13 “washed her hands”: Ibid., 79
11. SMALLPOX
1 “uncontrollable in his whims”: Ibid., 82
2 “he confided his childish pranks”: Ibid.
3 “and was on such bad terms”: Ibid., 84
4 “was very much to my liking”: Ibid.
5 “she ordered me to go”: Ibid., 91
6 “Your Highness, my very dear niece”: Troyat, 39
7 “He was a man of great intelligence”:
8 “I read his remarks again”: Ibid., 86
9 “What a pity”: Ibid., 86, footnote
10 “semi-darkness”: Ibid.
11 “almost with terror”: Ibid.
12 “he came up to me”: Kaus, 79
12. MARRIAGE
1 “About as discreet as a cannon ball”:
2 “All the attention”: Ibid., 92
3 “We spent our time walking”: Ibid. 93
4 “As my wedding day came nearer”: Ibid., 97
5 “severely scolded”: Ibid.
6 “We had a long, friendly talk”: Ibid., 97
7 “Her silver brocade wedding gown”: Oldenbourg, 95
8 “The procession infinitely surpasses”: Kaus, 85
9 “horribly heavy”:
10 “I begged the Princess of Hesse”: Ibid., 99
11 “I remained alone”: Ibid.
12 “How it would amuse my servants”: Ibid.
13 “And matters remained in this state”: Kaus, 86
14 “There was not a single man”
15 “The following day”: Ibid.
16 “My dear husband”: Ibid., 100
17 “I would have been ready”: Ibid., 101
18 “was the gayest marriage”: Kaus, 85
13. JOHANNA GOES HOME
1 “Since my marriage”:
2 “At that time I would have given much”: Ibid., 102
3 “Our farewell was very loving”: Kaus, 89
4 “When the princess took leave”: Ibid.
5 “not to make me any sadder”: Anthony, 102
6 “I consider it necessary”: Kaus, 90
14. THE ZHUKOVA AFFAIR
1 “From that moment on”: Herzen, 46
2 “I thought I would faint”:
3 “feared that I had grown”: Ibid.
4 “My mother did not know Russian”: Ibid., 104
5 “Through my servants”: Ibid., 105
6 “It is difficult to find an explanation”: Ibid.
7 “As for the previous dress”: Ibid., 149
15. PEEPHOLES
1 “on the empress’s behalf”: Ibid., 106
