discover the secret of her memory, to remember what she would remember.
I saw her, I will remember her.
It’s Laura Diaz.
2.
Catemaco: 1905
SOMETIMES IT’S POSSIBLE to touch memory. The family legend retold most often concerned the courage of Grandmother Cosima Kelsen when, back in the late 1860s, she journeyed to Mexico City in order to buy furniture and accessories for her house in Veracruz and, on her way back, her stagecoach was stopped by bandits who still wore the picturesque costume derived from the uniforms of nineteenth-century civil wars- wide-brimmed, round hat, short suede jacket, bell-bottom trousers, the ensemble held together by buttons of old silver, short boots, and jingling spurs.
Cosima Kelsen preferred evoking those details to recounting what happened. After all, the anecdote was better-and therefore more incredible, more extraordinary, more long-lasting, and known to more people-when many voices repeated it, when it passed (acknowledging the redundancy) from hand to hand, since the tale concerned hands. Fingers, actually.
The stagecoach was stopped at that strange spot on the Cofre de Perote where instead of ascending through the mist, the traveler descends from the diaphanous height of the mountain into a lake of fog. The gang of bandits, called
She didn’t deign to look at them.
Their leader, formerly a captain in Emperor Maximilian’s defeated army, had loitered around the Chapultepec court long enough to be able to recognize social differences. He was famous in the Veracruz region for his sexual appetites-his nickname was the Hunk of Papantla-and equally famous for knowing the difference between a lady and a tart. Even though he’d been reduced to banditry after the imperial defeat, which culminated in the execution in 1867 of Maximilian along with the generals Miramon and Mejia-The three M’s,
“Please, madam, give me your rings.”
The hand that Cosima had so provocatively exposed boasted a gold wedding band, a dazzling sapphire, and a pearl ring.
“These are my engagement and wedding rings. You’d have to cut them off me.”
Which is exactly what the fearsome former imperial officer did without missing a beat, as if both knew the protocol of honor: one stroke of his machete and he cut off the four exposed fingers of young Grandmother Cosima Kelsen’s right hand. She didn’t even wince. The savage officer took off the red scarf he was wearing on his head in the old
“Thank you,” said the beautiful young Cosima, looking at him for the first and only time. “Will you be requiring anything else?”
The Hunk of Papantla’s only answer was to lash the rump of the nearest horse, and the coach spun away down the slope toward the hot land of Veracruz, its destination beyond the mountain mists.
“No one is to touch that lady ever again,” said the chief to his crew, who all understood that disobedience would cost them their lives and that their leader, for an instant and perhaps forever, had fallen in love.
“But if he fell in love with Grandmama, why didn’t he give her back the rings?” asked Laura Diaz when she was old enough to think things through.
“Because he had no other souvenir of her,” answered Aunt Hilda, the eldest of Cosima Kelsen’s three daughters.
“But what did he do with the fingers?”
“That’s something we don’t talk about, child,” answered the second of the trio, the young Fraulein Virginia, energetic and irritated, dropping the book she happened to be reading of the twenty she read each month.
“Watch out for die gypsie’,” said the hacienda cook in her greedy coastal accent that devoured
Laura Diaz stared down at her hands-little hands-and held them out and childishly twirled her fingers as if she were playing a piano. Then quickly she hid them under her blue-checkered school apron and observed with growing terror the activity of fingers in her father’s house, as if all of them, at all hours of the day and night, did nothing but exercise what the Hunk of Papantla had taken away from the then young and beautiful and recently arrived Miss Cosima. Aunt Hilda, with a kind of hidden fever, played the Steinway piano brought from the port of Veracruz from New Orleans, a long voyage that seemed short because, as the passengers noted and then told Fraulein Kelsen, seagulls accompanied the ship, or perhaps the piano, from Louisiana to Veracruz.
“Mutti would have been better off going to
“The Habsburgs governed Mexico longer than anyone, don’t you forget it. Mexico is more Austrian than anything else,” said the well-read and well-written Virginia to her youngest sister, Leticia, Laura Diaz’s mother. For Leticia, this
At the same time, the melancholy resonance that Hilda’s agile fingers gave to Chopin’s Preludes, her favorite music, augmented every particle of sadness-real, remembered, or imaginable-in the vast but simple house on the hill above the tropical lake.
“Would we be different if we’d grown up in Germany?” asked sister Hilda nostalgically.
“Yes,” Virginia instantly replied. “And if we’d been born in China we’d be even more different.
“Don’t you feel nostalgia?” Hilda asked her youngest sister, Leticia.
“How could I? I’ve never been there.”
“You’re the only one who has,” Virginia berated her, interrupting, although she was looking at Leticia, Laura’s mother.
“There’s a lot to do in the house,” concluded Leticia.
Like all the country houses Spain left in the New World, this one, built on one level, consisted of four whitewashed sides around a central patio onto which opened dining room, living room, and bedrooms. Light entered the sitting rooms from the patio, because the external walls were windowless; defense might someday be necessary and modesty was a permanent concern.
“We live as if Indians, or English pirates, or rebel blacks were going to attack us,” commented young Aunt Virginia with an amused smile.
Their modesty, on the other hand, was well served. Seasonal laborers brought in to harvest coffee were curious, impertinent, sometimes insolent, and thought themselves the equal of anyone. Virginia would answer them back with a mixture of Spanish insults and Latin quotations that would scatter them-as if the young woman with