‘Because we’re on the look-out for enemy aliens, you know. There’s a camp not far from here. Huyton. You sure you didn’t escape from there?’
‘Of course I’m sure.’
‘Not planning to stow away? It’s just I don’t really see an Oxford man — a professor, if you please — kipping like a dosser out here on the docks. Doesn’t quite add up.’
‘I didn’t say I was a professor. I’m Dr James Zennor, in the Department of Experimental Psychology of Oxford University.’ Damn.
‘Psychology, you say. Isn’t that a bit German?’
‘Look, I’m not bloody German. Here’s my passport.’
Another suck on the pipe, then an adjustment of the spectacles as the harbourmaster turned the pages, studying each one carefully. ‘I see you spent a lot of time in Spain, Dr Zennor.’
‘I fought with the International Brigades. Against the Fascists. I was wounded.’ James nodded toward his shoulder: ‘That’s the only reason I’m not in the army now.’
The harbourmaster sat back in his chair and relit his pipe. The passport remained on his desk. ‘What do you know of the Arandora Star, Dr-’ he looked again at the document before giving an exaggerated pronunciation of the last name, as if determined to make it sound like that of a Viennese shrink, ‘ Zennor.’
James’s mind whirred. Arandora Star. Almost certainly a ship. Could that be the ship Florence and Harry were on? Did this man know something? Would it be better for James to appear ignorant or informed? With no better plan, he opted to tell the truth: ‘It sounds like a ship, but I’ve never heard of it.’
‘You sure of that, Doctor?’
‘I’m sure. Do you have reason to believe my wife and son might be on that ship, Mr-’
‘It’s Harbourmaster Hunter and no, I don’t. That ship sailed from here just over a week ago. Mostly krauts and wops on board. Internees. You sure you don’t know about it?’
‘For heaven’s sake, I’ve told-’
‘Because that ship was hit by a German torpedo and sunk, Dr Zennor. Loss of more than eight hundred lives.’
‘Good God.’
‘It’s not been in the papers, not yet anyway. But I should expect word has reached Huyton. The camp, I mean. Relatives and what have you. There’ll be a lot of angry people, I expect. Well, I don’t need to tell you, you’re the psychology expert.’ His tone was softening, but his eye remained sceptical.
‘Oh, I see,’ said James, with a bitter smile. ‘You think the “krauts and wops” might be planning some kind of revenge. You think I’m a saboteur who came here to plant a bomb!’
‘There’s nothing funny about it, Dr Zennor. It does happen, you know. And after Arandora Star, the police have told us to be especially vigilant. And there you are, sleeping rough on the dockside. Now why would a gentleman like you do that? Doesn’t make sense. Put yourself in my shoes.’
James decided that the man was extending a hand, that he wanted to be persuaded that James posed no threat. ‘Harbourmaster Hunter, I appreciate what this looks like. Downright odd for a man like me to behave this way. I spent all day travelling here from Oxford and I was, frankly, exhausted. I wanted to be first in the queue to-’
It wasn’t working. He could see that the man remained unmoved.
‘Forgive an intrusive question, but tell me, Harbourmaster, are you married?’
‘I am.’
‘Would I be right in assuming that, if one day, your wife and child were missing, but your wife sent you a note leading you to — I don’t know — let’s say, for the sake of argument, my office in Oxford; would I be right in assuming, in that situation, that you would camp outside my door until you found out where they were?’
A long suck on the pipe, then a cloud of smoke bearing the scent of childhood. Then: ‘Yes, you would be right, Dr Zennor.’ He paused, as if waiting for something more. On an instinct, James reached into his breast pocket and pulled out the postcard and handed it to Hunter.
The harbourmaster examined the picture on the front, then the postmark and finally the message, his eyes closing briefly — the modest gesture of a man acknowledging that he has just intruded into the private space of another. He put his pipe in the ashtray, bowl first, letting the ash tumble out, before standing up and announcing, ‘The ships’ manifests are kept in the log room next door.’
And so, a moment later, James was staring over Hunter’s shoulder as he pulled down the thick volumes containing records of recent traffic in and out of Liverpool. He went first, and deliberately it seemed to James, for a liner called Antonia.
‘ The Antonia,’ James said out loud. ‘Was that bound for Dublin?’
Hunter ignored the question, instead running his finger down the list of names, heading straight for the end of the list. Nothing under Z. He searched again, his finger moving more slowly. Still nothing. Now he checked other traffic, working his way through the passenger vessel manifests before turning to cargo ships, examining the crew lists. They found a Zander, but no Zennor.
It was, James thought, with genuine disappointment that Hunter finally shook his hand and ushered him from the office. ‘I wish you the best of luck, Dr Zennor,’ he said, adding with an extra squeeze of the hand, ‘and well done on fighting in Spain, sir. That was a good cause if ever there was one.’
As James walked away, struggling to repress a sense of defeat, he took another look at the postcard. The picture of the Sagrada Familia: was that purely sentimental, a reminder of happier times, a reminder of why they were together? Or had Florence been trying to tell him something more specific? Was there some clue contained there that he was missing? He looked again at the postmark — Liverpool — and the message: I love you.
He remembered the first letter he had ever had from her. It was after he had seen that press clipping, the one that revealed the ingenious truth about her participation in the Berlin Games. He had written to her, to apologize, of course, but also to express his fierce admiration for the stance she had taken. He was taking his own stand, he explained, fighting the barbarism that spoke in a Castilian, rather than a Bavarian, accent. (He was showing off.) He was fighting for the people who had hosted them so warmly in Barcelona. But the war would not last forever. And when he came back to England, he would very much like to see her again. He had not been sure how to sign off. He had not wanted to seem too infatuated, as if misreading the importance of their week together. Perhaps, for her, it was no more than a holiday romance. In the business of love, for all her freshness, young Florence Walsingham had been no ingenue. So he had opted for ‘Yours’. Capable of two readings, it could simply be the formal, conventional ‘yours’ but surely it could also carry a sense of ‘I am yours,’ as in Walsingham.
James turned around and sprinted back to the office. He burst through the doors, ignoring the shocked expressions of the clerks, and demanded to see Mr Hunter right away. When one official asked him to take a seat and wait his turn, James just spoke right over him until, hearing the commotion, the harbourmaster reappeared.
‘What is it?’
‘Her maiden name. I didn’t try her maiden name,’ James panted, attempting a smile to cover the embarrassment at his own stupidity. ‘Will you check the manifests again? For Florence Walsingham.’
Once again Hunter opened first the record for Antonia, running his finger along the names until he stopped and turned to James. ‘I thought as much. There, you can see for yourself.’
James stepped forward, finding the spot where in a clerk’s Victorian hand it stated simply, ‘Walsingham, Florence. F. Age, 25.’ Next to it was an entry for ‘Walsingham, Harry. M (minor). Age, 2 yrs 10 mths.’
His blood cannoning through his veins, James looked at the harbourmaster. ‘Where is this ship going?’
‘Canada.’
‘What? What did you say?’
‘The ship is sailing to Canada, sir.’
‘Canada? But that-’ His voice gave way, unable to push through his own incredulity. Canada? That was half a world away. Why on earth would Florence go there, why would she take Harry so far from his own father? Ireland would have been bad enough, but at least it was just a ferry ride away. Canada: she might as well have decided to live on another planet.
He forced his voice to speak, emitting a croak that implored the harbourmaster. ‘When do they leave?’
‘I’m afraid you’re too late, Dr Zennor. The Antonia set sail yesterday morning.’
