'Ten years is a long time,' said Uncle Tom, 'but you must not worry about it. You've come back, and you are going to stay. What do you intend to do with yourself, Hal, when you leave Oxford?'
'Nothing,' smiled Hal, 'except enjoy myself and paint pictures for my friends.'
Aunt Harriet shook her head.
'You've been learning bad ways, I can see that,' she said. 'Too much money and too little leadership. Come and help me churn the butter.
Jinny will show you how to do it.'
The white-scrubbed dairy, and Aunt Harriet bustling with the pots and pans.
'Come and work for your living,' she said, 'instead of lounging there on the table, drinking buttermilk.
Jinny has twice your energy, for all your size.'
'Women shall work, and men shall play,' teased Hal, pulling Jinny's hair. 'Do you remember when I tipped you out of a wheelbarrow, Jinny, and made you cry?'
'Yes, but you kissed her afterwards and said you were sorry,' said Aunt Harriet.
Hal dug his finger in the bowl of yellow cream, and looked slyly at Jinny, who, with sleeves rolled up and hair pinned on top of her head, was working the handle of the churn.
'I suppose you're too old to kiss now, Jinny,' he said.
'Much too old,' said Jinny gravely.
'And too sensible to fall out of a wheelbarrow?'
'It depends who was wheeling it.'
'Would you like me to take you round the garden and see?'
'I would not.'
'Then we'll go fishing in the creek instead, if you'll be good enough to trust yourself to me.'
'I won't promise anything,' said Jinny, 'until you take your fingers out of the cream.'
Hal laughed, and slipping off the table, he took his place beside her and worked the handle of the churn.
'Oh, Jinny,' he said, 'you've never been away, so you don't know what it is to be home again.'
It was no use getting depressed because the years had come between them and the people of Clonmere. The place had not changed. And every moment must be enjoyed. It was a truly happy Christmas. The kitchen range was coaxed into cooking the turkey, and Hal, as master of the house, was persuaded to carve it, which he did in such generous fashion that nothing remained at the end for himself but the carcase. It was a great party, with the Brodricks, the Spencers, the Callaghans, and the Flower cousins from Andriff, Simon and Judith and Frank, and after the Christmas dinner had been eaten they all played hide-and-seek in the new wing, the empty rooms echoing with running feet, and calls, and laughter. Tom Callaghan stood with his wife in the passage leading to the new wing from the old house, listening to the thumps, and bangs, and shouts of triumph.
'What a tragedy!' he said softly. 'And it might have been thus all these years. The rooms furnished, instead of bare. The girls and that boy growing up where they belonged. And Henry his old dear, generous self.'
'Will he ever come back, do you think?' asked Harriet.
The Rector shook his head.
'You've seen his letters,' he said, 'you can understand what has happened to him. He's a different man.'
'Hal's so like him,' said his wife, 'the same charm, the same smile, and yet something lacking, not the enthusiasm, not the drive that Henry had. And he sometimes talks so bitterly for a boy not twenty-one.'
'Ten years' neglect, and all his mother's teaching thrown away,' said Tom. 'If Henry would break down the barrier that has grown up between them… but even then, I wonder. The foundations have been knocked away.'
Kitty ran down the stairs of the great hall, pursued by her cousin Simon Flower. Lizette, her thin face flushed for once, tip-toed into the drawing-room that had never been used. Laughter came from the gallery above, where Robert had caught Molly, and the two waltzed to the head of the stairs.
In the little boudoir above the barred front door Hal struggled with the windows to the balcony. They were rusted and damp, and would not open.
'This was to have been my mother's room,' he said.
'Father planned it for her, next to the bedroom. Do you like it?'
Jinny nodded.
'I've often looked at it from outside,' she said. 'I used to trespass here, you know, when the Boles were away. It's just as I imagined. In the corner there your mother would have had her writing-table, close to the fire. And there would have been a chair here, and another there.'
She smiled at Hal, her eyes warm with understanding.
'Do you remember her?' he said.
Jinny shook her head.
'Only just that there was someone with a very soft voice and dark hair, who used to kiss me when I came to tea,' she said.
Hal stared in front of him, his hands in his pockets.
'I know,' he said. 'The terrible thing is that I can't remember more than that either. And yet she was the person I loved best in the world.' Once again he struggled with the windows, but the damp had too great a hold on them. 'I can't open them,' he said, 'they're shut for ever.' He turned away, shrugging his shoulders. 'Let them stay, then,' he said. 'No one will ever live in this part of the house now.'
She followed him along the gallery to the stairs.
The hide-and-seekers had taken themselves off to the old house. The great hall was deserted.
'It's queer,' said Hal, 'but as a rule you hear of the haunting of old buildings, never new. And yet I feel this wing is full of ghosts.'
Jinny put out her hand to him.
'You would not mind if it was your mother, would you, Hal?' she said.
She looked young, and brave, and very confident. She was not too shy to hold his hand there, alone, in the silence.
Hal shook his head.
'It's not my mother who's the ghost,' he said, 'that's what makes it so queer. It's the ghost of my father still alive, hiding here in the shadows.' He looked over his shoulder at the black, gaping doors. 'Come away, Jinny,' he said. 'I don't want to think about him, I want to think about ourselves. It's Christmas, and we've got to be happy, we've got to be gay…?
When the party at Clonmere broke up at the end of January, Molly and her husband took Lizette off to live with them in the neighbouring county, and Kitty went to stay with her cousins the Flowers at Castle Andriff. Only Hal returned across the water, proposing to spend a night in Lancaster Gate before going back to Oxford.
'Always remember,' said Uncle Tom, as he shook hands with him on the quay at Doonhaven, 'that there is a home for you at the Rectory-not for your dear mother's sake, or for your father's, but for your own.
We are all very fond of you. Jinny is going to miss your companionship.'
'Thank you,' said Hal, 'I shan't forget.'
There was a great sadness in his heart as the steamer drew away from the harbour into Mundy Bay, and Clonmere, and the village, and Doon Island became once more grey shadows under the hills. The holiday that had meant so much belonged already to the past.
He wondered whether he would ever return, and had a wretched feeling of despair that this was farewell.
When he arrived at Lancaster Gate he found that his father and stepmother were out. He sat alone in the drawing-room, turning over magazines. It seemed to him that the room was full of Adeline. Her books, her knitting, her writing-paper. Everything neat and in order-but somehow lacking comfort, and he sat there in anticipation of her brisk, firm tread, her grating laugh. His old schoolboy dread of conversation engulfed him, and to steady his nerves he went into the dining-room and helped himself to a large whisky-and-soda. It was the only way to get through the evening. Never once had he felt the need of one at Doonhaven. It was only here, in the cold, impersonal atmosphere of Lancaster Gate, that he could not do without it. By the time his father and stepmother arrived he was warm and hazy with false courage.
Life did not seem so formidable, and he felt he could stand up against the world.
