running. They ’ d deliver messages, administer beatings, find evidence, or make it go away. It was as much a part of American law enforcement as a flag patch sewn on a uniform sleeve. “You ’ re not a friend of the department. And that goes for your friends, too.”
Behr flashed on Jean Gannon with regret. “What ’ d Pomeroy do to her?” he wondered aloud.
“Nothing much. Just tore her a new one.”
“And he sent you here to tell me to stay away?”
Nye and Feeley looked across the room at each other. “He wants to know what you ’ re working on.” Behr noticed that neither of them had mentioned Pomeroy by name or rank. They didn ’ t blink at the sight of him holding a gun, either. They were well trained as far as Rottweilers went.
“I ’ m not working on anything. It was an old thing. Just wanted to check if you had an ID on your body.” Behr wasn ’ t in the business of helping other people do their jobs, and when it came to Pomeroy, the customer-service window was all the way closed.
“Uh-uh,” Nye said.
“No?” Behr asked, mildly surprised his answer wasn ’ t good enough.
“Forget the skelly at the park. We got a bouncer with his guts shot out, and we got you at the Golden Lady making said bouncer nervous a few hours before it happened.” Behr took the words like bad medicine. He looked over at Feeley, who just sat there nodding.
“What time was he shot?”
“ ’ Round near morning. Right in his apartment,” Nye said, before glancing back with some interest at something on the computer monitor.
The hairs raced up the back of Behr ’ s neck. It must have been right after he ’ d left. The shooter had probably waited and watched him go.
“So what are you working on, man?” Feeley wheezed from the chair.
Donkeys, Behr thought of his visitors and didn ’ t say a word.
“Come on, Frank, you must be working a case…unless you ’ ve gone perv on us.” Nye pointed to the monitor. Behr realized the cop had been checking the Web sites he ’ d been surfing.
“Don ’ t be a fucking idiot,” Behr barked. It had the effect of a slap to Nye ’ s face. The cop jerked the computer ’ s plug out of the power strip.
“You can get fifteen years for even visiting these sites. We can subpoena this and take it in.”
“I ’ ll get a lawyer. Illegal search. Breaking and entering. Stuff like that.”
“Still, you won ’ t see this for a long time,” Nye said of the computer.
Behr shrugged. He didn ’ t care. He hardly needed it now. Knowledge and dismay collided in his chest. While his progress must ’ ve been real, had struck a nerve, it was all gone now. His case had fallen apart. He was angry and in no mood for the pair currently in his living room.
“We ’ re waiting,” Nye tried again.
“You think I did the bouncer?”
“No. But our guy wants to know why you ’ re in it.”
“I ’ ve said all I ’ m gonna say.”
Feeley stood up from the chair and planted his feet wide. “We ’ re supposed to bring you down for a talk if you acted this way.”
Behr put his gun down on top of a bookshelf and dropped into a left-foot-forward stance. “Better get some more guys.”
NINETEEN
Paul left a client’s office on Jackson Place, having sold a three-hundred-fifty-thousand-dollar whole life policy, and walked toward South Street, where he ’ d parked. A small sea of people, mostly parents and grandparents, with their children and grandchildren, filled the streets. They moved toward the Fieldhouse on Pennsylvania, which was lined with an even larger crowd. Paul smelled the fecund odor of hay and animals and urine even before he reached the edge of the crowd and saw it. The circus was in town. He stood and watched the “Pachyderm Parade,” a line of elephants, trunk to tail, bearing female riders in red, white, and blue sequined leotards, as it moved up the street. Children in the crowd called out in enthusiastic greeting; the elephants trumpeted randomly in return. The sight stilled Paul. He ’ d brought Jamie here several years back. Not to the parade when the circus had just arrived, but to the show itself.
He was paralyzed by memory as the elephants ’ wrinkled brown-gray hulls trundled by. The circus had been a dubious proposition for him and Jamie. When Paul was a kid, he ’ d never liked them. There was something disturbing about the volume and commotion. He ’ d loved animals, but there was a frustrated, pathetic quality to the ones in the show. The drugged, impotent cats were sadder than anything else. Only the horses, white with flowing manes, which ran around the ring with riders standing on their backs, were really worth seeing. But he hadn ’ t wanted to project his prejudices on his son. Perhaps his boy would appreciate what millions of other kids did about the circus. So they had come, just the two of them, to the matinee show. Jamie, about five years old at the time, had held Paul ’ s hand and whipped his head about at the crowds and the barkers selling cotton candy, green glow-sticks, and souvenirs.
They ’ d found their seats and then it started. There was one mad portion, early on in the spectacle, when scores of clowns burst into the ring and began circulating up through the screaming, glow-stick-waving crowd. Many of the clowns carried tall, fake cakes in outstretched hands. Wild music played and the clowns staggered around, comically losing and regaining the balance of the cakes, much to the delight of the youngsters. One particular bald, white-faced, red-nosed fellow, in the classic plaid hobo ’ s outfit, came running down their row shaking hands with the kids. As he approached, Paul felt Jamie curling into him. All of the kids reached out for the white-gloved hand the clown offered, only to have their arm pumped up and down until it seemed the children ’ s laughter would never stop. Jamie burrowed in deeper under his arm as the clown drew nearer, hiding his face completely in Paul ’ s chest when it was his turn. The clown danced around for a second, trying to entice Jamie into a handshake. Jamie was intractable, though, and eventually the clown ran off.
As soon as he ’ d gone, Jamie peeked back out and looked around.
“It ’ s okay, son, I ’ m not a big fan of clowns, either,” he ’ d said, admiring his son ’ s stubbornness.
“No.” Jamie had shaken his head. “I want one with a cake.” None with a cake showed up and the bit ended, and then the tiny poodles came out to jump and flip. Jamie never explained why he wanted to shake one clown ’ s hand and not another ’ s. Paul hadn ’ t asked. He had been content, then, to not understand everything about his mysterious and fascinating boy.
Paul stepped back out of his memories just as the last of the elephants, and an Uncle Sam on stilts bringing up the rear, passed by. He looked at the crowd, at the children bundled against the cold March. The sky was slate gray, as if the sun had just quit. He felt the chill of evil lying over it all and knew no amount of coats and mittens would make these children safe. Despite the cold, he found himself soaked in sweat, his chest heaving with emotion. This was his life now, the sun frozen over and dark as day.
Bullshit and bravado were a quarter of the gig when it came to police work. This was according to Behr ’ s experience. Paperwork and eating shit were another quarter. Taking care of yourself, staying sharp and busy, and sitting on your ass the right way made up the rest, save a sliver for luck. Behr had witnessed it to be true many times in his career, and today was no different as far as the first bit went. Nye and Feeley hadn ’ t wanted a piece of him or his problems. They had left, loudly but peacefully, suggesting he come clean or, better yet, drop off the face of the earth for a while. He had a moment ’ s satisfaction at their frustration as they carted his computer away, but the fact was, his case had gone down the dumper.
He sat motionless in his living room for a long time, until the sound of the alarm bleeping from the bedroom stirred him. He willed himself up, shut it off, and got fully dressed. Thoughts of what to do next were slow to come and sluggish upon arrival. Tad Ford had been shot dead at home. After talking to Behr. And he had missed it. He could try to be heartened, that he ’ d applied pressure and someone had made a move. But enthusiasm like that was for beat cops in their twenties or detectives just out of the bag. In order to take the next step in this case, he now faced having to unravel a murder. No. Not in this world. Ford could ’ ve been popped for a dozen reasons. He
