I shook my head: ‘I am getting tired of telling you people this. But I will repeat it for you once more and then I will speak on this subject no more. I — Do — Not — Know — Where — Robin — Is. I serve him, yes, and gladly. But we arranged matters so that I would never be able to betray him — even on pain of torture or death.’
Sir Aymeric de St Maur glared at me. For a few moments no one spoke. Then he said: ‘We have sent men to bring in your servant — the foreigner. And when we have him, we will see if a little heat will loosen his tongue. Or perhaps, watching his agony, you may feel more inclined to talk.’
I closed my lips, clenched my teeth and determined that I would say no more.
‘There is no need for this sort of unpleasantness,’ said Nicholas de Scras calmly. ‘Sir Aymeric, would you be so good as to leave us. I’d like to talk to Alan alone. Of your goodness, will you grant me this small mercy?’
Aymeric stared at Sir Nicholas for a few moments; he seemed taken aback. Then, turning to leave, he said grumpily, ‘Very well, but mark you this: if he will not talk to you, he will talk to me before morning.’ And with that parting threat hanging in the air like a foul odour he left the storeroom, banging the elm-wood door shut behind him.
Sir Nicholas and I stared at each other for several moments. And then the knight said, ‘It is still not too late for you, Alan.’ His voice was pleading, kindly — like a father trying to persuade a recalcitrant child. ‘We can end all this, and set you free to go wherever you will, if only you will help us. Please, Alan, for your sake, and mine: help me to help you.’
I said nothing, locking my jaw and looking him in the eye; and my silence seemed to draw speech from him.
‘I do not have many friends,’ said this one-time Hospitaller, ‘and I have even fewer now that I have left the Order. But I thought once that you and I might become close. And when they hang you tomorrow, I will feel a great sadness that another man who offered me the promise of brotherhood has perished. Of course, it is entirely your own fault: if you would only speak to me about your friend Robin, if you would only trust me, I could save you, even now. But you have chosen to die. And I can understand that. I honour your loyalty to your lord, but you have shown your mettle a hundred times; you have proved your courage and your worth as a faithful vassal, and now it is time to think of yourself. To save yourself. Alan, I beg you: save yourself!’
He paused for a while to give me the chance to speak. But I said nothing, merely stared at him, my tongue locked.
‘I had a friend in Outremer, a good friend,’ Sir Nicholas continued. ‘He was your friend, too, I believe. His name was Sir Richard at Lea — and you know how he died. You know… you know who it was who killed him.’
He paused again and looked at me, and this time I could not meet his eye.
‘You know that your master Robert of Locksley callously ordered the death of a good man; he killed my friend and yours, just so that he could enrich himself like some filthy merchant with the trade in frankincense.’
I was surprised. I could not understand how Sir Nicholas knew all this; the knight seemed to be able to see directly into my mind. Then he relieved my puzzlement.
‘In Acre, in the hospital there, I tended you when you were sick,’ Sir Nicholas said. ‘Do you not remember?’ And I nodded and remembered his kindness to me. I felt an overwhelming desire to speak to him, to thank him, and only with some difficulty did I manage to hold my tongue.
‘I tended you, I sponged the night sweat from your body, and soothed you when you raved. I listened to your ranting, night after night: and I remembered it. Do you know what you said in your delirium? Do you know who you accused of the murder of Sir Richard at Lea? I think you do. You named Robert, Earl of Locksley, as his killer. And you called him a monster, a demonworshipping fiend. All that I know of Locksley’s crimes, I know because you told me during those long, fever-racked nights in Acre.’
Sir Nicholas’s face had grown more gaunt and his voice had become a little harsher, a little less kindly and fatherly.
‘You have already betrayed Robin Hood, your friend, your master. Did you not know that? It was I who told the Templars where to look for the evidence of his heretical beliefs; his God-cursed sacrifices to woodland demons. And I received all that information, every scrap of it, from you, from your sickbed ravings.
