'Damme, you don't think small when you take the effort.' Lilycrop laughed, then sobered. 'But, one thing I've learned in this Navy in my time is, most people wouldn't stir their arses up if you set fire to 'em, Lewrie. They're happier layin' back, lettin' somebody else make the decisions. It's too much of a risk. It'd expose Jamaica again, an' this time, the Frogs an' the Dons might succeed in takin' it. The watchword is, 'when in doubt, don't.' Good for careers, but hell on the country. Been guilty of it meself at times, God help me. No, this time we'd best let our superiors make the decisions. They don't look kindly on lieutenants givin' em advice.'
'Bad for the career, sir,' Alan said evenly.
'There you are,' Lilycrop agreed. 'I'd forget about writin' any letters, if I were you. 'Sides, the war's so close to over, it wouldn't make much difference anyway. Now, why don't you see to as much as you feel up to, so we can sail tomorrow. Let Mister Caldwell help you. Him an' Midshipman Rossyngton can do your leg-work for you. Do the lad good to get a little authority. Park yourself in a comfortable chair on the quarterdeck, if you're of a mind.'
'Aye, sir, I shall,' Alan relented, half of a mind to write his letter anyway. He groped to his feet, got his crutch going, and went to the chart-space, where Cony had begun to lay out his kit and his chest. A small fixed bed-box had been cobbled together and fitted to the partition aft of the chart-table, much like a settee. Athwartship as it was, it would be more comfortable to sleep in, and it was high enough to allow him easy entry and exit, even with his game leg, if the seas got up once they were on-station.
'What career do I have to worry about preserving, anyway?' he muttered to himself once he was ensconced on the mattress, sitting so he could draw out a large-scale chart and study the Caribbean area. 'Maybe I should write that letter after all. Not that it'd do much good, I suppose.'
Alan thought that even if he did write it, and Hood was receptive, perhaps Pigot would turn out to be chary, or Rowley would be too cautious. It would take weeks to draw a consensus locally, and then they would most likely wish to send off to London for directions, and that would take months more. To act and fail on their own would hurt their careers. No one back home in the Shelburne government would care to strand a British army in the marshes where they would die like flies to alien fevers and agues, not this close to the end of the war, while they were negotiating a peace. It would risk Jamaica, or Antigua.
Yet what was war but a series of calculated risks? It was not an exact science, subject to mathematics, so that odds could be drawn from tables. It was an art, he had been told. How often had he seen success or failure balance on the fine-honed edge of a sword? And how many officers would see only hazard and fail to dare, while some other fire-brand would see slight advantage, and would go forth to sow confusion to England's foes.
What forces formed a Hawke, a Rodney, a general like Clive, he wondered? There was no chap-book like Clerk's little book of tactics to guide a run-of-the-mill officer, to turn him into the sort who could achieve a magnificent victory. Most came aboard as cabin-servants at eight years old, or at twelve as midshipmen, blessed with only rudiments of decent educations, and all they learned from school-masters and mates was how to curse, tie knots, drink, and be practical seamen. No one tried to teach them to
He was free of that, thank God. Between his prize-money, his hoard of gold, his grandmother's bequest and his later inheritance, he did not have to depend on the Navy to put food on his table, if he was careful with his money. How much worse an officer would he make than most of the ones he had met, who could only stump about a deck screaming 'Luff!' He was from a deeper well of knowledge, and he could think, when he was forced to. Did he really have more promise than most? And was the Navy a place to shine, because of that?
God help me, I think I shall, Alan decided. I'll write that letter, and the devil with the consequences. If the Navy won't have me after that, then that's their loss, isn't it? I'll have said my piece.
Fate, however, did not allow the letter to be delivered.
But, while they had good weather, a storm had blown Admiral Hood off-station at Cape Francois, and with a gust-front of wind and gloomy skies from the east, the fleet was blown down onto them the first week of February, on its way to Port Royal. All
Once past the fleet,
Alan finally discarded his crutch. Though the wound still pained him, he could make his way about the decks with more ease. He had to admit that the wood and canvas deck chair was comfortable, an admirable invention that should be standard equipment for the aspiring (but lazy) Sea Officer such as he. He was close to the wheel and the quartermasters, could see the work at the guns or the gangways, and could 'stand' his watches in sublime ease for once. And noon sights could be performed just as well from a sitting position as they could be standing by the sunward rail and gritting his teeth with each pitch and heave of the deck.
When called to walk forward, or do his tours below decks, he could wince manfully, with Edgar or Rossyngton or Cony to aid him, and limp about, searching for a convenient handhold for which he could lunge the last few feet and utter a loud whoosh of relief from the titanic effort of performing his duties.
Secretly, the wound was no longer
He had finished his morning watch and had turned the deck over to Caldwell and Rossyngton, but lingered in his deck chair with a mug of sweet tea, half-dozing with the 'injured' limb stuck out stiffly in front of him. His chin rested on his breast and his cocked hat was far forward over his forehead to counter the early morning sun on this their third week of patrolling several leagues to seaward of Monte Cristi off the coast of Hispaniola. He took a sip of tea, then wrote up his lieutenant's journal. He had gotten past the usual bumf: 'Fri., Mar 7th, 1783: Winds NW, Course NNE, Lat. 20.05N, bearing at dawn Isabella Pt. Monte Cristi SE by E off shore 5-6 leagues. Fresh breezes Cloudy,' and was wondering what else he should write down (and attempting to stifle a rather huge yawn) when the lookout interrupted him.
'Sail ho! Deck thar! Three sail, four points awrf't' starb'd bow!'
That brought him up with a start, almost making him spill his tea and the inkwell all over his journal. There was nothing to their suth'ard, or the east but French or Spanish vessels. Little
'Mister Rossyngton, go aft an' inform the captain,' Caldwell directed. 'You hear, Mister Lewrie, sir?'
'Aye, thankee, Mister Caldwell,' Alan said, forgetting how 'lame' he was supposed to act as he levered himself out of his chair and got to his feet to hobble (only slightly) to the bulwarks. 'I have the deck now, Mister Caldwell.'
'Deck thar!' the lookout called again. 'Four… no, five sail to starb'd, now! 'Ard on t'wind onna starb'd tack!'
'On passage for the Bahamas, perhaps,' Alan said as Caldwell joined him at the rail. With his telescope, Alan could just barely make out three tiny slivers of whitish-tan that could have been clouds on the horizon. The lookouts aloft would have a better view, at least one hundred feet higher above the decks.
'One sail's 'auled 'is wind, sir!'
'Falling down on us, sir,' Caldwell said primly, sounding more annoyed than anything else. 'To smoke us.'
'I have the deck, sirs,' Lilycrop said as he emerged from his quarters and strode to join them. 'Hands to Quarters, put out the galley fires, an' stand ready to rig out stuns'ls an' haul our own wind to loo'ard.'
'Bosun, beat to Quarters!' Alan shouted with the aid of his brass speaking trumpet.
'Mister Lewrie, sir, once Mister Cox's ready with his batteries, I'd admire we ease her a point free more northerly,' Lilycrop ordered.