'I love you, sweetheart,' he said, the laughter suddenly gone. 'Body, mind, and soul.'
She looked at him in exasperation.
'And kind, soft heart,' he added.
She chuckled.
'I suppose,' she said, 'you will hold it against me for the rest of my life.'
'To the very last minute,' he said, taking her hand in his free one and lacing his fingers with hers.
She laughed out loud.
'I do hate you,' she said.
She turned her head to look at him, all blond and handsome and loose-limbed and smiling and gorgeous. Her man. Her love.
'Oh, Josh,' she said, 'I do love you. And you may hold that against me for the rest of my life too.'
'I intend to, sweetheart,' he said, grinning at her.
CHAPTER XXIV
I believe I may well cry,' Morgan announced.
'You had better not do it in public, then,' Freyja said. 'It would reflect badly on all of us Bedwyns, and people might think us soft. They might imagine that we have hearts.'
Alice actually was crying, though she sniffed back her tears as she placed her mistress's white, fur-trimmed bonnet carefully over her elaborate coiffure and tied the wide white ribbons in a large bow to one side of her chin.
'White fur on white velvet,' Judith said. 'With a muff! I am beginning to think that perhaps I should have married in the winter rather than the summer.'
But she was smiling and not really serious. And she was, of course, looking quite gorgeous herself in a dark sage green gown and pelisse that complemented her bright red hair. The skirt of her dress flowed loose from its fashionable high waist to accommodate the slight swelling of her abdomen.
Morgan was wearing a dress of deep rose pink velvet and looked more beautiful than any woman had a right to do.
'Well, I am certainly going to shed a few tears,' Eve said, 'and in public too. People may say what they wish about the Bedwyn wives.' She was looking delicately pretty in pale blue.
Alice finally finished her ministrations and stood back with a hiccup of a sob. Freyja stood up and turned to look at herself in the pier glass across one corner of her dressing room.
Oh, gracious goodness, she thought, is that me?
Dressed from head to toe in white velvet and fur, she looked almost beautiful. She had scoffed at first when white had been suggested as a color for her wedding dress. Lady Freyja Bedwyn was not a white-wearing person. She would have preferred some bright color.
'You see?' Aunt Rochester said now in her usual strident, no-nonsense voice-their dragon aunt whose veins and arteries ran with pure Bedwyn blood. 'Was I not right to insist upon white, Freyja?'
She had not insisted exactly. Bedwyns did not insist upon anything with other Bedwyns, who all had iron wills and stubborn ones to boot. But she had pressed her opinion rather forcefully, and she was widely known for her impeccable taste in fashion. Freyja had desperately wanted to look as lovely as it was possible for her to look on her own wedding day.
'I was right to choose it, Aunt,' she said.
'Oh, I say, Free,' Alleyne said from the doorway. 'You look good enough to eat. But it is a good thing it is almost Christmas already and almost the end of the year. Three Bedwyn weddings in one year has been quite a shock to the system, especially for those of us who are left. I vote for its being Morgan's turn next.'
'But we will let you have your day first, Freyja,' Aidan said from behind his shoulder. 'The dress is lovely. The glow in your eyes is lovelier.'
Then they both had to step right into the room to make way for Rannulf, who had their grandmother on his arm. Back in the summer, when Judith and Ralf were married, it had seemed that she was close to death, though her dearest wish was to see her first grandchild before she died. Their marriage and Judith's pregnancy and the fact that they lived with her at Grandmaison had given her a new lease on life, at least for the present. She had insisted upon coming all the way to Lindsey Hall from Leicestershire for Freyja's wedding.
'Alleyne,' Ralf said, 'present me to that very feminine beauty in white, if you will be so good. Ah!' He recoiled theatrically. 'Never mind. It is Freyja, is it?'
'You look beautiful and distinguished and happy, Freyja, my dear,' their grandmother said. 'But I do not believe your dressing room was built to accommodate so many persons. And I do not believe the rector will appreciate our all being late to church. We must leave you with Morgan and your maid.'
Morgan was Freyja's bridesmaid.
It was then, when, after a great deal of noise and fuss everyone withdrew, that Freyja began to feel nervous- again. She had been nervous after leaving Penhallow one week after the ball and nervous every day of the weeks that had followed even though Joshua had written to her daily. She had not quite believed in her own happily ever after-or in her own chance for a happy future, anyway. She had opened every letter with trepidation. It had not helped that winter was coming on.
She had hated it-the feeling of vulnerability, the aching love that had not quite been able to trust in a future.
What if he went out boating again and fell in and drowned? What if he climbed those cliffs again-stupid, stupid man-and slipped and fell? What if . . . ?
He had stayed for Prue's wedding and for Constance's. He had seen his aunt on her way to her chosen future- managing the large household of her recently widowed brother in Northamptonshire. Chastity had chosen to come
