Little, Big

“I guess,” Auberon said. “Who…”

“Yeah, old Brownie,” George said. “He’s kind of private. Like a hermit. Does a lot of work around the place.” He looked at Auberon curiously. “I hope you didn’t…”

“I don’t think he understood me. He went off.”

“Aw,” Sylvie said gently. “Brownie.”

“Did you, well, take him in too?” Auberon asked George.

“Hm? Who? Brownie?” George said, having fallen into thought. “Nah, old Brownie’s always been here, I guess, who the hell knows. So listen,” he said, definitely changing the subject, “what are you up to today? Negocio?”

From an inside pocket Auberon took out a card. It said PETTY, SMILODON & RUTH, Attorneys-at-law, and gave an address and phone number. “My grandfather’s lawyers. I’ve got to see about this inheritance. Can you tell me how to get there?”

George puzzled over this, reading the address aloud slowly as though it were esoteric. Sylvie, hiking her shawl over her shoulder, brought a battered, steaming pot to the table. “Take the bee or the sea,” she said. “Here’s your nasties.” She banged the pot down. George inhaled the steam gratefully. “She don’t eat oatmeal,” he said to Auberon, with a wink.

She had turned away, her face, her whole body in fact, showing aversion very graphically, and (changing utterly in an instant) picked up with easy grace the child, who was in the process of sword-swallowing a ball-point pen. “Que jodiendo! Look at this implement. C’mere, you, look at these fat cheeks, so cute, don’t they make you want to bite ’em? Mmmp.” She sucked his fat brown cheeks avidly as he struggled to escape, eyes screwed tight. She sat him down in a rickety high-chair whose decals of bear and rabbit were all but worn away, and set food before him. She helped him eat, opening her mouth when he did, closing it around an imaginary spoon, cleaning the excess neatly from his face. Watching her, Auberon caught himself opening his own mouth in assistance. He snapped it shut.

“Hey, sport model,” George said to Sylvie as she finished with the baby. “You going to eat or what?”

“Eat?” As though he had made an indecent suggestion. “I just got here. I’m going to bed, man, and I’m going to sleep.” She stretched, she yawned, she offered herself wholeheartedly to Morpheus; she scratched her stomach lazily with long painted nails. The gold gown showed a small shadowed hollow where her navel was. Auberon felt that her brown body, however perfect, was too small to contain her; she shot out from it all over in flashes and spikes of intelligence and feeling; even her impersonation now of exhaustion and debility exploded from her like a brilliance.

“The bee or the sea?” he said.

A Winged Messenger

Riding racketing uptown on the B train underground, Auberon—with no experience at all of such things to guide him—tried to puzzle out what relation there might be between George and Sylvie. He was old enough to be her father, and Auberon was young enough to find the possibility of that kind of May-December coupling unlikely and repellent. Yet she had been making breakfast for him. What bed did she go to, when she went to bed? He wished, well, he didn’t know quite what he wished, and just then an emergency occurred on the train which threw all that out of his mind. The train began shaking violently to and fro; it screamed as though tormented; it was apparently about to burst apart. Auberon leapt up. Loud metallic knockings beat on his ears, and the lights shuddered and went out. Clutching a cold pole, Auberon waited for the imminent collision or derailment. Then he noticed that no one on the train seemed the least concerned; stony-faced, they read foreign-language newspapers or rocked baby carriages or rooted in shopping bags or chewed gum placidly, my God those asleep didn’t even stir. The only thing they seemed to find odd was his own leaping up, and this they only glanced at furtively. But here was the disaster! Outside the almost comically filthy windows he saw another train, on a parallel track, sweeping toward them, whistles and iron shrieks, they were about to sideswipe, the yellow windows (all that was visible) of the other train rushed at them like eyes aghast. At the last possible instant the two trains shifted minutely and resumed their furious parallel, inches from one another’s flanks, racing madly. In the other train Auberon could see placid overcoated riders reading foreign newspapers and rooting in shopping bags. He sat down.

