Behr believed them. He had an inestimably larger amount of work in front of him now. Nonetheless, he felt relief. Later, when he got home, he ’ d go on the Internet and comb through financial databases. He ’ d check the family ’ s assets and TRWs to make sure there were no irregularities, no large withdrawals indicating a gambling or drug problem that could ’ ve provoked a hideous crime.
“If it ’ s all right, I ’ ll look at his room,” he said.
They all stood.
Behr entered the room and paused before turning on the light. Paul and Carol were positioned down the hallway several yards back, afraid to come any closer. Behr slid his hand along the wall and clicked on the light. What he saw hit him low in the gut. He kept his hand against the wall, steadying himself for a long moment. The room belonged to a well-cared-for American boy. A single bed covered by an NFL comforter was built into a tan Formica headboard and nightstand. There were wrapped gifts on the bed, birthday and Christmas presents for a son who wasn ’ t around to collect them. Two posters dominated the room: Albert Pujols turning on a ball and a red Ferrari F430 Spider. Both were matted on posterboard. A ten-by-twelve photo of a large African American bicycle racer had been torn from a magazine and tacked to the wall near the bed. A basic Compaq desktop computer sat idle on a small desk in a litter of school notebooks. They were next to a large cup from Pizza Pizzazz filled with coins and an old Reggie Miller bobble-head doll. Several Harry Potter books rested on bookshelves next to fairly neatly glued-together plastic model F-15s and battleships.
He turned and opened the closet, pulling a string that switched a light on inside. Jeans hung on hangers next to button-down shirts and several jackets of different weights. A small dark suit was all the way to the left. Along the floor were basketball sneakers, soccer cleats, scuffed penny loafers, Teva sandals, and a pair of winter boots. Behr pulled the light cord and swung the closet shut. He turned to a small dresser, forcing himself to go on. The dresser held T-shirts, socks, underwear. The bottom drawer housed folded dress shirts and two neckties. Beneath them, secreted, was a folded magazine photo of a full-breasted young blond singer wearing a brassiere top and a microphone that fit over her head like an air-traffic controller ’ s mouthpiece. She was covered in sweat and projected sex, youth, and innocence. There were also three packs of Black Cat firecrackers, but no scribbled notes or other information.
Some light dust was under the bed, Behr saw, his mini Maglite slowly sweeping over it as if it were a lunar surface. There was a small boom box and some pop CDs. Eminem, Green Day, Korn, a strange three-course meal. Between the mattress and box spring he discovered a treasure, a Cal Ripken baseball card from his rookie season tucked inside a plastic sleeve. Finding nothing else, he tried to smooth out the bedding the way it had been.
Behr sat on the small desk chair, testing its strength, and flipped quickly through the schoolbooks on the desk. The notebooks were marked “Return to Jamie Gabriel — Room 102, Johnny Fricking Kennedy Middle School.” Behr pulled at his chin and looked through them. School exercises, personal notes, top-ten lists organizing and reorganizing the best professional athletes in each of their sports and combining them across sports. Kobe Bryant dueled with Dwayne Wade and Derek Jeter; Behr half smiled at Peyton Manning being crossed out two times and moved right to the top, and at what was written in for tenth place: “Tiger Wood.” There was nothing to indicate the boy had met anybody new or had plans to meet someone at the time of his disappearance.
He turned on the computer and searched through documents, which were school papers on plankton, Paul Revere, and the like. He checked the scrap of paper that the parents had given him and signed on to America Online to review Jamie ’ s account. He found nothing beyond kidlike screen names in the boy ’ s e-mail address book. His favorite places list was made up of movie, music, sports, and car sites. Behr didn ’ t find any links to strange, or borderline, Web sites. Besides spam, there were no e-mails new, old, or to be sent, as they had been automatically deleted by the server long ago after so much inactivity. He made a note to himself to try to get access to the service provider archives. Behr signed off, shut down the computer, and sat back. He rubbed his face with his hand and stood.
Carol and Paul still waited in the hall. They ’ d been standing there, frozen, for the whole forty minutes Behr had been in the boy ’ s room. As he walked out, they looked up at him, childlike in their anticipation. Behr shook his head and wrote a note in his notebook. They stood uncomfortably for a moment in the close quarters of the hallway.