‘You have already betrayed your master! You are already a traitor — and a real traitor this time. But now you can save your skin, and live a long and happy life. All you have to do is talk to me. You called him a monster. And he is a monster. He killed my friend, my true friend Richard — all for the sake of some filthy incense money! Help me, Alan. Help me to bring that monster to justice and let our noble friend Sir Richard at Lea rest peacefully at last in his grave.’
I stared at the floor: my jaw muscles flexing, my teeth squeaking with the effort of keeping quiet.
The silence stretched out for an eternity. And, finally, Sir Nicholas gave up. He got to his feet and banged on the storeroom door to bring a guard.
‘Why will you not help me, Alan? Why?’
He stood in the open doorway; I never expected to see him again in this world and so, at last, I spoke.
‘I swore an oath to Robin, long ago when I was just a boy. Though I was not yet a man, I swore it: I swore that I would be loyal to him unto death. And I intend to keep that oath. It is something a man like you, a breaker of holy vows, a man who turns his back on his comrades, could not possibly understand!’
Sir Nicholas flinched at my words, as I had intended him to; and two smears of red appeared on his cheeks. He made the sign of the Cross on his breast, in the place where a white cross had once been sewn on his black Hospitallers’ surcoat — the sacred mantle that he had discarded.
‘God will judge all of us in His own good time,’ he said and, pulling the torch from the becket on the wall, he made to leave.
‘Wait, Nicholas,’ I said. ‘I have a question for you. As I am to die tomorrow morning, as a kindness, answer me this: why did you kill the big man Tom outside the Blue Boar tavern in Westminster? He was wounded and he might have talked, but you quickly silenced him. Why?’
Sir Nicholas cocked his head on one side and looked at me, the torchlight flickering across his face and casting his eyes in deep shadow. ‘After what you have just said to me, I am not sure that I wish to oblige you.’ He looked at me a while, then shrugged. ‘Well, I suppose it can do no harm…’ And he smiled sadly at me, more like his old self again. ‘I knew that Prince John had sent men to murder you — but I did not know who they were. I thought that those men outside the tavern might have come from the Prince. And if they had, and the big one had admitted his mission under questioning, I knew that you would never have willingly come to Prince John’s banner. That was my reasoning. I wanted you to come to John so that I could get to Robert of Locksley. I thought that if we were on the same side, you might let slip something that would allow me to reach him. It seems I was wrong.’
Our eyes locked for a couple of heartbeats. I said nothing more. Then he half-saluted me with his right hand, and stepped quickly out of the room and the door closed quietly behind him.
When Sir Nicholas had left me, I tried once more to sleep. I could not: there were too many images rushing around inside my head for peaceful slumber. Visions of Robin, and Little John, and Sir Richard at Lea’s terrible death in the blood-clotted sands of Outremer, and images of Goody and Marie-Anne; of Milo’s bloody head lolling by my boots; of Ralph Murdac’s shocked expression. And then there was the hanging. I was going to die in a few short hours. I had seen my own father hanged when I was a boy, torn from his bed and strung up by Sir Ralph Murdac’s men, and the memory disturbed me still. I could see his hideously distorted face and bulging eyes as the rope choked the life from him, and I pictured once again the piss dripping from his kicking heels. Was my fate to be the same as my father’s? Had I been born to hang?
At a little after midnight, after several sleepless hours, the door of the storeroom opened once again — this time very softly — and Robert Odo, the outlawed Earl of Locksley, stepped in.
Chapter Sixteen
I did not know immediately, of course, that it was Robin. The door just swung open — in the intense blackness of the roots of a castle at midnight I heard it more than saw it. And then he spoke: ‘That you, Alan?’ And even in his hoarse whisper, I knew my lord had come and all would now be well. I can remember vividly the emotion I felt at the time; like a great warm wave that flooded my soul with joy. I knew Robin would lead me out of that dark place and into the light, to safety.
