here we need. You’re free to release all his belongings to his family.” He turned to the boys, and decided to try prodding their memories one last time. “So that’s it? There’s nothing else? Nothing at all you want to tell us?”
Clay and Darren looked at each other and Clay started to shake his head. But then Darren Bender spoke. “There was one other thing. He started going to confession practically every day.”
“Confession?” North echoed. “Every single day? Why?”
Now both boys spread their hands helplessly. “How would we know?” Darren asked. His eyes darted toward Brother Francis. “It’s not like we get that much chance to do anything worth confessing around here.”
Brother Francis’s eyes rolled. “If it were up to me, you’d all be confessing three times a day, and there still wouldn’t be time to get you all absolved.” He turned to the detective. “Do you think it’s important? About Kip’s confessions, I mean?”
“Very,” North replied. “So who do we talk to about what he might have been confessing?”
“You don’t,” Brother Francis replied. “The Church has changed a lot in the last few decades, but the sanctity of the confessional hasn’t changed. It is absolute.”
“Even when the person who made the confession is dead?” Kevin Peterson asked.
Brother Francis’s expression hardened. “Even then,” he assured them. “It is absolute, under any circumstances at all.”
As they got back in their car ten minutes later, Patrick North stared up at the thick slabs of oak that were the school’s front door. “What do you think?” he mused as Kevin Peterson handed him his keys. “Any way of finding out what that kid was confessing?”
Peterson shook his head. “Not a chance.”
“So that’s that? We’re just supposed to give up?”
Peterson’s expression hardened, losing all trace of the friendliness Clay and Darren had seen only a few minutes ago. “Not me,” he said with a quietness that belied the steel in his words. “Something made that boy kill that woman, and I intend to find out exactly what it was.”
CHAPTER 12
TERI MCINTYRE PARKED HER car on the narrow lane that wound through the cemetery, decided that it didn’t really matter that she’d forgotten to bring flowers for the first time in the two years she’d been coming here to visit her husband, and picked her way carefully across the grass. Coming to the headstone that marked Bill’s grave, she placed her hand on the cold granite.
“Hi, honey,” she said softly enough that no one would have heard her even if she hadn’t been alone in the cemetery. “Well, it finally happened — I forgot to bring you flowers. Forgive me?” She decided that the unbroken silence that fell over the cemetery as she paused for a moment, implied his assent, then she slowly lowered herself down until she was sitting cross-legged on the grave. “I hope you feel like listening,” she sighed, “because I sure feel like talking.” She unfolded her legs and stretched them out, unconsciously falling into the same position she used to use back in the days when they would sometimes sprawl on the bed for hours at a stretch, neither sleeping nor making love, but just talking. The grass felt cool beneath her, and she ran her hand across the dark green surface, finally picking a blade as if it were a piece of lint clinging to the coverlet of their bed.
“Ryan got hurt at school on Friday — hurt pretty badly. He was beaten up by some kids, and I have to tell you, it scared me to death.” She waited for a second, not really as if she were expecting Bill to say something, but just to collect her thoughts. “I’ve about decided to take him out of Dickinson and send him to St. Isaac’s. I — well, I guess I just feel like he’ll be safer, at least until he graduates.” Tears blurred her eyes but she brushed them away, almost impatiently. “Don’t worry,” she said, determined not to give in to the grief that was threatening to overwhelm her. “I’m not going to start crying. And I know this isn’t what we’d do if you were here.” Now her voice started to tremble in spite of herself. “But you’re
And what? And she was lonely, and frightened, and miserable, and Tom Kelly had been there for her last night and helped her deal with the hospital and Ryan and the police and everything else Bill should have been there to help her with. But how could she say it? How could she say any of it without sounding cold and callous and uncaring that the only man she’d ever loved — ever intended to love — had died and left her alone to be lonely and frightened and miserable? But it was Bill that was dead, not her, and—
And she had to go on.
“Anyway, he’s a good man. You’d like him.” She managed a wan smile despite the bleariness in her eyes. “And Ryan will learn to — I know he will. Anyway, Tom was able to arrange a scholarship for Ryan, so it won’t cost us anything. I don’t like the idea of him living away at school, but it’s only for a year and a half, and it’s only a few miles away, so I’ll see him a lot.” She reached out and touched the headstone again. “And I hope it’s okay with you.” She fell silent again, then went on. “And I’m not talking about just Ryan, either. I’m talking about Tom, too. I hope you can understand about him, wherever you are.”
She turned over onto her back and looked at the sky through the leaves in the lone tree on the hill. “He misses you,” she said, a tear leaking out and sliding down the side of her face. “He keeps your picture on his desk. And I know he thinks I’m being disloyal by seeing Tom, but I hope someday he’ll understand. I know you want what’s best for both of us, and right now I need some help and some support.” Her voice began to tremble. “The kind you can’t give me anymore.” She fished in her purse, found some Kleenex and wiped her eyes. In the tree overhead a bird began to sing, and suddenly Teri felt lighter and strangely unburdened. “And Ryan needs a father figure. I’m not saying that I’m going to marry Tom or anything like that, but I think he’s going to be good for Ryan.”
Above her, the bird sang a few more notes, and Teri decided to accept the bird’s chirping as the sign she was looking for.
She smiled. “You should see Ryan, honey,” she went on, the tremble in her voice steadying as her tears dried. “He’s becoming a man. He’s so tall — the last time you saw him, he was still a little boy. Remember how gangly he was? Well, now he’s filled out, and started shaving, and every time I look at him, I see you. And he’s decided he wants to go to Princeton, which is another reason to send him to St. Isaac’s.”
The bird chirped one last time, and flew away and Teri got to her feet. “Got to get going,” she sighed, slung her purse over her shoulder, kissed her fingertips, touched them to the top of the headstone, and stepped back to stare at the name that was deeply engraved in the granite:
Captain William James McIntyre.
“Tom Kelly is a good man,” Teri whispered. “But he’s not you. There was only one of you, and you’re still my hero. And you always will be.” Tears welled in her eyes once more, but they were no longer those of the horrible, wrenching sorrow that had gripped her for most of the last two years. “I’ll come back soon,” she said. “No matter what happens between me and Tom, I’ll come back to tell you about Ryan.”
As the bird wheeled in the sky and came back to perch once more on the branch above her, Teri turned and began to retrace her footsteps on the path back to her car.
Bill had heard her, she was sure.
Heard her, and understood.
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Clay Matthews watched silently as Brother Francis and two girls he didn’t know — but who must have done something wrong to earn them the penance of having to help pack up Kip’s belongings — finished clearing out Kip’s half of the closet. The weird thing was that after complaining all last year and most of this one that Kip had too much stuff, suddenly Clay was feeling like not only the closet but the room as well was far too empty. And it wasn’t that Kip’s stuff would soon be gone, but that Kip himself was gone.
He was gone, and he wouldn’t be back.
