that.' He sat nibbling at his lip for a moment, getting what he had to say in order, then he looked up at us again. 'And when you wake up, you'll feel just exactly the same. You'll
'Why bother, then?' I said casually. I had no hope in argument, but I had to say something, it seemed to me. 'Just let us alone, then. We'll leave town, and we won't come back.'
'Well – ' Mannie started to answer, then stopped, and looked at Budlong across the room. 'Maybe you ought to explain that, Bud.'
'All right.' Looking pleased, Budlong settled back in his chair, the professor anticipating the joy of teaching, just as he'd done all his life, undoubtedly. And I found myself wondering if Mannie wasn't right, that actually there was no change, and you were still just the way you always had been.
'You saw what you saw, and you know what you know,' Budlong began. 'You've seen the… pods, for lack of another name; seen them change and prepare themselves; twice you've seen the process almost completed. But why force
'And what's their function?' I said sarcastically.
Budlong shrugged. 'The function of all life, everywhere – to survive.' For a moment he stared at me. 'Life exists throughout the universe, Doctor Bennell; most scientists know that, and willingly admit it; it has to be true, though we've never before encountered it. But it's there, infinite distances away, in every conceivable and inconceivable form, since it exists under enormously varied conditions. Consider, Doctor, that there are planets and life incalculably older than ours; what happens when an ancient planet finally dies? The life form on it must reckon with and prepare for that fact – to survive.'
Budlong sat forward in his chair, staring at me, fascinated by what he was saying. 'A planet dies,' he repeated, 'slowly and over immeasurable ages. The life form on it – slowly and over immeasurable ages – must prepare. Prepare for what? For leaving the planet. To arrive where? And when? There is no answer, but one; which they achieved. It is universal adaptability to
Budlong grinned at us happily, and sat back in his chair; he was having a fine time. Outside on the street, a car honked, and a child began to wail. 'So in a sense, of course, the pods are a parasite on whatever life they encounter,' Budlong went on. 'But they are the perfect parasite, capable of far more than clinging to the host. They are completely evolved life; they have the ability to reform and reconstitute themselves into perfect duplication, cell for living cell, of any life form they may encounter in whatever conditions that life has suited itself for.'
My face must have shown what I was thinking, because Budlong grinned, and held up a hand. 'I know; it sounds like gibbering – insane raving. That's only natural. Because we're trapped by our own conceptions, Doctor, our necessarily limited notions of what life can be. Actually, we can't really conceive of anything very much different from ourselves, and whatever other life exists on this one little planet. Prove it yourself; what do imaginary men from Mars, in our comic strips and fiction, resemble? Think about it. They resemble grotesque versions of
He held up a finger, as though reproving an unprepared pupil. 'But to accept our own limitations, and really believe that evolution through the universe must, for some reason, follow paths similar to our own, in any least way, is' – he shrugged, and smiled – 'rather insular. In fact, downright provincial. Life takes whatever form it must: a monster forty feet high, with an immense neck, and weighing tons – call it a dinosaur. When conditions change, and the dinosaur is no longer possible, it is gone. But life isn't; it's still there, in a new form.
I didn't know what good time would do us. But I was willing – anxious – to talk just as long as he wanted; the will to survive, I supposed, and smiled. 'Jargon,' I said tauntingly. 'Cheap theory. Because
He didn't get mad. 'We know,' he said simply. 'There is' – he shrugged – 'not memory; you can't call it that; can't call it anything you could even recognize. But there is knowledge in this life form, of course, and – it stays. I am still what I was, in every respect, right down to a scar on my foot I got as a child; I am still Bernard Budlong. But the other knowledge is there, too, now. It stays, and I know. We all do.'
For a moment he sat staring at nothing, then he looked up at us again. 'As to how does it happen, how do they do what they do?' He grinned at me. 'Come now, Doctor Bennell; think how little we actually know on this raw, new little planet. We're just out of the trees; still savages! Only two hundred years ago, you doctors didn't even know blood circulated. You thought it was a motionless fluid filling the body like water in a sack. And in my own lifetime, the existence of brain waves wasn't even suspected. Think of it, Doctor! Brain waves, actual electrical emanations from the brain, in specific identifiable patterns, penetrating the skull to the outside, to be picked up, amplified, and charted. You can sit and watch them on a screen. Are you an epileptic, actual or even potential? The pattern of your own individual brain waves will instantly answer that question, as you very well know; you're a