might go wrong even now. She took his hand and stepped down onto the cobbles, and glanced toward the waterfront.
It was like any other day, and yet it was entirely different. Even the people seemed to be waiting, drawn together as was so often the way in seaports. A rumour, a message, a signal-gun, or a ship in distress. The people of Falmouth had seen it all before.
She adjusted her long green cloak, and the fastening at the throat. She had dressed carefully, taken her time, even though every fibre of her body had screamed at her to leave the house without delay. It still did not seem possible that Richard was coming, that he was probably within a mile of Falmouth at this moment.
She could recall the exact time when the letter had been brought by fast courier from Bethune at the Admiralty. She had already received one from Richard; it had touched on the battle, but he had avoided mentioning the many who had died. Bethune had told her that Indomitable was ordered to Plymouth, to be handed over to the care of carpenters and riggers there, eventually. But she was to be paid off upon arrival. A battered ship with her own memories and wounds, and like many of her company, she would wait now, and see if she was needed again.
The church clock at King Charles the Martyr chimed very slowly. Noon. She had been deeply suspicious of Bethune’s written suggestion that she await Richard’s return in Falmouth, and briefly she had conjured up old or unknown enemies who, even at this last precious opportunity, would attempt to reunite Richard with his wife under some pretext or other.
When she had composed herself and considered it, dismissing her fears, she knew the real reason. Indomitable was to be paid off in Plymouth, and Richard would be saying farewell to so many familiar faces. Others had already left, like shadows, carrying
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memories she could only imagine. He did not want her to see the ship now, but to remember her as she had been when she had climbed aboard, and they had cheered her for it, and Richard’s flag had broken out above all of them.
He was alive; he was coming home. It was all that mattered. She had sensed that there were other matters, which Bethune had left unwritten. I am ready.
To Ferguson she said, “I shall be all right. I shall know you are here.” She brushed a strand of dark hair from her eyes, and looked up at Young Matthew on his box, framed against the cold, pale sky. “Both of you.”
There would be others here today. Unis, waiting for John Allday, although she had not yet seen her: this was a private moment for all who shared it. Perhaps it symbolized, more than anything, the elusive dream of peace, after so many years of sacrifice and separation. Bethune had said that the war was almost over. The allies had scored another crushing victory over Napoleon at Laon, and Wellington had captured Bordeaux: there was even talk of disbanding the local militia, the sea fencibles too. She thought with regret and affection of Lewis Roxby; how proud he would have been on this day. Nancy had visited her often: a sailor’s daughter as well as Richard’s sister, she was a great comfort to Catherine. And without Roxby’s presence filling every room at that great, empty house, it had helped her also. But she would stay away today. She understood, better than most.
She walked on, towards the moored vessels in the harbour, the swaying masts and spars which were now so familiar to her. The smells, too, were a far cry from the slums of her childhood, or the elegant London she had shared with Richard. Fresh bread and fish, tar and oakum, and the salt of the ever-present sea.
She saw people glance at her, some with curiosity, some familiarity, but without hostility. She would always be a stranger here, but never an intruder, and she was grateful for that.
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She saw one of the coastguards with his companion, the same pair who had been on the beach as the tide had receded, and she had taken Zenoria’s slight, broken body in her arms.
He nodded and removed his hat to her. “Fine day, m’lady.”
“I hope so, Tom.”
She walked on, until she stood on the very edge of the jetty. And the war in North America? It took second place to most of these people, for whom France had been the enemy for so long. Too long.
Samuel Whitbread, the wealthy and influential brewer, had thundered out in the House of Commons that the war with America should be ended without delay. He had reminded the honourable members of that other occasion when peace had been grudgingly signed after the War of Independence, and Pitt had then remarked, A defensive war can only end in inevitable defeat.
She lifted her chin. So be it, then.
She heard laughter and noisy voices, and turned to see a group of discharged sailors loitering, watching the harbour. The ones she had heard Allday scornfully denounce as old Jacks who refought their battles every day in the inns and ale-houses, until the parlour lanterns were swinging like those of a ship in Biscay.
But they belonged here today: they were members of what Richard would call the family. One or two of them waved in acknowledgement, privileged to be part of his homecoming. She turned away. There was not one whole man amongst them.
Someone exclaimed, “There she be, lads!”
Catherine looked across the water, her face like ice in the wind off Falmouth Bay and here in Carrick Roads.
The coastguard said, “’Tis the Pickle. Quite right an’ proper.”
For my benefit?
She watched the little schooner moving between some moored lighters, distinguished from her merchant sisters only by a large, new White Ensign streaming from her peak.
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HM Schooner Pickle. Right and proper. Her eyes pricked with sudden emotion, but she was determined to miss nothing. Pickle was a fairly regular visitor here, as she was at every port and naval station between Plymouth and Spithead. Carrying despatches and mail, and sometimes passengers, to the port admirals, or to the ships resting from their arduous blockade duties, sheltering in Torbay and protected from the gales by Berry Head.
But here, Pickle would always be remembered for her part in a single, greater event. She had run into Falmouth, and from here her commander, Lieutenant John Lapenotiere, had taken a post-chaise non-stop to the Admiralty, a journey of some 37 hours. And all the way the cry had gone with him, of England ’s greatest victory at Trafalgar, to raise the heart of the nation. And to numb it just as quickly, with the news that Nelson, the people’s hero, was dead.
She wondered if Richard had made any comparison, but knew he would not. His memories would be with James Tyacke and the others.
She touched her throat. And his hopes with me.
She saw the sails being brought under control, heaving lines snaking ashore to seamen and onlookers alike. Pickle had come alongside, her ensign very clear against the grey stones. Lieutenant Avery and Yovell would come by road with Richard’s possessions… She was filling her mind with irrelevant thoughts to control her emotion.
The chair, the wine cooler which she had had made when the other had been lost with his ship. If it had survived the last action… She walked to the end of the jetty, unfastening her cloak so that he should see her, and his fan-shaped pendant resting at her breast.
She saw the blue and white of uniforms, heard people on the jetty raising a cheer, not merely for the hero, but for Falmouth ’s own son.
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The baker’s wife was here with her small daughter, the child looking pleased but rather puzzled by the bunch of
