lot of the kids they admit. He got involved with us right away, in spite of the time football was taking.”
I nodded. “Go back to the meeting, Rasheed.”
“When he didn’t show up, we called him, but no answer. A little while later we decided to go check out his room.”
He stopped for a moment. I wasn’t sure why, but it gave me a chance to ask, “Why were you worried about him? I mean, anything could have kept him from one meeting.”
“Not Anthony.” They said it together, and Gail went on. “He took these helping sessions very seriously.”
Rasheed went on. “Besides, he’d been getting more and more into depression. We kind of…” He glanced at Gail. “… kept an eye on him. We tried to talk to him, like build up his confidence. But we weren’t getting anywhere. We wanted him to get some help.”
“So did you find him?”
Rasheed looked down at the bracelet he was fidgeting with.
“Yeah. He was in his room.”
The pause indicated the need for urging. “Was it the suicide attempt?”
Rasheed just nodded. Gail’s eyes watered over, and I thought about dropping it, but I needed to learn all I could.
“How?” Neither one was looking at me, but Rasheed made a gesture across his wrist.
“What did you do?”
“We put pressure on it. Got him to the hospital. He did OK. We got him in time.”
I thought I heard Gail say almost under her breath, “No, we didn’t.”
I looked at her. She was so sincere she had my heart as well as my attention. When our eyes met, maybe it showed.
“How was he afterwards?”
“He was OK.” Rasheed’s version.
“No, he wasn’t.” Gail didn’t need the third-base coach. “He never really recovered from it.”
I said, “He seemed to be healthy when I saw him recently.”
“You mean physically. Yes, the stitches healed, and he got his energy back. But there was something missing.”
“Like what?”
“I don’t know. You know how sometimes there’s something about a person that almost defines them. You can’t put your finger on it, but when it’s not there, it’s like emptiness.”
I wondered if Gail could have had more than a passing affection for whatever that something was. Rasheed looked at her gently with what could have been either agreement or empathy, or maybe more.
There was a jolt that brought us all out of it when the door to the other room swung open. A string of high- pitched jive rolled like a babbling stream off the lips of a six-foot, rail-thin dude who came through the door in full swing. He had a walk that had arms, feet, hips, and head syncopating with each other to a beat somewhere in his own universe.
The gist of the jive, as nearly as I could put it together, was the registration of a complaint that the local rap station had been put to rest. It flowed until he spotted the unexpected visitor. Then I saw “the freeze.”
It took me back through the past, and it’s like bike riding. You never forget. I learned it when I spent some time with kids in a Puerto Rican settlement house. I was seriously Puerto Rican at that time and looking for cultural identity, not the well-adjusted biracial of current times. That was when I learned about “the freeze.”
It’s like a babbling brook, where all of the happy molecules are monolithic and bouncing in easy rhythm with each other. Then a molecule from another kind of brook is introduced, and in a sort of instant chemical reaction, the brook freezes solid, but only under the top layer. On the surface, to the untrained eye, the brook babbles on.
My white face was the molecule from another brook. I was tuned to the snap freeze, as I’m sure Gail and Rasheed were. I was equally sure that none of the three gave me credit for being in on the phenomenon.
I didn’t sense it at all when I walked in on Gail and Rasheed, but the meter was pinning with our new arrival. What it meant was that the surface bopping would go on, but any information I would get from then on would be carefully screened for white ears. With him present, I’d probably had the best of the harvest from the others as well.
Gail took the lead. “Abdul, this is Mr. Knight. He’s Anthony’s lawyer. This is Abdul Shabaz.”
I pegged him at about the junior year, but somehow the Harvard accent had not adulterated his singy-swingy dialect.
“Hey, Anthony’s ma man. Please to make your acquaintance, Mr. Knight.”
I couldn’t tell if he wanted to shake or high-five, so I just nodded. “Nice to meet you, Abdul.”
“How’s ma man doin’?”
I suddenly realized that I didn’t really know. I mentally filled that in as my next appointment.
“He’s all right, considering.”
“Whachu want us to do? You name it. You got it.”
“Give me six Phi Beta Kappa divinity students who’ll swear they were with Anthony all day Sunday.”
I thought it, but I didn’t say it. If I had, I had a feeling that Abdul would have had them at my doorstep in the morning.
“I need to find a friend of Anthony’s by the name of Terry Blocher. Do you know him?”
“Terry’s a member. You just cool it. I’ll get him up here.”
I cooled it, while Abdul walked the walk into the next room. I could hear phone sounds and a pause. Then I heard Abdul in a semimuffled tone that only carried through both rooms. Abdul was not cut out for espionage.
“Terry, ma man. Git yourself over here. We got Anthony’s mouthpiece. He wants to see you.”
With my eyebrows up and a restrained smile, I looked at Gail. “‘ Mouthpiece ’? Are they running a forties’ film festival? I haven’t heard that since Little Caesar on AMC.”
Her eyes went to the ceiling, and she just shook her head.
In about five minutes, a white student of about nineteen, shorter and heftier than Abdul, walked in. He had a roundish face crowned with the kind of dull blond curls that never seem to need a comb.
Introductions were made, and I got down to it.
“Terry, Anthony tells me that you went with him to Chinatown on Sunday. He said you suggested having dinner there.”
“It was his idea, but that’s right. I went with him.”
I was slightly jangled by the correction, but it was a minor point.
“Tell me about it.”
“Well, we went in on the train about two. We went to a place called the Ming Tree.”
“Did you pick the restaurant or did Anthony?”
“No, he did. I’d never been there before.”
“Had he?”
“I don’t know. He just picked it.”
“OK. Then what?”
“We had dinner. Then we went down to the street. It was like… pandemonium. I had to get out of there.”
“So you left him where?”
“Outside the restaurant. I walked to Park Street.”
“Did Anthony have a gun?”
He gave me one of those whose-side-are-you-on looks and silence.
“I’d be happy to hear, ‘no.’”
“OK, no.”
“Did you see anyone there with a gun?”
“No.”
I racked my brain for any nugget of gold that I should dig while I was still at the mine. None occurred at the moment, but now I knew where I could find him.
I turned my mind to surviving the recrossing of Mass. Avenue. If I made it, I was going to take the train to the Suffolk County prison.
