A door to an upstairs room -
A door banging in the wind, in the rain -
I climb the dark stone stairs one at a time and stop before the door -
The door banging in the wind, in the rain -
I pull open the door -
The backdoor to the Strafford -
The backdoor to a passage -
The passage is dark and I can smell the stink of a shotgun -
The stink of bad things, the stink of death -
I step inside -
A rotting, eaten mattress against a window -
I walk down the passage to the front -
To the bar -
I pull open another door -
The door to the bar -
The walls of the bar tattooed with shadows, tattooed with pain -
Maps, charts, photographs of pain -
The pain of the photographs -
Across the maps, the charts, and the photographs -
Across them all -
Swastikas and sixes -
Shadows, swastikas and sixes -
Across every surface -
(Out of the shadows).
I put down the can of petrol and try the light switch -
Nothing, only darkness -
Darkness, shadow, pain.
I step further inside -
Underfoot smashed furniture and splintered wood, stained carpets and shattered glass -
Behind the bar, the broken mirrors and the optics -
The jukebox in the corner, the silent bloodstained pieces -
Beneath the boarded windows, the long sofa full of holes -
A low table pulled out into the centre of the room -
On the table, pornography -
Pornography and a portable tape recorder -
A cassette case:
I walk towards the table -
Walk towards the table and see him -
See his boots -
On the floor, between the table and the bar -
His boots, him -
Him -
Lying on his face between the table and the bar -
Bob Craven -
His head blown off, a shotgun across one leg -
I look away -
Look up -
Two holes in the ceiling, above the bar -
Look down -
The head blown off -
Kneeling, I reach down between the table and the bar, reach down and turn him over -
Head off, face gone, beard gone -
Blood across the wall -
Across the shadows -
Across the swastikas and across the sixes -
(If the shadows could talk).
I pick up the shotgun from off his legs and I step back -
Step back beside the table and the portable tape recorder -
I press play:
Pause, hiss -
Thirteen seconds of hiss, count them:
One two three four five six seven eight nine ten eleven twelve thirteen seconds of hiss, then -
Then -
Silence -
The tape still turning -
Still turning in the portable tape recorder -
The portable tape recorder on the table -