The gym was busy. He looked for Emma. She wasn’t there. He worked out for almost an hour. He was ready to go home when Pope barred his way, a grin on his face and his enormous eyes staring.
“Glad to see you, Casey. Come and meet Harry Fuerbach.” He pushed Casey lightly by the elbow, steering him over to a bearded forty-year-old who was wiping sweat from his face with a scrap of towel. “Harry, this is Casey. Writes for the West End Clarion. You must’ve read his stuff.”
Fuerbach stuck out his hand. “Sure have. Sebastian Casey, right? Are you writing an expose of the fitness center?”
Fuerbach had a high, fluting voice and an iron grip. His beard was small, neat and starting to gray.
“No,” said Casey. “Just trying to work on this spare tire of mine.”
Fuerbach laughed. “Aren’t we all?”
Casey stared. Fuerbach’s belly was flat.
Pope said, “Harry’s a psychiatrist. We were talking about the West End killer. Harry thinks he was probably abused or neglected as a child.”
“Or it could simply be an insecure home life,” said Fuerbach. “The dad leaving, something like that.”
“Lots of dads leave,” said Casey, “but their kids don’t turn into killers.”
“Right. But killers like this one generally have additional, psychological, motives for their crimes. Sado-sexual overtones. And they also exhibit strong compulsive behaviors.”
Pope laughed. “Would you call my behavior compulsive, working out in this place, same time every day for the past fifteen years?”
Fuerbach smiled. “Would you call it compulsive, Pope?”
Pope said, “They’re all the same, these shrinks-always answer a question with a question.” He turned to a young woman who was passing behind him. “Lucy, meet Sebastian Casey, reporter with the West End Clarion.” He turned back to Casey. “Lucy runs the aerobics classes here at the center.”
“Hi, Sebastian,” said Lucy with a friendly smile.
“Casey,” said Casey.
Fuerbach moved off.
Lucy looked to be in her early twenties, with brown hair streaked with blond highlights and tied back in a ponytail. Brown eyes. Tight young figure in black Lycra.
“You’re welcome to sign up for any of my classes, Casey,” she said, smiling as she moved away. “Times are posted downstairs.”
“Pretty girl,” said Pope, watching her go. “Wish I were forty years younger.” He laughed. “You married, Casey?”
“Nope. You?”
Pope grinned, and his wet eyes flashed like jellyfish behind the heavy spectacles.
“Never got around to it. Bachelor all m’life.” He paused. “So far, that is.” He laughed again and moved away to load weights onto a barbell.
Shaughnessy was a no-show. Casey felt a sharp disappointment. He stood, wiping his neck with his towel. He could hear Fuerbach asking Doc about the difficulty of cutting off a woman’s head. Casey missed the surgeon’s answer when their voices were drowned out by the loud music and the noise of clanging weights.
He walked home in the rain.
On Wednesday it rained all day. In the evening Casey slogged home through the downpour, waited for the elevator, changed his mind and climbed up the stairs to his apartment. He hung up his raincoat to dry in the bathroom. Then he changed into his sweats. Before he could get too comfortable and change his mind, he set off into the rain again, heading for the gym.
He was beginning to recognize many of the faces. Regulars. He said hello to those he knew but avoided talk by making straight for the crowded free-weights area, where everyone grunted and sweated. Where there was no time or space for idle chatterers.
He worked out for an hour.
Emma Shaughnessy did not appear.
He walked home in the rain.
On Thursday morning, Matty Kayle decided to boil herself an egg for breakfast.
She hadn’t had one all week, not since last Thursday, when she’d read of the murdered woman in the paper and Albert had been sarcastic with her as usual. And she had wondered what life would be like without him.
A skunk had been poking about in the backyard during the night. She quite liked the smell, in small amounts, for it evoked pleasant memories of her childhood in this place. There were many skunks about then. Raccoons too. And coyotes hunting for voles and squirrels.
It would be so nice if she had a small dog.
Albert was having his usual bowl of cereal more or less silently behind his Globe and Mail. Perhaps he would like an egg too.
She hadn’t cooked breakfast for him for- well, she couldn’t remember the last time he’d had anything other than cereal.
“Would you like a dog?”
She hadn’t meant to say dog. She had meant to say boiled egg, not dog.
He lowered his paper and looked at her as though she was mad. “What did you say?”
Matty blushed. “I meant to say boiled egg. Would you like a boiled egg?”
“You know I don’t eat boiled eggs. Nor boiled dogs either.” He shook his paper and glared at her.
She carried her egg and toast to the table and sat down. She couldn’t see Albert because of the paper. Afghanistan on the front page. It was in the papers all the time. Iraq too. She could never remember the difference between the two countries. Mrs. Prendergast, who now lived in a low-rise on Chilco but used to live next door in the high-rise building, and with whom she sometimes chatted if they ran into each other shopping at the SuperValu, said that one country was as bad as the other. She had no sympathy for either of them, she said. They were all a bunch of terrorists. Matty was sure Mrs. Prendergast must be right, for she had spent two years at university.
“What’s the latest news from Ghanistan?” she said brightly to the newspaper wall in front of her.
Albert lowered the paper and stared at her.
She smiled wanly at her husband’s face, already sorry that she’d opened her mouth. Knowing she’d said something wrong. But the drive for some human contact, no matter how minimal, was so often her undoing.
His pink wet lips pursed disapprovingly. “Ghanistan? Do you mean Afghanistan?”
“What did I say?”
“Ghanistan. You said Ghanistan.”
“Same thing.”
Albert’s upper lip curled in contempt before his face disappeared behind the paper.
A wave of dizziness came over her. She wanted to kill him. Her heart missed a beat. The spoon fell from her fingers and clattered to the floor.
The dizziness passed, and suddenly it all seemed so simple. She would kill him.
That was it.
She would kill Albert.
Later, at ten, she slipped into her warm blue wool sweater and navy coat and set off briskly for the library with her Harlequins in her shopping bag. The rain was holding off, but not for long, she thought. She eyed the heavy black clouds massing over the mountains. Unless she was prepared to work in the rain, she would have to put the dahlias off for another day.
She returned her Harlequins to the library and, after much searching, checked out only one book: The Oxford Book of Poisons.
