The Nightmare Garden

I blinked at her, my rage and dread replacing itself with confusion. “Didn’t know what?”

“That it was you,” she said. “You are Aoife Grayson? The destroyer? The one who made the big blow?”

I was speechless for a moment, then answered hesitantly. “I’m Aoife, yes. But the Engine …” I stopped myself, unsure what to say next. “This isn’t important. Are you going to let us go?” I shouldn’t have been shocked that my name was known on the other side of the Erebus River. The Wytch King had said Draven was painting me as a radical, a heretic terrorist responsible for the senseless destruction of Lovecraft. What was more shocking about the girl’s words was that she seemed happy about what I’d done, the wreckage and the ruin. What was wrong with these people?

“Anything you say, Destroyer,” the woman murmured, bobbing her head. She was only a few years older than me, I could see now, but her face was streaked with grease and painted up with blue woad.

“Don’t call me that,” I said. The shakes were starting, and the familiar light-headedness of my nosebleeds. The iron was creeping in, inexorably, and fraying my emotions. “Don’t you ever call me that again.” Such a hateful name, said with such reverence. I was no better than the Crimson Guard and their aether bombs. Destroyer wasn’t a name that would ever pass my lips without making me cringe.

“But you saved us,” the girl insisted. “You freed us from the Proctors and you rained down destruction on their world.” She stretched out her arms to point to the world around her. “You saved all of us. The ones ground under the heel of the Proctors,” she said, and the other scavengers murmured assent.

“I didn’t do a damn thing,” I snarled at the girl, knocking her hands away from me, “except do what I thought was right.” Her reverence just reminded me all over again of my mistake, how I’d let myself be manipulated by Tremaine. I wasn’t a hero. I wasn’t even clever, I was gullible.

“You’ll have no more trouble from us,” the girl promised. Then she tried a different approach, sticking her hand straight out to shake, like an eager schoolboy. “I’m Casey.”

“Apparently you already know who I am,” I said, and sniffed, not interested in making friends with someone who’d been ready to stick a blade in me not five minutes before.

“We all do,” Casey reiterated. “You’re a hero.”

“How’s the bridge?” Dean cut in before I could open my mouth and start screaming incoherently at the word hero. “We need to make tracks into Lovecraft.”

“You don’t wanna do that,” Casey told him. “The Proctors got the bridge locked down tight. And in the city, well …” She shivered, her braids clanking again.

“You’ve been getting in all right,” I pointed out. “You have Academy and Proctor gear. I seriously doubt you carted all that with you while you were running for your lives.”

Casey reddened a little, her freckles standing out against her pink cheeks. “I guess there’s one or two of us who make the run, yeah. Mr. Angel tells us what he needs and we go in after dark. Nephilheim is stripped bare— those people evacuated. They were the smart ones.”

“Is Angel the cracked nut with the automaton?” Conrad said, pointing to where the hunched old man sulked at the back of the crowd.

Casey nodded. “He was a street heretic—he preached down in the Rustworks. When the big blow happened, he said it was a sign. That we were to go and form a new city on the ashes of the old.”

“A new city based on raiding and pillaging? History is on your side, for sure,” I said. Casey raised her skinny shoulders, missing my sarcasm.

“He’s kinda cracked, but I don’t have anywhere else to go. My parents were transported as heretics and my trade was smuggling. Nothing to smuggle now, is there?”

I sighed. Much as I wanted to dislike her, I couldn’t. She was skinny and starving and pathetic, more like a kitten nipping at your ankles than a junkyard dog. “Yeah, I get not having anywhere else to go,” I told her.

“If you need supplies, you can show us how you get in and out of the city,” Dean said to her. “We can pay you.”

I gave Dean a hard look when he mentioned payment, and he shook his head minutely at me, which I took to mean he must have something the girl wanted that wasn’t cold, hard cash. Because cash was in very short supply among our trio.

“You really want to go?” Casey directed her question to me rather than Dean.

I nodded. “My mother is in there. I need to get to Christobel Asylum, near Old Town.” If I could just get there, then at least I’d know. Know if she’d survived, or if I’d really done the worst thing a daughter can do, even worse than leaving the city without her.

Casey instantly made a negative gesture. “If your mum was in Old Town, she’s gone. That place was the first to go full-on chum bucket. Ghouls up to your ears, and worse. You could hear the screaming for days.”

“I have to go,” I insisted, although there was a roaring in my ears. Madhouses are fortresses, I reminded myself. They weren’t connected to sewers, were surrounded by thick granite walls topped with razor wire. Christobel was the most secure of them all, the place for dangerous lunatics, said to be escape proof. What kept the infected and the heretical inside could keep ghouls out. Maybe. The alternative I couldn’t handle thinking about without curling up into a useless ball.

“I have to go,” I repeated. “I left her there.”

Casey sighed and fidgeted. She looked back at the rest of the mob; they had put out the automaton fire and were scavenging usable parts off it like a particularly efficient swarm of fire ants. Angel stood to one side, his hair singed away, muttering invective that was no doubt directed at me.

“Well?” I said, folding my arms and hoping my bluff of heroic toughness passed muster. “If I’m such a hero, you should trust that I know what I’m doing.”

“Of course you do,” Casey said. “It’s just … you ain’t scared? Of what’s over there?”

“Not a bit,” I lied, crisply and without pause.

I was becoming a good liar. I realized that without any surprise, just like you notice that your hair has gotten longer and that your clothes are hanging off you because of the miles of walking and only intermittent food.

Of course I was scared. I never wanted to go back to the city. I didn’t want to see the dour spires and the cold gray edifice of Ravenhouse ever again. I didn’t want to see the crater the destruction of the Engine had left, or the wreckage of the places I’d once walked through with my school bag slung over my shoulder and, relatively speaking, not a care in the world.

I was scared. I was more scared than I’d ever been. But I was learning to hide it, to become as smooth and facile as any of the Fae I’d encountered.

And that scared me most of all.

7 The Lair of Monsters

CASEY CARRIED A pack from the Lovecraft Academy, the kind issued to boys, with two shoulder straps. She gestured to it proudly. “Those little Uptown brats cut and ran like nobody’s business. Left a treasure trove behind.”

Those “brats” had been my fellow students. I hadn’t called any of them my friends, but the thought of them meeting a fate normally reserved for the worst of criminals turned my stomach a bit.

“So what’s the plan, Casey?” Dean asked her as she tromped ahead of us, red hair swinging almost gaily.

“The Boundary Bridge is the only way in or out, but the Proctors have set up quarantine checkpoints. Regular boat patrols too. We gotta cross under the span, and we gotta do it fast, before they spot us.”

“What do people know?” I blurted. “About the Engine, and the city? What have the Proctors been saying?”

“That you acted alone,” Casey said. “That you’re some kind of radical. Your picture went in all the papers. Reporters came from New Amsterdam to poke around the foundry, with cameras and such. Proctors are claiming the big blow was your fault, and there was a huge ceremony when they made that fink Draven director of the Bureau.” Her brows drew together. “They ain’t said much about what came out of the ground afterward. That’d mess with their big old lie of a story.”