‘Edward Dunford speaking.’
I ask him: ‘Saturday night all right for fighting?’
‘Who’s this?’
I wait.
‘Who is it?’
‘You don’t need to know.’
‘What do you want?’
‘You interested in the Romany Way?’
‘What?’
‘White vans and gyppos?’
‘Where?’
‘Hunslet Beeston exit of the M1.’
‘When?’
‘You’re late,’ I say. I hang up -
4 LUV .
Chapter 41
You are sat in the car park of the Balne Lane Library for the last time -
It is Saturday 4 June 1983:
The car doors locked, you are staring into the rearview mirror and then the wing; the rearview and then the wing; rearview and then wing -
The relentless sound of the rain on the roof, the radio on as loud as it can go:
No Little Sister -
Rearview then wing; rearview wing; rearview:
Not today -
D-5 .
The key turns in the lock and you are up the stairs two at a time, pulling the last box down from the shelf -
Threading film, winding spools -
STOP -
Monday 14 July 1969:
Tuesday 15 July 1969:
STOP -
Saturday 19 July 1969:
STOP -
Back to the shelf, back to 1972 -
Friday 24 March 1972:
STOP.
STOP.
STOP -
Into the library toilets, dry-heaving -
Your stomach burning, bleeding again -
You retch. You puke. You spew -
Knowing it’ll soon be over, soon -
But you have to go back there:
Back to the room (back to all their rooms) -
Back to the shelf again (take them all down again):
The films, the spools -
STOP -
AGAIN -
Saturday 21 December 1974:
STOP -
AGAIN AND AGAIN -
Monday 23 December 1974: