'Why not?'
I shook my head, didn't want to go into the details.
'Might help me to get in character,' she said. 'Sorry, I know it's serious. That's the trouble with this business, confusing make-believe with reality.'
I thought about that as we walked. She took my arm proprietorily. With her height, stylish clothes and gleaming hair, she turned heads. Was this make-believe or reality? We all play roles, but actors can play them more convincingly than most.
I ate my fill; she ate much less.
'Have to watch my figure. This bitch I'm playing's thin as a snake, acts like one, too. Have to do some jogging, which I hate. What d'you do to the keep the flab down?'
'Gym, walking, bit of tennis. Light on the carbs.'
She pointed to my plate. 'I didn't notice.'
'You ate so little I didn't want them to think we didn't enjoy the meal.'
We walked back briskly against a cold wind. We turned into my street and she stopped. 'I'm parked just here, Cliff. Do you want me to stay the night?'
I put my arm around her. 'I insist.'
I turned on a couple of heaters and made coffee while she wandered around looking at the books, the DVDs and CDs. She examined the photograph of Lily I had propped up on a shelf but made no comment. She went over to the corkboard and stopped in her tracks. She pointed to the photograph of the malevolent Sean Cassidy at the ceilidh.
'Jesus Christ, what's this doing here?'
I poised the plunger over the coffee. 'It was taken in Ireland. That guy was staring at Patrick as if he wanted to kill him. I just wondered…'
'I'm not surprised.'
'You know him?'
'I should. That's Seamus Cummings. Older. And God he's got thin, but that's him.'
I forgot about the coffee. 'How do you know him?'
She turned away from the board and got milk from the fridge.
'Sheila?'
'I thought from the way we… went about things, we weren't going into our past histories.' She pointed to Lily's photograph.
'This is different.'
She poured milk into the mugs. 'How?'
'I still want to find out who killed Patrick.'
'I thought you'd decided he was trying to kill you.'
'I haven't decided anything.'
She lowered the plunger, waited the required time and poured. 'Mmm, me either. I don't know if I want to go into it.'
It was one of those moments when something, apparently promising, potentially solid, can fracture at a word or a gesture. I was still unsure about Sheila but I didn't want that to happen. My feelings for her and the hope I felt were too strong. I'd blown these moments too often in the past by reacting too quickly. I slowed down, picked up the mug and blew gently on the surface to cool it. She took her mug and did the same, looking past me, back at the photograph.
'It's all right, Sheila,' I said. 'You don't have to tell me.'
She smiled. We were both tired and affected by the emotional pulls and tugs. Some strands of her well- managed hair had come loose and made her look younger, more vulnerable. I wanted badly to touch her and I think she sensed this.
'Cost you a bit to say that, lover, didn't it?'
I shrugged, drank some coffee.
'Tough guy. Our break-up, Paddy's and mine, was a protracted business, with infidelities on both sides and brief reconciliations. One of my affairs-didn't last and I went back to Paddy briefly-was with him. Seamus Cummings.'
15
Sheila told me that the man she knew as Seamus Cummings, known to Angela Warburton as Sean Cassidy, was, or had been, a soldier. She didn't know in what army he'd served- who he'd fought for or against.
'He was sexy,' she said.
Looking at the photograph, I could see the cause of the attraction, especially when he had a bit more flesh on his bones. He looked confident, and that means more to a lot of women than good looks. Certainly more than a full head of hair or the other things that men worry about and put store in. She said Cummings had never met Patrick as far as she knew, but had seen his photograph.
'He went wild when I told him I was dropping him for Paddy.'
'Violent wild?'
'Not to me; more to himself. He did threaten Paddy, but instead of doing anything he went on a week-long drunk and finished up in jail.'
'This was where?'
'Brisbane. I was buggering around in a crummy little theatre company and Paddy was still in the army but getting ready to leave.'
We'd finished the coffee and were on the sofa. I was sitting; she was lying with her head on my lap. I stroked her hair. We'd got past the point of antagonism or misunderstanding. She saw that I wasn't probing her, just pursuing a line of inquiry.
'Did Patrick have a beard back then? Say, in the photograph this guy, whatever he calls himself, saw? He certainly recognised him at the ceilidh.
'It's a lovely word for a piss-up, isn't it? Let me think. Yeah, I think so. They weren't allowed to have beards in the army, but he was on leave. Paddy's beards were sort of reverse deciduous-on in winter, off in summer.'
We were both tired, more than a little drained by the recent events in our separate and combined lives. Our hands moved, independently, to the places we wanted to touch. Tired can be good.
'One last question,' I said. 'What was Cummings doing in Australia?'
'Jesus, you detective, you. He had family here. People who'd emigrated. He said he came out pretty often to look them up. He wouldn't kill Paddy over something that happened that many years ago, surely.'
Sheila was up early, before me. She spent a lot of time in the bathroom and then on her mobile phone. She skipped breakfast and took off in a hurry. I'd found recently that I needed something in my stomach for the heart medications to lie comfortably, so I sat down to two poached eggs and coffee with my notebook. I drew a firm line through Sheila's name, cancelling her as a suspect. It wasn't just the feelings I had for her. She'd scarcely mentioned her claim on Patrick's estate and was clearly more excited by her acting prospects than anything else, including, I suspected, our relationship. I was sure she wasn't acting now. If she was, she was better than Meryl Streep.
Men don't commit murder over failed love affairs twenty years in the past. I was down to two possibilities- Frank Szabo, or someone connected with Patrick's smuggling activities. The latter seemed more likely but I was unsure how to go about investigating it and, anyway, that would be what the police were concentrating on. I logged on and brought up the Western Warriors website. 'Up Hawkesbury way' translated into a property on the river above Wisemans Ferry.
The web entry gave details of the property and fairly precise directions to it. A photograph of what was called 'The Compound' showed a high cyclone fence with a reception booth. There were telephone and fax numbers for the Commander and the Personnel Officer. Didn't look like a place where you just dropped in.
The WW, as it was styled, described itself as 'dedicated to masculinity, courage, resourcefulness and survival'.