“Mr. Behr…Frank…” Carol finally said, her voice low but direct in the tortured air of the hall. “I want to explain how we felt…how we feel about our son. How we love him…” Time and her pain couldn ’ t completely hide her prettiness, Behr noticed, and when she stopped, unable to go on, he felt the urge to help her.
“No need, ma ’ am,” he began, his voice low and rough. He went on despite himself. “I understand a bit of what you ’ re going through, having lost a son of my own. He died when he was seven.”
EIGHT
Behr climbed into his Toronado and turned it over. The engine woke up hoarse then leveled. He drove away from the Gabriel house, surprised at himself for mentioning Tim to this couple he ’ d only known for a few minutes, his employers. He hadn ’ t gone into detail when they pursued it, but still, he had brought him up. And now, in the car, he found himself thinking about the events leading up to Tim ’ s death, trying for the thousandth time to untangle the knot they ’ d become.
Behr crossed County Line and made a left toward Donohue ’ s, where he figured on a skirt steak and a Beck ’ s Dark while he reviewed his new case notes. He hoped the noise and bustle of the low-lit, maroon-boothed, old place would block the path of his memories and focus him on the new task at hand.
Behr arrived at Donohue ’ s, which was just catching fire for the night, barely a step ahead of his recollections of Linda screaming in the halls of the hospital, of the horror of the funeral home. The casket, closed due to the damage. The empty, helpless silence that followed the funeral, which had strangled his heart and slowly killed everything decent in his life. He slid into the last available booth, the vinyl crunching quietly beneath him.
Arch Currey nodded over his white mustache from behind the bar. Behr waved back with a finger that sent Arch to the tap to draw the first Beck ’ s Dark. Behr had been a heavy drinker in the past and it had led to problems, especially around the time of Tim ’ s death, and he ’ d quit altogether for two years. He was a bit of an oddball now, an ex-abuser who could drink light when he wanted to. It was strange even to him, just another thing he couldn ’ t figure out about himself and the world.
Behr looked toward the corner booth that was Pal Murphy, the owner ’ s regular spot. He ’ d clocked Pal ’ s Lincoln out back and expected to see him there, thin as a rail, in a crisp white dress shirt and butter-soft leather jacket, tinted shades perched on his nose, hunched over a cup of coffee. But Pal must ’ ve been down in his office, as the booth was currently empty. Pal and Behr were something like friends. Pal ’ s age and bearing gave Behr a comfortable feeling, as if all problems and challenges were temporal, that one could ride it out, that time resolved all situations no matter how confusing. The bond had first been struck when Tim passed, and had deepened when things foundered between him and Linda.
Behr flipped open his notebook and began scanning his notes. The words blurred in front of his eyes for all their lack of information. He pulled out pictures of Jamie and studied them, noting the changes in the boy over time. He was a towhead when he was a toddler. Over the years his hair had darkened, but just a bit. Some freckling came up across the boy ’ s cheeks. His baby teeth fell out; his adult teeth gapped and finally filled in over the course of the photos. In the last shots Jamie seemed poised to grow like a reed. He was four foot ten and one hundred and five pounds at his disappearance.
“Family photos?” Kaitlin asked, placing his Beck ’ s Dark on a paper coaster. She stepped back and stood over him, order pad in hand. Behr slid the pictures under his notebook.
“Not exactly.”
“Regular A or B tonight, or do you want to hear specials?”
“Regular A,” Behr said, ordering his usual steak and baked. Regular B was his second-most usual meal — the broiled chicken and fries. “And keep these coming steady.” He raised the beer and knocked off half of it as Kaitlin walked toward the kitchen.
Donohue ’ s filled up around him. Behr glanced over to see Pal Murphy sliding into his regular spot. He used his hand to smooth the wispy rust-colored hair pasted across his scalp, then nodded to Behr. Pal was sitting with a younger man Behr didn ’ t know, which wasn ’ t a surprise. Ownership of the pub was only the beginning of Pal ’ s
