STOP -
Tuesday 24 December 1974:
STOP -
STOP -
STOP -
Back in their bogs, burning and bleeding -
Retching.
Puking.
Spewing -
Knowing what you know, damned to go back one last fucking time -
You thread the last film. You wind the last spool. You flog the dead:
STOP -
Friday 21 November 1975:
In a telephone box on Balne Lane, the relentless sound of the hard rain on the roof, you make two calls and one appointment, thinking -
The relentless sound of the rain on the roof, thinking -
There is a Leeds & Bradford A-Z open on your lap. Your notes and photocopies are on the passenger seat beside you. You are driving through the back and side streets of Morley -
It is Saturday but there are no children.
You come down Church Street to the junction with Victoria Road and Rooms Lane. You turn right on to Victoria Road. You park outside Morley Grange Junior and Infants School, under the steeple of a black church -
You look at your notes. You start the car.
You follow Victoria Road along -
Past the Sports Ground, past Sandmead Close.
You glance at your notes again -
You indicate left.
You turn into Winterbourne Avenue -
It is a cul-de-sac of nine or ten houses; some detached, some not.
A cul-de-sac.
You park outside number 3, Winterbourne Avenue.
There is a
You get out. You walk up the drive. You ring the doorbell.
There is no answer.
A woman in the next house opens her front door: ‘You interested in the house?’
‘No,’ you shout back over the low hedge and drives. ‘I’m looking for the Kemplays?’
‘The Kemplays?’
‘Yeah.’
‘They moved years ago.’
‘You don’t know where, do you?’
‘Down South.’
‘You remember when?’
‘When do you bloody think?’ she says and slams her front door.
You stand in the drive of a house that nobody wants to buy and you wonder what the Atkins will do, if they’ll go down South or if they’ll stay around here, stay around here and watch their neighbours’ children grow, watch their neighbours’ children grow while their own daughter rots in the ground, rots in the ground of the very place that took her away.
You stand in the rain in the cul-de-sac and you wonder.
You go back to the car. You get in. You lock the doors. You open the A-Z again.
You start the car. You turn right out of Winterbourne Avenue. You go back down Victoria Road -
Back past the Sports Ground, back past the school.
You turn right on to Rooms Lane. You go up Rooms Lane -
Past the church -
You come to Bradstock Gardens. You turn right again.
Bradstock Gardens is a cul-de-sac, just like Winterbourne Avenue.
A cul-de-sac.
There are two policemen sat in a police car outside number 4.
The curtains are drawn, the milk on the step.
You turn to look at your notes:
Sat beside you on the passenger seat -
Hazel looks at you -
Looks at you and says -
‘Help me -’
‘We’re in hell.’
You reverse out of the cul-de-sac -
The Leeds & Bradford A-Z open on your lap, your notes and photocopies on the passenger seat beside you, out of Morley -
It is Saturday but there are no children -