betrayed.'
Jace stood and began to pace, as though the emotion of that moment required an outlet. 'I wanted to scream, to throw a tantrum, to lash out… Everything you'd expect from a kid of that age. But I didn't. I could've asked him why, but I didn't do that either.
'I just… seethed. For days on end, going over and over it all. And then, the next time we were practicing, I just… snapped. I got inside his mind, and I unleashed all that rage at once.
'I don't let myself remember his face, Kallist, even to this day. I've used my own magic to keep me from seeing it. Because I know that if I do, I won't see the face of the man who taught me most of what I know. I'll see the face of the man I walked away from: bulging eyes, gaping lips, skin slowly turning purple. The face of a mind so broken he'd forgotten who he was, what he was-even how to breathe.'
Ignoring Kallist's faint shudder, Jace leaned on the back of the chair. 'I've been in enough fights before and after I joined the Consortium that I've probably killed at least a few folks since then-but it was always in self- defense. I never set out to do it, just to stop them from hurting me, or get them out of my way. I've done a lot of ugly things since Tezzeret hired me, but even then, it was always you or Baltrice or whoever who did the actual killing, and most of our targets arguably deserved it. Maybe I was just fooling myself, but I never saw myself as a murderer. And then on Kamigawa, I did the exact same thing I'd done to Alhammaret. Only I did it deliberately.'
Kallist nodded, thought he understood. 'You're bothered by how killing the nezumi made you feel.'
But Jace only shook his head. 'No, Kallist.' He turned to his friend, and his gaze was empty. 'I'm bothered that killing him didn't bother me at all.'
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
A week had passed since Jace's return from Kamigawa; a week during which Jace slept only rarely and fitfully, plagued by nervous, frustrated dreams to which genuine nightmares might almost have been preferable. He fretted over who he was, what he was becoming. He worried over the state of the Consortium, wondering how a mission like this one could've been planned and executed so badly, how and why Tezzeret could've made the decisions he'd made.
But most of all, he worried over the fact that Tezzeret hadn't yet spoken to him, and with each day that passed, he viewed the inevitable confrontation with mounting dread.
When a messenger finally pounded on his door that morning, yanking him from another dream-battered sleep and informing him that Tezzeret awaited-not in the training chamber, but in a ruined stretch of the Rubblefield outside-Jace found himself almost relieved.
He allowed himself five minutes to throw some water on his face, climb into a pair of blue trousers and tunic-forgoing his cloak, since he wasn't actually planning to go anywhere-and all but ran through the complex and down the nearest side streets.
He found the artificer in something of a natural courtyard between four buildings that still lay in shambles, untouched by the district's slow rebirth. Weeds grew up through the broken cobblestones, and the walls were all but painted in a thick layer of bat, bird, and griffin droppings. Whatever rubble might have lain in the courtyard itself, however, had been cleared away; it was all but empty save for Tezzeret himself, who leaned against a wall over a dozen yards away.
'Summon something,' he commanded, his voice carrying clearly across the courtyard.
'What?' Jace, who'd just been opening his mouth to offer some sort of greeting or perhaps an apology, found himself utterly perplexed. 'What should I-'
'Summon something! Now!'
Shaken by the fury in the artificer's voice, palpable even from such a distance, Jace asked no more questions. Still uncertain what was happening, he reached into the aether, stretched his will between the worlds. Before him, a pinprick hole opened in the walls of reality, and through it slipped a cloud sprite, riding wisps of vapor that drifted through from the skies of some other realm-one whom Jace had summoned many times before. She smiled briefly at him, nodding her head in greeting, and then turned to survey her surroundings with an ever more puzzled expression.
Tezzeret lurched away from the ruined structure and hurled something concealed in his etherium fist.
An uneven disk of iron, lopsided and bedecked with tiny jagged protrusions, it nonetheless flew straight and true, spinning across the intervening distance until it crashed to the broken stones mere feet from Jace.
And even as it landed, it shifted and warped, calling upon the energies of other worlds, just as Jace's own summons had. In less than a second, a field of writhing mechanized tendrils, the underside of some horrible iron jellyfish, thrashed across the earth before him. Where they joined with each other at the ground, tiny spots glowed with the dull heat of a smelting furnace, peering out from between the tendrils like inhuman eyes.
Faster than a crossbow bolt, one of the thinnest tendrils lashed out. Its needle-sharp tip punched through the faerie's wings, pinning her to one of the surrounding buildings by what shredded strands remained. The screech of iron on stone wasn't nearly enough to cloak the cloud sprite's terrified scream as a second tendril rose; this one edged along one side, a whipping, flexing blade that gently lay itself across her thrashing torso. Jace tried desperately to dismiss the summoning, to send her away, but so stunned was he by the sudden assault that he left it too late, waited just those few seconds too long. The scream ended abruptly as the tendril pushed. The two halves of her body dropped from the wall, fading before they struck the ground and leaving behind only a tiny smear of blood to show that she had ever been.
Jace turned a furious gaze on Tezzeret. 'Why?' he demanded, overwhelmed by a peculiar guilt he'd never before felt at the death of a summoned minion. 'There was no reason! There-'
Metal ground on metal as the iron monstrosity struck again, this time with a squat tentacle lacking any edge at all. At full strength, it would have shattered Jace's ribs, pulped his organs; instead, it struck just hard enough to knock the wind from his lungs. His eyes watered with pain and he staggered back, glancing up as it hit him again, blackening his eye and causing it to instantly swell shut.
'Summon something else,' Tezzeret commanded darkly.
'No,' Jace growled, picking himself up from the floor. 'There's no purpose to it.'
'Oh, there's a purpose,' Tezzeret all but cooed.
A shadow fell over him, and Jace looked up, just in time to see another brutal tentacle, practically a log of iron, snaking toward him. It lifted him up, agony flashing through his gut. When he landed once more, Jace couldn't keep himself from vomiting up a small puddle of bile. He tried to crawl from its reach, hoping, praying that the thing couldn't actually move from its spot. An impossibly long tendril wrapped about his ankle and dragged him back before he'd gotten even a yard.
'Why are you attacking me?' Jace gasped, struggling to drag himself out of the construct's murderous grip.
'I'm not attacking, Beleren. I'm teaching.'
And he understood, then. Understood that while Tezzeret wasn't about to kill or cripple him, while he was holding the golem back, the beating wouldn't stop until Jace made it stop.
With a furious cry, Jace called out through the pain and the bitter residue in his mouth-and a fearsome, inhuman screech answered that call. From the sky dropped a great beast, its wings spread wide in the vastness of the courtyard. The bulk of its scales were iridescent blue, its face and horns ivory white, and tendrils of steam rose from its flaring nostrils. For a brief instant it hovered, wings flapping slowly, methodically, as it studied its ferrous foe.
'Better,' Tezzeret offered from afar. 'Not good enough, though.'
As though to prove him wrong, the drake surged ahead, twisting almost on a wingtip to avoid a series of vicious strokes as it flew through the thicket of tendrils. It dug its claws into two of the largest, ripping them up and hurling them back against the wall with a deafening clatter. Shrieking its anger, the drake soared up toward the clouds, curling back around until it faced the construct once more. As it neared, its great maw gaped wide, unleashing a torrent of steam so impossibly hot that even Baltrice's fires might have struggled to match it.
The sharp edges of the iron grew soft and dull, and tiny droplets of liquid metal rained down to the floor
