She laughed softly, her eyes on the fire. 'It would serve you right if I refused to release you after all,' she said. 'Am I really such a big ordeal? How lowering. You are, of course, but am I?'
'I was not referring to us,' he said. 'Tell me about Ravensberg.'
'Jerome?' she said.
'Kit.'
She turned her head to look at him. 'What do you want to know about Kit?'
'Were you in love with him?' he asked.
'With Kit?' She frowned ferociously at him.
'Jerome was not the only brother you were betrothed to,' he said, 'or almost betrothed to. You were fond of Jerome. Were you fonder of Kit?'
She continued to glare at him. 'It is none of your business,' she said.
'I am your betrothed,' he reminded her.
'You are not,' she said scornfully. 'And you are not going to play the part of jealous lover now, Josh. The very idea! It is none of your business whom I have loved or whom I do love, if anyone. Kit is none of your business.'
'Did he know,' he asked, 'that you loved him?'
'Of course he knew,' she said, turning her head back toward the fire again and then setting it back against the chair and closing her eyes. 'He desperately wanted me to marry him. He wanted me to give up everything-all the expectations of his family and mine-and go follow the drum with him. I was everything in the world to him and he to me. But Wulf would not give his consent. I was one and twenty and did not need his consent. It was not that he forbade me exactly-Wulf rarely does that, and of course he knew that I would have fought to the death against any such attempt at tyranny. But there was a speech on family duty and I allowed myself to be talked into announcing my engagement to Jerome. Kit fought Ralf bloody when he came storming over to Lindsey Hall and was refused admittance. Then he went off back to his regiment in the Peninsula. Last year, with Jerome dead before our nuptials had been solemnized and Kit on his way home, his father and Wulf arranged for our marriage at last. But Kit had not forgiven me. He had his revenge on me by bringing home that perfect, insipid woman, Lauren Edgeworth.'
Joshua wondered if she had yet realized that even if it had started out as revenge-or simply escape-the marriage was now a love match. And he wondered how much real love Freyja still felt for Ravensberg, mingled with the very real hatred and bitterness.
'Poor Freyja,' he said softly.
She surged to her feet then and closed the gap between them in three strides. He clamped one hand about her right wrist when her fist was two inches from his nose, and about her left wrist as her fist brushed the underside of his chin. He came to his feet and bent her arms behind her back. He held them there by the wrists-her hands were still fisted.
Her eyes flashed at him. Her teeth were bared.
'Don't you dare pity me,' she told him in her coldest, haughtiest voice. 'My story and my feelings are my concern and no one else's. Certainly not yours. We are not even really betrothed. We are nothing but strangers who happen to have been thrown together by circumstances. We are nothing to each other. You are nothing to me. Do you understand me? Nothing.'
He lowered his head and kissed her. He was taking a mortal risk, he knew-she might well take a chunk out of his lip with her teeth. But she needed comforting. Not that his motive was entirely selfless. Freyja Bedwyn in a raging temper was an infinitely exciting woman.
'Nothing at all, sweetheart?' he murmured. 'You wound me.'
'What I will do is knock your head off your shoulders if you will just stop playing the coward and release my wrists,' she said, her eyes still flashing fury. 'Are you afraid of facing the anger of a woman unless you have pinioned her arms?'
He grinned and released her. And chuckled aloud as he parried blows without grabbing hold of her again.
'Ouch!' he said as one of her fists connected with his ear.
But she was not finished with him and would not be, he suspected, until she had milled him to the ground and stamped him into the dirt with her heel. It was a good thing for him that she was not wearing her riding boots. To give her her due, though, he noticed that she did not attempt to use either her fingernails or her teeth. She fought fair.
There was only one course of defense open to him short of planting his own fist in her face. He caught her up in his arms, one about her waist, the other about her shoulders, hauled her tightly against him so that her fists flailed helplessly out to the sides, and kissed her again-open-mouthed.
'I dislike you intensely,' she said coldly when he lifted his head a good while later. The rage had gone from her eyes and the fury from her voice. 'And you are absolutely nothing to me. Less than nothing.'
'I know, sweetheart,' he said, and kissed her again.
Her anger might have subsided, he realized during the next few moments, but her passion certainly had not. She opened her mouth beneath his, somehow got her arms about him, and pressed as close to him as their clothes and their anatomy would allow.
'Don't stop,' she told him fiercely when he lifted his head, desperately trying to hold on to his sanity. 'Don't stop!'
'Freyja-'
'Don't stop!'
Who tumbled whom to the bed he did not know, but there they were moments later, wrestling and panting together in the narrow space, their hands all over each other in a desperate effort to find bare flesh. She pulled off his coat and waistcoat with a little cooperation from him, and she was tugging his shirt outside his pantaloons and
