same time. There it was. The funny little locket. I remembered different things at the same time. A day and a night in Brighton on our first anniversary. We’d gone to better places in later years, but that had been the best. We walked in all those little dinky shopping streets just away from the front and we’d laughed at the awful souvenir shops, and then at the same moment we’d spotted that in a jeweler’s and Clive had walked in and bought it just like that. And another stupid thought had come into my mind: That night in the hotel Clive took all my clothes off but left the pendant on. It had hung down between my breasts. He had kissed it and then kissed my breasts. It’s mad, the things that stick in your mind. I felt myself blushing and almost had to stop myself from crying. I picked it up, felt the familiar weight in my palm.
“Nice, isn’t it?” said Stadler.
“It’s mine,” I said.
The most idiotic expression came over his face. It was almost comic.
“What?” he said, almost in a gasp.
“Clive gave it to me,” I said, as if in a dream. “It was lost.”
“But…” said Stadler. “Are you sure?”
“Of course,” I said. “There’s a fiddly clip at the back that opens it up. There’s a lock of my hair inside. Look, there.”
He stared.
“Yes,” he said. Dr. Schilling was gawking as well. They were looking at each other, open-mouthed. “Wait,” he said. “Wait.”
And he ran, ran, out of the room.
ELEVEN
I didn’t understand. I didn’t understand at all. Not anything. I felt as if I were looking at one of Josh’s wretched computer games that get posted through our front door and that make his grumpy face light up, but I didn’t even know the language, the alphabet it was written in. It was just dots and dashes and signs and codes to me. I looked over at Dr. Schilling, as if she could tell me what was going on, but she just offered me her meaningless reassuring smile, the one that gave me the shivers. Then I looked at the locket again, sitting among the curious pile of objects. I reached over and touched it with one finger, lightly, as if it could blow up in my face.
“I want to go home,” I said, not really meaning it but needing to say something to break the silence in the drab little room.
“Soon,” said Dr. Schilling.
“I want to have something to eat. I’m hungry.”
She nodded, but in an absentminded way. She had a little frown on her face.
“When did I last eat? It must have been ages ago.” I tried to remember back through the last few days, but it was like peering into inky darkness. “Is anybody going to tell me how my locket got here?”
“I’m sure they’ll-”
But then she was interrupted by Stadler coming back into the room with Links. They both looked intensely agitated as they sat down opposite me. Links picked up the locket by its chain.
“You are quite sure this belongs to you, Mrs. Hintlesham?”
“Of course I’m sure. Clive’s even got a photo of it somewhere for our insurance.”
“When did you lose it?”
Now I had to think.
“It’s hard to say. I remember wearing it to a concert. That was on the ninth of June, the day before my mother’s birthday. A couple of weeks later I wanted to wear it to Clive’s work’s bash, but I couldn’t find it.”
“What date was that?”
“You’ve got my date book, for goodness’ sake. But it was in June sometime, the end of June.”
Stadler looked down at a notebook in his lap and nodded as if he was satisfied.
“What’s important about it? Where did you find it?”
Stadler looked into my eyes and I made myself not look away. For a second I thought he was going to tell me something, but the moment passed, and he looked down at his notebook once more with that secret satisfaction on his face.
There was a brief, strange hush in the room, then I raised my voice:
“Won’t someone please tell me what is going on, for goodness’ sake?” But my heart wasn’t in it. My anger seemed to have all seeped away. “I don’t understand.”
“Mrs. Hintlesham,” said Links, “can we just establish-”
“Not now,” said Dr. Schilling suddenly. She stood up. “I’m taking Jenny home. She’s been under great strain; she has been unwell. Later.”
“Establish what?”
“Come on, Jenny.”
“I don’t like secrets. I don’t like people knowing things about me that I don’t know. Have you caught him? Is that it?”
Dr. Schilling put a hand under my elbow and I stood up. Why on earth was I wearing these cotton trousers? I hadn’t worn them for years; they didn’t suit me at all.
Everybody was behaving oddly. The house was full of a new kind of energy, as if the curtains had been pulled back, the windows thrown open. Nobody told me anything, of course, but Dr. Schilling came back with me and a bored-looking woman officer. Links and Stadler pitched up soon afterward. They were all beckoning to each other and muttering things to each other and looking at me, then looking away when I caught their eye. Dr. Schilling didn’t seem as happy as the others.
“Do you think you could phone your husband, Mrs. Hintlesham?” asked Stadler, following me into the kitchen.
“Why can’t you phone him yourself?”
“We want to talk to him. We thought it might sound more civilized from you.”
“When?”
“Straightaway.”
“What on earth for?”
“We need to clarify a couple of points.”
“We’ve got a drinks party this evening. An important one.”
“The quicker we can talk to him, the quicker he’ll be free.”
I picked up the phone.
“He’s going to be irritated,” I said.
He was very irritated.
The phone rang. It was Josh and Harry, calling from America, early morning for them, although they sounded as if they were just round the corner and at any moment would come charging into the house. Harry told me he had caught a pike, whatever that is, in the lake and he had learned how to sailboard. Josh asked me how things were at home; his voice jumped from boy’s to man’s, the way it does when he’s overemotional.
“Fine, darling.”
“Are the police still there?”
“I think they’re making progress.”
A little gust of hope blew through me.
“Do we have to stay out here another two weeks?”
“Don’t be silly, darling, you’re having a lovely time. Have you got enough money to last?”
“Yes, but-”
“And did I pack the right clothes? Oh, and remember to tell Harry that there are spare batteries for his Walkman in your backpack.”
