In Big Trouble

small hurt would be better than the large-scale betrayal that seemed to loom. Now she wondered, and not for the first time, how monogamy worked. Did there ever come a time when you were impervious to stirrings for another person, or did you just learn to ignore those feelings? But if you pretended they didn't exist, weren't you a hypocrite?

In the Bible, if you felt it in your heart, you were busted. Might as well do the crime, because you were going to do the time. But in fairy tales, it was the test that mattered-one couldn't avoid temptation, but one could avoid giving in. The heart triumphed, time and again. Only how could the heart hope to make itself heard over the screeching chorus of one's hormones?

'We're going to take a break, folks. See you in fifteen.' Emmie's speaking voice was huskier, rougher than her singing voice. The couples in the room didn't applaud, for that would require letting go of each other. It dawned on Tess that the real purpose of the Morgue was providing people with a series of semidark caves in which to grope each other. No wonder it was such a success with conventioneers.

Tess walked to the front, head down, as if Crow might not recognize the top of her head. His back was to her, anyway. He was crouching over a speaker, fiddling with the connection.

'Piece of crap,' he said dispassionately. The two other guys in the band had already left the stage and been embraced by their ladies in waiting, the human coolie cups who had the honor of holding their beers throughout the set. Emmie stood where she was, twirling with a lock of hair, appraising Tess with the unabashed stare of a child. She didn't seem particularly surprised, or threatened. Probably lots of ladies tried to approach Crow between sets.

'Hey,' Tess said to Crow's back.

'What?' he said, not turning away from the troublesome speaker, his voice irritable and impatient.

'Nice set,' she said. 'It's not Poe White Trash, but then, what is?'

Not one of the more immortal lines after a silence of almost six months, but it got his attention.

Chapter 9

He turned on his heel, bat still in a crouch, so he was eye-level with her knees. When he glanced up, there was an unguarded moment, and some unidentifiable emotion flitted past Whatever it was, it was quickly overtaken and vanquished by wariness, a most un-Crow-like expression.

'Tess Monaghan,' he said flatly, in the tone of someone diagnosing a rash to which he was prone.

'Hi, Crow. Only I hear it's Ed these days. Sometimes Eddie.'

'Eduardo in these environs.' He stood up, sticking his hands in his pockets, lest she try to reach for one.

'They called you Crow back there?' This was Emmie. Tess kept expecting her to move forward, to stake her claim with an arm around Crow's waist, or a hand in the small of his back, but her interest was polite at best. She didn't even seem to expect an answer to her question, and Crow didn't give her one.

'This isn't what I do,' he told Tess.

'You have another job?'

'I mean-' He waved his arm at the emptying room. 'Wham songs, for Christ's sake. Boy George, Culture Club. You spin me right 'round.'

'Don't forget Manic Mondays, 'Til Tuesday Tuesdays, and it's Friday, I'm in love,' Emmie put in, singing the last, the title of a Cure song, one that a Baltimore radio station, in a display of great originality, had been playing every Friday for almost a decade. 'We're still working on themes for Wednesdays and Thursdays.'

'But if we ever move to the seventies room, we always have the Bay City Rollers to fall back on,' Crow said. 'S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y night! S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y night!'

There was something nervous in their chatter, like children who had done something wrong, and were still trying to assess if Mommy knew.

'So what brings you to the Alamo City?' Crow asked. 'A convention of-what are you now, anyway?'

As if he didn't know she was a licensed investigator. Then again, his letter had come to Tyner's office, not hers. Suddenly, she was angry that he didn't know all she had accomplished over the past summer-the new business, getting on her feet financially, solving a murder case everyone else thought had been solved long ago.

'My Toyota brought me here,' she said. 'Along with your parents' retainer.'

This bad the desired effect. 'My parents hired you? I'm 24-fucking-years old and my parents are paying people to come look for me just because I don't want to take their checks anymore? They're only proving my point-I have to disappear if I'm ever going to be truly independent. What more do I have to do? Leave the country? Change my name? As for hiring you-well, that's beyond insulting.'

'I happen to be a pretty good investigator, as evidenced by my ability to find you in three days in a state where I didn't know one goddamn person.'

'How did you find us, anyway?' This was Emmie, and although she spoke in the same spaced-out, affectless tone, she couldn't quite conceal her interest in Tess's answer.

'I found Gary, Crow's old drummer, in Austin. He told me you had left Austin for Twin Sisters. That led me to Marianna Barrett Conyers's place, and that led me to Marianna Barrett Conyers.'

'My godmother would never speak to some stranger,' Emmie said with swift conviction. 'Especially not about me.'

'She didn't tell me much about you. In fact, I think she led me on a bit of a wild-goose chase.' Tess was remembering how deep Marianna had dug into her pile of newspapers, providentially finding one almost a month old. She had to have known Little Girl in Big Trouble had already taken on a new incarnation. Obviously, she wanted Tess to run into a dead-end at Primo's, or at least a cul-de-sac.

'Marianna worries about me,' Emmie said. 'She worries about everything.'

'Funny. She didn't seem too concerned that I went to Twin Sisters to find Crow, and discovered a dead body instead.'

Ignorance, although a natural state for much of the population, is incongruously tough to fake. But Emmie and Crow seemed truly stunned by this information. His mouth gaped a little, and he stole a quick look at Emmie, who was staring at Tess in wide-eyed dismay. Tess, now used to the dim light of the eighties room, saw for the first time how blue Emmie's eyes were, as blue as the flowers on the postcard Crow had sent his parents. Blue- bonnets. But you didn't notice the eyes so much as the shadows under them. Not bags, just shadows, dark as bruises. Strangely, they only made her more beautiful.

'A body?' she asked. 'At Marianna's place? But we haven't-it couldn't…'

'We haven't been there for weeks,' Crow put in. 'Weeks and weeks. We stayed there after we left Austin, before we found a place to crash in San Antonio. It had the advantage of being free, but it was a little far to commute once we started getting gigs down here.'

A young Mexican-American security guard came over, carrying a cup of water. 'I thought you might be thirsty, Miss Sterne.'

She took the glass without looking at him, her gaze still fixed on Tess. 'Thanks, Steve. I sounded like crap, didn't I?'

'Oh no, you were great,' he assured her. 'Better than ever. You need anything else?'

'I could use a smoke. A joint would be better.'

'Not in here,' the guard said a little nervously. He wasn't much older than Emmie-perhaps twenty-five or twenty-six-and he had a moon-round face shiny with sweat 'Remember, the manager said-'

'Relax, Steve, I don't have any contraband on me. I'm going downstairs to the main bar, so I can buy a pack off the bartender. Do we have time?'

The question was for Crow. 'Sure,' he said. 'No rush.'

She jumped off the stage, landing lightly, threading her way quickly through the crowd as if worried someone might try to stop her. The security guard watched her go, then retreated into the backstage shadows.

'So what are you going to do?' Crow asked. 'Call my parents, tell them where I am?'