'Don't?' He didn't let go of that button.
'Fine! I'll read you.'
He finally let go of the button and Rogan went silent. His eyes were closed, and his chest went in and out with labored breathing.
Gareth grabbed my hand and put it to the side of his throat. 'I'm waiting. Tell me what you see.'
I glanced at Rogan, who was still recovering from the torture of his implant. And then I looked up at Gareth.
It felt almost like an intimate stance, standing this close to Gareth, one hand on his neck, the other braced against his firm chest. He was the same height and the same build as Rogan. Even his blue-green eyes were similar.
But he couldn't have felt more different to me if he'd tried.
I closed my eyes, tried like hell to concentrate, and flexed.
I frowned as the pain began to seep into my brain. 'I see nothing. I'm getting nothing.'
'Keep trying.'
I shook my head, slid my hands to a slightly different position on Gareth's body, and waded farther down into his mind. My head began to ache. 'No, it's like a universe of darkness. So cold and empty and-'
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Pain::::::::
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Then I heard something so quiet that it was like a radio turned on in another room. I strained to make out the thoughts deep inside the darkness.
My eyes snapped open. I grabbed my head, which felt as if it were splitting open. Gareth clutched my hand.
'You saw something else. What is it? Did you see my soul? What did it look like? Was it beautiful?'
I licked my lips. 'I… I did see something. It was very faint for a while, but there was something-'
'What? What was it?' His words were filled with eagerness and naked hope.
'Your… your soul was like a bright light in the middle of the darkness. It was very beautiful.'
The lie sounded incredibly unnatural leaving my mouth, but it was obviously what he wanted to hear.
He nodded. 'I never should have doubted it. This proves what I have been saying all along, that I am the first in the next evolution of mankind. The true mixture of man and machine, and now, Kira, you will help me be even more than that.'
I raised my eyebrows. My help? What the hell was he talking about?
He stalked back to the telephone and picked it up. 'Yes, change of plans. I want to have the girl taken to the eighteenth floor for further testing.' He hung up without saying another word.
When he turned back to me his expression was very pleasant. 'I will be testing your psi abilities to find out what makes you different from an average human. Whatever it is, I will reproduce it on a digital level and add it to my programming.'
The phone rang and he moved toward it.
I exchanged a look with Rogan. His eyes were open again, but his expression was as tense as I'd ever seen it.
Gareth turned his back to me as he spoke with whomever was on the other end of the line. The gun Rogan had dropped was by his feet.
'Give us a few more minutes,' he said into the receiver. 'And then send security down here.'
What was he going to do for a few more minutes? Get me to read him again? Torture Rogan more?
Did he even know why we were in this room? He'd taken the disk away from Rogan, but did he have any idea what was on it?
And did he realize that I'd stolen it back from him when I'd been reading his mind?
He hadn't felt me slip a hand into his inner jacket pocket. He may have noticed when I'd stolen his wallet on the streets, but he hadn't even flinched this time.
Well, I had picked a few pockets in my time. Practice made perfect.
I clenched the minidisk so tightly in the palm of my hand I was sure it would leave a permanent impression, and hissed out a long breath through my teeth. Only one shot. I was betting it all. Both Rogan's and my lives. Betting it all on a faint hope.
With a last look at Rogan I moved quickly to the display screen, frantically searching the side of it for a slot to put the disk into. My hands were sweating.
I found it. I slid it in.
Gareth hung up the telephone and turned back to look at me.
The image of the palm tree was gone. Instead there was a black screen with a blinking cursor at the end of the words: EXECUTE PROGRAM.
Since there was no keyboard, the screen showed a touchpad, and the enter key was right there, only an arm's reach away. I put my hand up to it.
'What do you think you're doing?' Gareth asked.
'What does it look like?'
He smiled. 'It looks like someone who has no history of using computers is trying to act smart.'
I tried to slow my breathing. 'Is that what it looks like to you?'
'Yes. And keep in mind that I said 'trying' to act smart. Not succeeding. I assume you took that disk from me? Once a criminal, always a criminal.' He shook his head. 'What program is that?'
'Just a little antivirus one.' My hand hovered just above the enter button.
His expression didn't change. 'And who exactly gave you that?'
'Somebody who isn't thrilled with your programming selections.'
He blinked slowly and then looked at Rogan. 'Was this your idea?'
'Actually,' Rogan said, 'I was thinking about killing you and being done with it, but Kira's a lot nicer than me, I guess.'
Gareth smiled thinly and turned back to me. 'And why have you put an antivirus program on my Zen screen?' His gaze was steady.
I tried to match it with a calm expression of my own. 'This is a Zen screen? That's funny. I thought it was the server that held your entire artificial intelligence programming that's connected to your implant. You know, the one with the virus in it that makes you a complete psycho.'
'A server? In here?' His lips curled back from his teeth. 'That's not very logical, is it? All the servers are on the second floor.'
I had a moment of doubt. Well, another one. If we were wrong then everything was over. We would have lost in a very large way-both personally and for the unsuspecting world around us.
But then I frowned. If I was that wrong about everything then why wasn't Gareth storming over here and slapping my hand out of the way? He looked relaxed and cocky, but he wasn't moving, wasn't provoking me to press the enter button.
'This is the server,' I said with as much assurance as I could muster and pushing past my doubts. 'I know it is. And as soon as I press this button I'm thinking that your evolutionary aspirations will be wiped out completely.'
His lips thinned. 'I would have to disagree.'
'Then let's see, shall we?' I brought my hand right up to the screen.
'Wait…'
I raised an eyebrow. 'What?'
'Even if you press that it won't do anything. My new life may have begun as a difficult-to-reproduce miracle,