fire and courage to make it of practical use, but she had never excelled in tact. She was too fierce and too impatient. 'If she placed honor first, then it is all the more urgent that we should follow her!' she said intently. 'How can you wish to say nothing of her? Are you not proud of her? Do we not all owe her something?'
Now he seemed embarrassed, and very clearly uncertain how to answer. 'Mrs. Monk, there are some tragedies that… that should remain… unexplained. I can think of no better word. Please…'
She saw the great crevasse in the ground in her mind's eye again, and her stomach turned at the thought of its collapse. She imagined how it would be for the men at the bottom, possibly even seeing it begin to bulge and give way, knowing what would happen and yet unable to do anything but watch. They would see the water explode through, carrying earth and timber with it to crash down on top of them, bruising, breaking, burying them in the filth and darkness. She could not keep silent.
'Mr. Applegate, there is no time for the niceties of feeling! If she saw what I did today and understood what could happen to these men- almost certainly will happen one day, sooner or later-would this woman really wish you to respect her delicacy now she is dead? Think of their lives, of those who still have a chance if we act, if we achieve what she began. Is not the greatest compliment to her, the greatest service, that we take up her cause?'
He was looking at her with profound indecision in his eyes. He was a kind man, torn by conflicting principles of overwhelming power.
Hester realized she was leaning forward as if to physically touch him. Reluctantly she sat back, not in apology but because it might be a bad strategy, and certainly bad manners.
Without explanation Applegate stood up. 'Excuse me,' he said huskily, and left the room.
Hester was crushed. She had liked the man instinctively, and it seemed she had driven him to the point where he had found her so oppressive he had actually retreated from her presence, as if not knowing how else to deal with her. Was she really so insensitive? Was she dragging out the memory of a woman he had perhaps loved, and treating it with unbearable disrespect? How ugly! And how stupid.
She did not know what to do next.
Then the door opened and a woman came in. She was tall, perhaps even an inch or so taller than Hester, and equally slender. She had a most unusual face. It was handsome in its own way, but far more than for the beauty; it was remarkable for its great readiness for the enjoyment of life.
The woman was immediately followed by Applegate himself, who introduced her to Hester as his wife, then by way of explanation added, 'We were both fond of Mary, but my wife the more so. Before I break confidence I felt I should consult her opinion.'
'How do you do, Mrs. Monk,' Rose Applegate said warmly. Then she glanced at her husband. 'Nice of you to consult me, but quite unnecessary.' She invited Hester to resume her seat, since she had naturally stood up when Mrs. Applegate came in. Rose sat opposite, leaving her husband to sit where he would. 'Mary died a couple of days ago, and we are all very distressed about it, and angry. I don't believe for an instant it was as simple as they say. She wouldn't do it, she just wouldn't.'
'My dear…,' Applegate began.
She did not exactly say 'Hush' to him, but almost. It was apparent that he was devoted to her and that she was sufficiently confident in that devotion not to defer to him when she felt passionately.
Suddenly Hester had a flash of understanding. 'Mary Havilland!' she said quickly. 'Are you speaking of Mary Havilland?' It would make perfect sense with the little that Monk had told her of the death on the river.
Morgan Applegate and Rose looked at each other, then at Hester. Rose was now pale, her hazel eyes troubled. 'The news has spread so widely already?' she asked softly.
Applegate reached over to put his hand on her arm. It was an extraordinarily protective gesture, as gentle as if he touched some wound.
'No,' Hester answered, lowering her own voice, aware now that she was dealing with real and present pain. 'I know of it only because my husband is in the River Police and was the one who actually saw it happen.'
Rose gave an involuntary gasp, and Applegate's hand tightened slightly on her arm. Hester could see in their eyes that they wanted to ask more but dared not, afraid of the finality of the answer.
'He isn't sure what happened,' Hester told them. 'It wasn't possible to see from that distance, and of course they were looking upwards.' She knew why Monk was so reluctant to believe it, but she could not tell these people of her own loss. She had thought the pain of it was healed, safe as long as it was not touched. She had not tried to remember her father's face for a long time, perhaps not since she had learned to believe that Monk loved her enough to let go of his own fears.
'My husband is trying to find out precisely what happened,' she added.
Rose blinked. 'You mean… it might not be taken as suicide?' There was a flare of hope in her eyes. 'She would never have killed herself.' I'd stake anything on that!'
'Rose…,' Applegate began.
She shook him off impatiently, without taking her eyes from Hester's. 'If you had known Mary, I wouldn't have to tell you that. She had far too much courage to give up. She simply wouldn't! She was too… too angry to let them get away with it!'
Hester saw Applegate wince, but was beginning to appreciate already that he had no control over his wife's passion. If Rose was outspoken, that was part of her nature, and part of what he loved in her.
'Angry with whom?' Hester asked. 'Circumstances or people? The Big Stink was appalling. We can't allow it to happen again. And the typhoid was even worse. Some of the soldiers died of typhoid in the Crimea. I wouldn't wish it on Satan himself.'
'Oh, I know we must build the new sewers,' Rose agreed. 'But Mary was sure that some of the machines were being used without regard to safety. People are so determined to be faster than their competitors that they are ignoring the rules, and sooner or later the navvies are going to pay the price. You know about the collapse of the Fleet sewer? Of course you do. It was in all the newspapers. That will be nothing compared to what could happen if-'
'Rose, you don't know that!' Applegate interrupted her at last. 'Mary believed it, and she may have been right, but she-'
'She's still right!' Rose corrected him.
'But she had no proof!' he finished.
'Exactly!' Rose said, as if that sealed her point. She stared at Hester. 'She knew there was proof and she intended to get it. She was certain she could. Does that sound to you like someone who would take her own life?' She leaned towards Hester, just as Hester had done towards Apple-gate, unconscious of it, impelled by her fervor. 'She loved her father, Mrs. Monk. They understood each other in a way few people do who are of different generations. She had a strong, clear mind and immense courage. I don't know why people think women can't be like that! It's our skirts that stop us from running, not our legs!'
'Rose!' Applegate expostulated.
'You are not shocked, are you?' Rose asked Hester with a flicker of anxiety.
Hester wanted to laugh, but it might hurt their feelings, as if she did not take death seriously. She did, infinitely seriously. But she knew that in the drowning, suffocating horror of war or epidemic disease, laughter, however black, was sometimes the only bulwark against defeat-or madness. But one could not say so in a London withdrawing room, or morning room, or any part of the house at all.
'No, no,' she assured Rose. 'In fact, I would like to remember it to say again. There will be countless times when it will be appropriate. Would you like attribution, or prefer I forget who said it first?'
Rose blinked, but it was with pleasure as well as self-consciousness. 'I think it might be better for my husbands position if you forgot,' she replied reluctantly. 'The House of Commons is extremely robust in its opinions, but then there are no ladies speaking, and that makes all the difference.' Her mouth pulled in an expression of wry distaste.
Hester understood. She had been freer to say what she thought on the fringes of the battlefield, and had found the return to England painfully restrictive. She went back again to the subject of Mary Havilland. 'Did you know her family?' she asked.
Rose shrugged. 'Slightly. I liked Mary very much, and it was difficult to do that and be more than civil to the rest of them.'
'They were at odds?'
