He stared at the river again, remembering the night when he had burst into her house in Chelsea. It was rarely out of his thoughts, like a curse or a fever from which there was no escape.
He had been surprised at his own behaviour on board the Indiaman Saladin. that he had been able to see her and greet her as if they were total strangers. Which we are. Sometimes he had confined himself to his quarters in order not to meet her. in case she should think he had forced the encounter. But when they had met, and supped alone, there had been a new awareness, something he had never known.
He had not greeted her when she had rejoined the ship on the return from Naples, but had found her on deck, hours after Saladin had worked out of Grand Harbour and had suddenly been totally becalmed, the island still in sight, like copper in the sunset.
She had repeated, 'I am all right, I am all right,' and for a moment longer Sillitoe had believed she had heard him approaching, and had wanted to be left alone.
Then she had turned towards him, and he had realised that she had not known he was there.
'I am sorry. I shall take my leave.'
She had shaken her head. 'No. Please stay. It is hard enough to leave him. To be tortured like this is cruel beyond measure!'
He had heard himself say, 'When I reach London, I will do what I can.' Even that had astonished him, to offer to seek on her behalf a favour which, if granted, would deprive him of any chance he might have believed he had.
He smiled grimly. Nevertheless, Vice-Admiral Sir Graham Bethune would be leaving for the Mediterranean in a matter of days, to take charge of a squadron of frigates which could be used against pirate or corsair. A sea-going appointment; there would be no accommodation for Lady Bethune.
He had seen the orders himself. They would release Sir Richard Bolitho from duty, and he could return to England. To Catherine.
He had also been kept informed of Captain Adam Bolitho's affairs. Why anyone should want to throw his life away on the sea was quite beyond him. Ships, to him, meant only trade, communication, and a means of travel. And even that… He glanced round angrily, but it was Marlow, his secretary, this time. 'Yes, what is it?'
'Some letters, my lord.' Marlow's cautious eyes took in the unread news sheets on the floor beside the desk, the coffee and the glass of madeira untouched. They were inauspicious signs, and, with Sillitoe, almost unknown.
Sillitoe shook his head dismissively.
'I'll attend to them later. Make my excuses, Marlow. I shall go now to the Prince Regent.'
'I have all the necessary papers, my lord.' He broke off. Sillitoe had not even heard him.
'After that, I shall be engaged.' Their eyes met. 'Understood?'
Marlow did understand. He was going to that house, so discreet, so private. Where a man of influence could lose himself completely in the arms of a woman, without fear of scandal or condemnation. He had become used to Sillitoe's difficult ways and scathing comments, but it troubled him to see him so disturbed, like some ordinary being.
To his knowledge, Sillitoe had not visited the brothel since the incident in Chelsea. Sillitoe allowed his valet to help him into his coat, and stared around the room as if he had mislaid something.
Then he said, 'There is one letter, Marlow, for Lady Somervell in Falmouth. Please send it post-haste. She will want to know.'
He could already see it in his mind, the tears and the joy with which she would receive the news that her lover had been ordered home. He could deceive himself no longer. He heard the carriage on the cobbles and strode from the room. Like a duel, when you have fired and your opponent is still standing. He had lost.
His Britannic Majesty's schooner Tireless, messenger, courier and bearer of news, good or bad, lived up to her name. Rarely in port for longer than required for storing and watering, she would be off again with all haste to her next rendezvous.
She was a smart, lively little vessel, a young man's command. On this February morning the lookout had reported sighting the flagship Frobisher, and, taking full advantage of a soldier's wind under her coat-tails, she had set more sail to run down on the slow-moving two-decker. Lieutenant Harry Penrose, the schooner's captain, was well aware of the significance of his despatches, and very concerned that he should make a perfect approach to the flag of one so famous; it was a name with which he had been acquainted even before he had entered the navy.
Penrose would have been astonished had he known that the admiral had been watching Tireless since first light with equal anxiety.
In Frobisher'-, great cabin, the man in question listened to the bark of orders and the tramp of hardened, bare feet, as the flagship altered course slightly to meet the schooner and afford her some protection, although the sea was little more than a gentle swell. He clenched his fists. Weeks of it, of lack of news, of uncertainty, and of this sense of no purpose. There had been some activity when Barbary corsairs had attacked other small and defenceless vessels, but they had fled before any of Bolitho's thinly-stretched squadron could find and destroy them. And until more ships were released from the Channel Fleet and the Downs squadrons, it seemed unlikely that matters would improve.
Tireless might bring something. He tried not to hope for it. Perhaps a letter from Catherine… So many times, he had recalled every detail of their reunion, the ache of parting after the big Indiaman Saladin had returned from Naples, in what must have been record time. He had thought of it again when Tyacke had come to report the sighting of Tireless, remembering with anguish how the Indiaman's pyramid of canvas, gold in the sunset, had remained becalmed outside the harbour as if to taunt him. He had watched the ship until darkness had hidden her. And he had known, even before her letter from England, that she had done the same. She had written to him about Adam, and the confirmation of his new command. Of the dazed reaction to the combined attack on Washington, and the burning of government buildings in retaliation for the American attack on York. As Tyacke had once said, and for what? He had watched Tyacke while he had trained a glass on the approaching schooner. Remembering his own first command, perhaps, or the powers of fate which had brought them so close together, as his friend and flag captain? And Avery. He would remember his own service in the schooner Jolie, which had ended in disaster and court martial. The tawny eyes gave little away; he might even have been thinking of the letter for which he waited. The letter that never came.
The strain of weeks at sea without activity was telling on Frobisher's people. Ships and men being paid off: a sailor's dream rather than a safe reality, but it gave rise to flarings of temper and outbreaks of violence, even in a well- disciplined company. He could hear Gilpin the boatswain, bawling out to some of his working party. A grating was to be rigged immediately after the despatches had been passed across, and Frobishefs own mail sent into Tireless in exchange. It was anyone's guess when those letters would reach their destinations.
He knew Tyacke hated the ritual of punishment, as much as he did himself. But he, more than most, knew the dangers of sailing alone when the ringing phrases of the Articles of War were not always enough. The Royal Marines of the after guard and the lash, were the only known alternative.
Yovell stood by the other door, his spectacles on his forehead.
'Everything has been signed and sealed, Sir Richard. I've had the satchel sent on deck.' Unruffled, unchanged, and yet the one man he might have expected to remain a misfit. Amused, gentle, devout: they were not qualities common in a man-of-war.
Allday was there, too. Pretending to examine the two swords on their rack, but obviously fretting more than ever about the possibility of a letter from that other, quiet world of the Helford River. Avery would read it to him as usual, if it arrived; theirs was an odd and a warm relationship, upon which neither of them ever remarked. Avery would be thinking of the fair Susanna. In vain… And Sillitoe, the one man he had never expected to become involved on his behalf. He could hear Catherine's voice in the darkness, remember her warm breath on his shoulder, while she had spoken of that night in Chelsea. distancing herself from it. more like an impartial witness than one who had been face to face with terror. He had wanted to feel doubt, suspicion, even hatred. But Sillitoe remained as before, remote, even in the desire he so obviously felt for Catherine.
And all the while I remain here in the Mediterranean, waiting. Probably with no less intolerance than the seaman who would be flogged at six bells of the forenoon watch.
Avery entered by the screen door and removed his hat.
'Tireless is shortening sail, Sir Richard.' He glanced briefly at Allday. 'She has signalled that her captain is