An aged black man in ancient clothes, who through all of this had been lightly holding a pole in the middle of the car, was saying as the noise diminished, “Now don’t get me wrong—don’t get me wrong,” holding out a long, gray-palmed hand to the passengers in general, whom, studiously ignoring him, he was reassuring. “Don’t get me wrong. A well-dressed woman’s sumpm to see, now, y’know, y’know, a thing of beauty’s, yunnastan, a joy fevvah; what I’m talkin ’bout’s a woman who wears a fuh. Now don’t get me wrong—” a deprecatory shake of the head to forestall criticism “—but y’see a woman who wears a fuh takes on the propensities of that animal. Y’see. Takes on the propensities of the animal of whose fuh she wears. Thass right.” He struck a casual, raconteur’s pose and glanced around at his hearers with benign intimacy. As he pushed aside his unspeakable overcoat to place his knuckles on his hip, Auberon saw the heavy swing of a bottle in the pocket. “Now I was in Saks Fiff Avenue thutha day,” he said, “and there was ladies pricin’ a coat made from the fuh of the sable.” He shook his head to think of it. “Now, now, of all th’animals in God’s creation the sable animal has got to be the lowest. The sable animal, my friends, will eat its own children. Y’hear what I’m sayin’? Thass right. The sable is the dirtiest, low-downest, meanest—the sable is a meaner and a lower thing than a mink, people, than a mink, and surely you know where the mink is at. Well! And here was these nice ladies, wouldn’t hurt a fly, feelin’ up this coat made of the sable animal, yas yas, ain’t it fine—” He laughed, delicately, unable to check his amusement any longer. “Yas, yas, the propensities of the animal, no doubt about it…” His yellow eyes fell on Auberon, the only one there who’d followed him with any attention, wondering if he were right. “Mmm-mmm-mmm,” he said, absently, his discourse done, a half-smile on his face; his eyes, wise, humorous, and reptilian at once, seemed to find something amusing in Auberon. The train just then turned a shrieking corner, propelling the man forward down the car. He gavotted away neatly, never falling, though without balance, the bottleweighted pocket clanking on the poles. As he passed, Auberon heard him say “Fans and furred robes hide all.” He was brought up by the train’s coming to a halt, began to dance backward; the doors slid open, and a final lurch of the train tossed him out. Just in time, Auberon recognized his own stop, and leapt out also.

Clamor and acrid smoke, urgent announcements that were a garble of static and drowned anyway by the metal roar of trains and the constant echo and re-echo. Auberon, utterly disoriented, followed herds of riders upward along stairs, ramps, and escalators, and found himself still apparently underground. At a turning, he caught a glimpse of the black man’s overcoat; at the next—which seemed intent on leading him downward again—he was beside him. He seemed now preoccupied, walking aimlessly; the garrulousness he had shown in the train was gone. An actor offstage, with troubles of his own.

“Excuse me,” Auberon said, fishing in his pocket. The black man, with no surprise, held out a hand to receive what Auberon would offer, and with no surprise withdrew the hand when Auberon came up with only the card of Petty, Smilodon & Ruth. “Can you help me find this address?” He read it. The black man looked doubtful.

“A tricky one,” he said. “Seems to mean one thing, but it don’t. Oh, tricky. Take some findin’.” He shuffled off, bent and dreaming, but his hand down at his side motioned with a quick motion that Auberon should follow. “Ever’man I will go with thee,” he muttered, “and be thy guide, in thy mose need to be by thy side.”

“Thanks,” Auberon said, though not quite sure this was meant for him. He grew less sure as the man (whose gait was quicker than it looked, and who gave no warning at turnings) led him through dark tunnels reeking of urine, where rainwater dripped as though in a cave, and along echoing passages, and up into a vast basilica (the old terminal), and further upward by shining stairs into marble halls, he seeming to grow shabbier and smell stronger as they ascended into clean public places.

“Lemme see that again one time,” he said as they stood before a rank of swiftly-revolving doors, glass and steel, through which a continual stream of people passed. Auberon and his guide stood directly in their path, the