Little, Big

know that?”

“No. No, I thought… I think I thought it was the end.”

“Oh, that’s silly. If I hadn’t been stolen, I couldn’t have had my Education, and if I hadn’t had my Education I couldn’t have brought this news now, that it’s really beginning; so that was all right, don’t you see?”

Sophie watched her shuffle the cards, dropping some and sticking them back in the deck, in a sort of parody of careful arrangement. She tried to imagine the life Lilac had led, and couldn’t. “Did you,” she asked, “ever miss me, Lilac?” Lilac shrugged one shoulder, busy.

“There,” she said, and gave the deck to Sophie. “Follow that.” Sophie slowly took the cards from her, and just for a moment Lilac seemed to see her—to see her truly, for the first time since she had entered. “Sophie,” she said. “Don’t be sad. It’s all so much larger than you think.” She put her hand over Sophie’s. “Oh, there’s a fountain there—or a waterfall, I forget—and you can wash there— oh it’s so clear and icy cold and—oh, it’s all, it’s all so much bigger than you think!”

She climbed down from the bed. “You sleep now,” she said. “I have to go.”

“Go where? I won’t sleep, Lilac.”

“You will,” Lilac said. “You can, now; because I’m awake.”

“Oh?” She lay back slowly on the pillows Lilac plumped up behind her.

“Because,” Lilac said, with the secret in her smile again, “because I stole your sleep; but now I’m awake, and you can sleep.”

Sophie, exhausted, clasped the cards. “Where,” she said, “will you go? It’s dark and cold.”

Lilac shuddered, but she only said, “You sleep.” She raised herself on tiptoe beside the tall bed and, brushing the pale curls from Sophie’s cheek, kissed her lightly. “Sleep.”

She stepped noiselessly across the floor, opened the door, and with a glance back at her mother, went out into the still, cold hall. She closed the door behind her.

Sophie lay staring at the blankness of the door. The third candle guttered out with a hiss and a pop. Still holding the cards, Sophie wiggled slowly down within the quilts and coverlets, thinking—or perhaps not thinking, not thinking at all but feeling certain—that Lilac had, in some regard, been lying to her; in some regard misleading her at least; but in what regard?

Sleep.

In what regard? She was thinking, like a mental breathing: in what regard? She was breathing this when she knew, with a gasp of delight in her soul that almost woke her, that she was asleep.

Not All Over

Auberon, yawning, glanced first through the mail that Fred Savage had brought the night before from uptown.

“Dear World Elsewhere,” a lady with peacockgreen ink wrote, “I am writing now to ask you a question I have long pondered. I would like to know, if at all possible, where is that house where the MacReynolds and the others live? I must say that it is very important to me personally to know this. Its exact location. I wouldn’t bother you by writing except that I find it impossible to imagine. When they used to live at Shady Acres (way back when!) well, I could imagine that easily enough, but I cannot imagine this other place they’ve ended up. Please give me some kind of hint. I can hardly think of anything else.” She signed herself his hopefully, and added a postscript: “I sincerely promise not to bother anybody.” Auberon glanced at the postmark—way out West—and tossed it in the woodbox.

Now what the hell, he wondered, was he doing awake so early? Not to read mail. He glanced at Doc’s old square-faced wristwatch on the mantelpiece. Oh, yes: milking. All this week. He roughly pulled the covers of the bed in place, put a hand under the footboard, said “Up we go,” and magicked it into a mirror-fronted old wardrobe. The click of its locking into upright place he always found satisfying.

He pulled on tall boots and a heavy sweater, looking out the window at a light snow falling. Yawning again (would George have coffee? Yours hopefully) he pushed his hat on his head and went out clumping, locking the Folding Bedroom’s doors behind him and making his way down the stairs, out the window, down the fire escape, into the hall, through the wall and out onto the stairs that led down to the Mouse kitchen.

At the bottom he came on George.

“You’re not going to believe this,” George said.

Auberon stopped. George said nothing more. He looked like he’d seen a ghost: Auberon at once recognized the look, though he’d never before seen anyone who’d seen a ghost. Or like a ghost himself, if ghosts can look stricken, overcome by conflicting emotions, and amazed out of their wits. “What?” he said.

“You are not. Gonna believe this.” He was in socks of great antiquity and a quilted boxer’s dressing gown. He took Auberon’s hand and began to lead him down the hall toward the door of the kitchen. “What,” Auberon said again. The back of George’s dressing gown said it belonged to the Yonkers A.C.

At the door—which stood ajar—George turned again to Auberon. “Now just for God’s sake,” he whispered urgently, “don’t say a word about, you know, that story. That story I told you, about—you know—” he glanced at the open door—“about Lilac,” he said, or rather did not say, he only moved his lips around the name silently, exaggeratedly, and winked a frightened warning wink. Then he pushed open the door.

“Look,” he said. “Look, look,” as though Auberon were capable of not looking. “My kid.”

The child sat on the edge of the table, swinging her crossed bare legs back and forth.

“Hello, Auheron,” she said. “You got big.”

Auberon, feeling a feeling like crossed eyes in his soul but looking steadily at the child, touched the place in his heart where his imaginary Lilac was kept. She was there.

Then this was—

“Lilac,” he said.

“My kid. Lilac,” George said.

“But how?”

“Don’t ask me how,” George said.

“It’s a long story,” Lilac said. “The longest story I know.”

“There’s this meeting on,” George said.

“A Parliament,” Lilac said. “I came to tell you.”

“She came to tell us.”

“A Parliament,” Auberon said. “What on earth.”

“Listen, man,” George said. “Don’t ask me. I came down to brew a little coffee, and there’s a knocking at the door…”

“But why,” Auberon asked, “is she so young?”

“You’re asking me? So I peeked out, and here’s this kid in the snow…”

“She should be a lot older.”

“She was asleep. Or some damn thing. What do I know. So I open the door…”

“This is all kind of hard to believe,” Auberon said.

Lilac had been looking from one to the other of them, hands clasped in her lap, smiling a smile of cheerful love for her father, and of sly complicity at Auberon. The two stopped talking then, and only looked at her. George came closer. The look he wore was an anxious, joyful wonderment, as though he’d just hatched Lilac himself. “Milk,” he said, snapping his fingers. “How about a glass of milk? Kids like milk, right?”

“I can’t,” Lilac said, laughing at his solicitude. “I can’t, here.”

But George was already bustling with a jelly jar and a canister of goats milk from the refrigerator. “Sure,” he said. “Milk.”

“Lilac,” Auheron said. “Where is it you want us to go?”

“To where the meeting is,” Lilac said. “The Parliament.”

“But where? Why? What…”

“Oh, Auberon,” Lilac said, impatient, “they’ll explain all that when you get there. You just have to