I chewed on that for a minute, thinking what a savage animal pride could be. She knew what I was thinking. I forced a smile.
‘Well, we’ll worry about that when we have to. What did Ray have to say about his father? That’s what’s on his mind, isn’t it?’
She drew a deep breath and straightened her shoulders; the tanned skin was drawn tight over the frame of her bones and in the half-light the hollows below and to both sides of her neck looked like smears and daubs of dark war-paint.
‘Ray was always more interested in his real father than Chris. That’s funny, because Chris is the reflective, scholarly one. I remember I once said something to Chris about it; like, did he mind not knowing his real father. He said, “Mum, that’s the least of my worries.” It was true, too. Ray would ask about him sometimes; I’d try to fob him off. I don’t suppose I did it very well. I just wanted to forget, blot it all out. But you can’t blot things out for other people, can you?’
I shook my head.
‘Chris thought of Paul as his father, Ray didn’t. It comes down to that. Perhaps it was just the extra year or so that made the difference. A few more meetings, games… I don’t know.’
‘You didn’t talk about this with Paul?’
‘No, never.’
‘So, what happened three months ago? What happened today?’
‘Much the same thing really. Ray accusing me of concealing things about his father from him. Of preventing him from meeting him. Calling me a liar. It’s true, I am. I did conceal things, I’d hate them to meet. I’m sure it would wreck everything. But I wasn’t lying when I said I don’t know where Peter was. I don’t, and I haven’t had any contact with him for years. Ray seems determined to find him. He’s going to Brisbane to get help from Chris.’
‘I can’t quite see why you didn’t talk any of this over with Paul.’
‘I wish I had now. But I couldn’t. I had a very bad time after leaving Peter. Some bad experiences. I couldn’t believe that anyone so wonderful as Paul could exist, let alone want me and the boys. I didn’t want there to be any problems. None.’
‘Are you saying what I think you’re saying?’
‘Yes, Mr Hardy. There was no divorce. As far as I know, I’m still married to Peter Keegan.’
I had to think up a story for Paul Guthrie, fast. A version of the truth is what I came out with-Ray’s troubles were still unclear to us but he had talked about his brother.
‘He told your wife he was going to Brisbane to see Chris’, I told him after Pat Guthrie had made some reassuring noises and told her husband that she had a lot of confidence in Mr Hardy, and that she was going to have a sleep.
‘Why, for Christ sake?’ We were in the kitchen and Guthrie was making tea. I hoped to avoid that.
‘I don’t know for sure, but it could be a good sign. The other boy’s steady, you say.’
Guthrie nodded and went on with his preparations. I don’t mind the rituals, which look comforting as such rituals should; it’s the taste of the stuff I can’t stand. Guthrie had mentioned a drink when I arrived, but maybe he’d meant tea all along.
‘Could you ring him up? Tell him Ray’s on the way? Maybe he could get him to stay with him for a while, something like that.’
The kitchen door opened and Pat Guthrie came in. ‘I thought I’d like some tea. What are you two doing?’
Guthrie touched her arm as if it was a privilege. ‘I’m making tea, and Hardy has just asked if we can ring Chris.’
She shook her head. ‘No, he lives in some sort of student house where they don’t have a phone.’
‘I could send him a telegram asking him to ring’, Guthrie said. ‘Or get a message to him at the university.’
‘That’d take days.’ Pat Guthrie looked at me appraisingly and seemed to find in my favour. ‘Perhaps Mr Hardy could go up there and see if he can help bring Ray to his senses. I’m worried about him ranting around, especially in strange places. I think Mr Hardy and Chris would get along all right.’
Did that make me the reflective type, I thought, scholarly, even? Flattering.
‘Good idea’, Guthrie said. He went across the kitchen and put his strong, oarsman’s arm around his wife’s slim waist. ‘Hardy?’
I said I’d go, got the address and details on Chris Guthrie’s university courses from them, and left. I didn’t have to drink the tea.
10
I got some money from the autobank at Railway Square and a surprised look at home from Hilde when I phone-booked a seat to Brisbane. She followed me as I ran around the house gathering things.
‘Now?’ she said. ‘It’s night time.’
‘We never sleep.’
‘That could be true’, she said. ‘You certainly didn’t sleep here last night.’ I made a face at her and she went on. ‘And from the look of you, maybe you didn’t sleep much anywhere. Mmmm?’
She was wearing a tracksuit and sneakers, prepared for one of her long, late night runs. I grinned at her and mimed running on the spot.
‘Sleep or not, I beat a pennant standard tennis player 9–7 in the tie-breaker today.’
‘Is that so? I’m sure Helen Broadway would love to hear all about it, point by point. How was your serve?’
I grabbed her arm. ‘I’ll break it, I swear, if you don’t tell me everything you know.’
She laughed and I let her go. ‘She rang a couple of times. Said she’d be out tonight but you could ring in the morning. Sexy voice.’
‘Great voice, yes. Thanks, Hilde. I’ll see you.’
‘When will you be back?’
‘Don’t know.’
I had my picture gallery, my gun, some clothes and books and a collection of burglary tools in an overnight bag. If they were scanning the hand luggage I’d have to put the gun and tools in a locker and go naked in the world. In my wallet I had my private enquiry agent’s licence which would mean about as much in Queensland as a Fantale wrapper. I had credit cards which everyone would like, and electric shaver and a toothbrush which no one could object to.
It was late and the airport was quiet; I parked, got seat-allocated and walked straight into the departure lounge-no scanner. My fellow passengers were a mixture of business folk and family folk. A couple of kids, up too late, were giving their mother hell, and the benign smiles of the two nuns opposite only made her more agitated. Me too.
We took off on time and I ordered a double scotch as soon as I could and settled down with Howard Hughes. The kids went into first class which was a relief; the nuns were back in second class, but they didn’t make any noise. I was reading about Hughes’s big-fish spending to corrupt the politicians in the little pool of Nevada and trying to tell myself it couldn’t happen here, when we landed in Brisbane.
I like Brisbane: I like the warm air and the houses up on stilts and the suburban gardens that are like small jungles. I hired a yellow Ford Laser at the airport, which was the least gaudy car they had. It had nothing on the clock but its springs were shot: it had a Brisbane street directory though, and at that time of night I was glad to be hiring that as well as the springs. I drove to the address I had for Chris Guthrie in the suburb of Paddington.
The same things have happened to Paddington, Brisbane, as have happened to Paddington, Sydney (and Paddington, London, for all I know): it’s an inner-city suburb, once intensely working class, now saved or ruined by a middle class invasion, depending on your point of view. Unlike a lot of Brisbane, it is hilly and I noticed an
