“How was it?” Daniel said.
“Cold beer on a Sunday in the summer, it’s always pretty good.”
“Yes, I remember. Watching you today, it took me back to when I was first dating Linda, the times we’d go to her parents’ house for dinner. I could have used a drink on those occasions, wanted one desperately, as a matter of fact. It really would have relaxed me, taken the edge off. There’s nothing more humbling than dealing with the potential in-laws, no matter how much confidence you have. It’s like, all of the sudden, you’re a little boy again.”
“You guys aren’t so bad,” I said, and a smile passed between us. “Besides, it’s Lyla, so it’s worth it.”
“You love her, don’t you?”
“Yes, sir. I believe I do.”
“How much do you love her? Do you love her enough to do what’s right for her, even if it means losing her?”
“I don’t follow you.”
Daniel sat back in his chair, looked into the depths of his own yard. “I told you earlier today that I used to frequent that place you bartend in, when I was on the Hill. I don’t know if Lyla’s ever told you the… degree to which I frequented those types of establishments.”
“No,” I said, “she hasn’t.”
“Well, I was quite a regular in those days, in that place and plenty of others. I wish that I could give you the details, but I don’t remember all that much of those years. If it wasn’t for photographs, it would be difficult to recall even the faces of my children as they were growing up. All that wasted time. But I can’t get it back now, so…” Daniel pulled at the errant edges of his beard. “Anyway, things turned out all right, I think. I got myself into a program, managed to see my children become wonderful adults, with most of the credit for that going to Linda, of course, and I ended up doing a bit of good along the way. So I think you’ll understand it when I say, maybe because of the fact that I wasn’t always there for them, that I’m rather fiercely protective of my children to this day.”
“I understand.”
Daniel breathed out slowly, folded his hands on the table, bumped one thumb against the other. “Lyla, she’s always taken on my traits, even as a child. I know you think she looks like her mother, and certainly she does. But I’m talking about resemblances in less obvious ways.”
I didn’t respond.
Daniel kept on: “When Lyla was a teenager, when she used to come home late at nigh k lap het, I could always tell what she had been up to. Her own body, it betrayed her. When she drinks, you know, even now, her ears turn this blazing shade of red. That same thing used to happen to me-in fact, they used to call me ‘Red’ in some of the bars where they knew me pretty well.” Daniel looked me in the eyes. “She’s got a problem with it, you know. It’s hereditary, I suppose, in a gene I gave her. The researchers, they’ve been claiming that for quite some time now. She’s got the same problem that I had when I was her age. And I see it… I see it only getting worse.”
Again, I didn’t answer him or respond in any way. A drop of sweat moved slowly down my back. Daniel leaned in, rested his forearms on the table.
“You’re an alcoholic, Nick,” he said. “You would never admit to it, but that’s what you are. You’ve probably done some binge drinking in your day, but I would say that in general you’re what they call a controlled drinker. The worst kind, because it allows you to convince yourself that you don’t have a problem, and now you’ve managed to bury the thought of doing something about it entirely. I’ve been around enough people like you; I just don’t think you’re ever going to give it up.”
“I know what I’m about.”
“Yes, I think you do. But I’m not responsible for you, so that’s not good enough. Lyla needs someone strong to tell her what she is and to stand next to her and help her through it. You’re just not that person.”
I pushed away from the table and stood slowly from my chair. “It’s getting late. I better be going.”
I began to walk past him, but he wrapped a hand around my forearm. I looked down on him, saw that his eyes had softened.
“I like you, Nick. I want you to know that. I think that you’re a good man. You’re just not good for her.”
“Thanks for dinner.”
I walked across the patio in the dying light.
“What were you and Dad doing out back?” Lyla said. We were driving south on Connecticut, to Lyla’s apartment. “What was he, asking about your intentions?”
“Something like that.”
“Dad’s always been tough on my boyfriends.”
“He’s only looking out for you,” I said.
“I know,” Lyla said, and touched the Band-Aid on my finger. “Tough day, huh, Stefanos?”
“Tough day.”
I stopped at Lyla’s apartment building off Calvert, let the engine idle.
“What, you’re not coming up?”
“I better not,” I said. “Got something going on early tomorrow on this Jeter thing.”
“I should chill out, too. My editor left k edg. a message on my machine yesterday. That sto ry I’ve been working on, the one I finished and turned in after we had lunch the other day, in Chinatown? He wants to meet with me about it in the morning. Sounds ominous.”
“You’ve always been able to control him. You’ll do fine.”
Lyla leaned across the seat, put her hand behind my head, and kissed me on the mouth. “Love you, Nick.”
“I love you too, baby. Take care.”
TWELVE
In D.C., it’s tough to find a good clean place to catch an art film anymore, and next to impossible to find consistency in repertory. The near-legendary Circle Theater on Pennsylvania Avenue, where many Washingtonians got their film education, is long gone, its “ten tickets for ten dollars” deal a permanent fixture now in the local nostalgia file. Georgetown boasts the Key and Biograph theaters, but Georgetown has devolved into a slum-out for suburban teens, drunks, and tourists-a guy I know calls it a “shopping mall without a roof”-and a lot of in-towners just don’t care to bother. Out-of-town bookers place the rest of the films in their corporately designated “art theaters,” their unfamiliarity with our city demographics resulting in sometimes laughably illogical bills. It’s true that you can catch some cool stuff at the Hirshhorn or at other galleries or museums, but you have to know where to find the listings, and by the time you’ve gotten around to checking out the art calendars in City Paper and D.C. This Week, it’s often too late.
I have a friend named Gerry Abromowitz, whom I’ve known since the club days in the early years of the New Wave-music, not film. Gerry owned his own club for a while, a place called the Crawlspace, a venue for harDCore bands and slammers. Off and on, Gerry went by the name of Gerry Louis, Jr., and even looked into having the legal change. But he stopped short of doing it about the time that the Crawlspace closed down after one steaming-hot summer. A personal-injury suit put a lock on the front door, but in truth, the place was a loser from the word go. Now, Gerry Louis, Jr., was back to Gerry Abromowitz and settling into the beginnings of middle age, working as the owner/operator of a movie theater called the Very Ritzy down on 9th.
The Very Ritzy had just been the Ritz, of course, in its original incarnation, but as usual, Gerry couldn’t resist fucking around with the name. It started out as a burlesque house, and then it was the last of the burlesque houses, and then it was the last of the porno houses, and when Gerry took it out of mothballs on a short-term lease, his intention was to make it an art house. But he soon found out that it was difficult to outbid the more powerful competition for the bookings, and when he could get a decent film, nobody seemed to be interested in traveling to that part of town after working hours. So he quietly took it back to porno for the matinees and made it straight repertory at night, taking in the spillage and the last-call crowd from the Snake Pit and other clubs in the surrounding area. He seemed to make a living from this novel arrangement, though that was probably due to the
