“Yes,” I said. “Is it possible for the organs in a man’s brain to change? Can that turn him into someone else, even a criminal?”
“It’s entirely possible, and not uncommon. I’ve examined convicted murderers, and quite a few of them had suffered injuries to their heads. I remember one case-a boxer. He’d been knocked out many times, and he’d changed from a nice chap to a violent brute.”
I wondered if something similar had befallen Slade in Russia. Maybe his organ of memory had been so damaged that he’d forgotten me. But there occurred to me another, even more disturbing idea. Maybe Slade wasn’t the person whose mental faculties were impaired.
“Doctor, may I ask-” I had to swallow fear before I could continue. “Did you detect any damage to the organs in my brain?”
My brother Branwell had been a lunatic. Seeing things that did-n’t exist was a symptom of his madness, and perhaps madness ran in our family.
“None at all,” Dr. Browne said reassuringly. “In my opinion, you’re completely sane.”
I thanked Dr. Browne and sat in the waiting room while George Smith had his consultation. I occupied myself with wondering about Slade.
George returned, unusually pensive. As we rode away in our carriage, I asked, “What’s wrong?”
“Dr. Browne said I have an affectionate, friendly disposition. I am strongly attached to my home and family, and I am an admirer of the fair sex. I am active and practical, but not hustling or contentious.”
I laughed despite my worried mood. “But that’s not unflattering. And it’s you exactly! Why don’t you like it?”
He looked annoyed by my mirth and stung because I agreed with Dr. Browne. “It makes me sound so shallow. What did he say about you?”
When I told him, it was his turn to laugh at the justice of Dr. Browne’s observations. Cross with each other, we traveled in silence to the London Zoo.
The zoo occupied a spacious green park on the north side of Regent’s Park. The animals were housed in fanciful Gothic palaces. The many visitors included a preponderance of children. The sun had come out, brightening the colorful scene. Roars from the lions and screeches from monkeys and exotic birds made the zoo seem a tropical outpost of the British Empire. George and I marched along without speaking. He was still out of sorts. He darted glances at me, and I feared he would ask questions that I would rather not answer. When we reached the pond in which ducks, geese, egrets, and flamingos were gathered, I said, “I would like to walk by myself awhile. Shall we meet here in an hour?”
“Very well,” George said, although he didn’t look pleased.
I ambled through the zoo, hardly cognizant of where I went. My mind was so tired of wondering about Slade that I decided to give it a rest. I watched giraffes, camels, and zebras, whose comical faces made me smile. The barnyard smells reminded me of Haworth; they soothed rather than offended me. I viewed the hippopotamus, submerged in his tub, only his eyes above the water; he resembled a fat black hog in a farm wallow. The herd of elephants included a baby-a darling creature. I went into the house where lions and tigers prowled in cages. I listened to them roar and the children shriek in fright. By the time I entered the aviary, I was more at peace than I’d been since my visit to Bedlam, even though I knew not what my next course of action should be.
Brightly colored birds flitted between the palm trees under the glass roof. As I listened to parrots squawk and watched plumed cranes strut, I felt a sudden prickling sensation. I knew that sensation from my years as a schoolteacher. I’d felt it whenever I’d turned my back to my pupils. It was the feeling of unfriendly eyes on me. I turned and saw a man holding his little boy up to feed a macaw perched on a branch. A group of people admired a peacock spreading his brilliant tail feathers. Two women laughed as they wiped bird dung off the head of a bald man. No one appeared to be watching me, but my pulse quickened. I knew the scent of danger. I smelled it now.
I fled the aviary and mingled with a crowd gathered around a lemonade stand. Here I was safe among numbers, but I could not shed the certainty that someone was following me, someone with malice in mind. As to who, I knew not. As to why, I could only speculate that the reason must involve Slade and our past relationship.
“Miss Bronte,” said a voice startlingly close to me.
I yelped and almost jumped out of my shoes. I whirled to face the young man who’d spoken. He smiled an earnest smile, his protuberant brown eyes shining. His pink, boyish face was familiar, although I couldn’t place him. He said, “It’s Oliver Heald.”
He was the man who had made me so uncomfortable at the Great Exhibition with his questions about my marital status. I said, “You frightened me half to death!”
His smile faltered; he tilted his head, a habit I recognized. “I’m terribly sorry.”
“What are you doing here?” I said, forgetting that he had as much right to be at the zoo as I did.
“I-I was hoping you would inscribe your book for me,” he said, disconcerted by my harsh manner. He held out a copy of Jane Eyre.
I stared at the book, then at his nervous, blushing face. How odd that Mr. Heald should happen to have the book with him at the same moment we ran into each other! It seemed too much of a coincidence. “Have you been following me?” I demanded.
“Well, yes,” he admitted sheepishly. “I saw you, and I remembered how gracious you were the last time we met, and I thought, ‘Here’s a once-in-a-lifetime chance to get my favorite author’s signature.’”
I ignored his compliments. My temper, already strained by the events of the past two days, found in him a handy target. “How dare you intrude on my privacy?”
“I’m sorry,” Mr. Heald said, alarmed by his own breach of manners, hurt by my reaction. “Will you please forgive me?”
“Go away.” I shooed him as if he were a buzzing fly. “Leave me alone!”
“Yes, Miss Bronte. I’m sorry.” Mr. Heald turned and ran, holding Jane Eyre against his heart.
I belatedly felt relieved that my pursuer had turned out to be the innocuous Mr. Heald. I also calmed down enough to regret how cruelly I’d treated him. “Wait, Mr. Heald,” I called, “I would be honored to sign your book.”
He’d gone into a wooded area that bordered the zoo. So guilty did I feel toward him, and so eager to make amends, that I didn’t stop to think about the possible danger of following a man I barely knew into what looked to be an isolated area. Instead, I did what every witless heroine in every second-rate romance novel would have done: I hastened after Mr. Heald, following a trail under a canopy of trees. Their leaves filtered the sunlight into a cool, green shade. The voices, the children’s laughter, and the animals’ cries sounded far away. I saw no one. Pausing, I called, “Mr. Heald?”
There was no answer. Leafy branches rustled behind me. I turned, glimpsed movement among the trees. Mr. Heald didn’t appear. Another rustle came, then soft footsteps. I felt a spurt of irritation. Was he teasing me? “Come out. Don’t play games,” I ordered.
A figure materialized behind a screen of foliage. That it belonged to a man was all I could discern, but his silhouette radiated menace. Fear shot through me. I began to run. I tried to steer a course toward the open, populated area of the zoo, but every time I turned in that direction, I saw the man’s shadow moving through the trees, between me and safety.
“Help!” I cried.
If he was Mr. Heald, would he hurt me? If he wasn’t, then who was he? A criminal who preyed on women he happened to meet? I thought of the women killed in Whitechapel. Fighting my way past low branches, I felt like a deer stalked by a tiger in a jungle. I panicked as I heard his footsteps moving faster, coming closer. I grew certain that this was no random encounter.
Somehow I had once again stumbled into bad business that involved John Slade. I acknowledged the terrifying possibility that it was he-lunatic, traitor, and murderer-who pursued me. If he caught me, what would he do?
I came abruptly upon a brick wall. From its other side I heard carriage wheels racketing and horses’ hooves plodding. This was the wall that separated the zoo from the street. It was too high for me to climb. I sought but found no gate. My back pressed against the wall, I watched with terror as swaying branches and rustling leaves heralded the arrival of my stalker.
