later. The boy was clearly having trouble again, and Rudker wished he knew how to help him. He had never understood Robbie’s problems, and he certainly did not have the time or patience to deal with them at the moment.
Rudker grabbed his jacket and strode from the office. Alice averted her eyes as he walked by. She was a pain in ass too. He would fire her as soon as he got back. Right now he needed to think and plan and he couldn’t do that in his confining office.
A company saleswoman stepped on the elevator in front of him. She was in her mid-thirties, with shoulder- length hair, and an attractive face. Rudker recognized her from a recent sales meeting, but couldn’t remember her name. He didn’t care and didn’t return her nod.
Thoughts and images he could not control flooded his mind. He visualized Sula’s plane crashing into the ocean and killing her on impact before she ever reached the island. He imagined a pack of indigent thieves coming out of an alley in San Juan and stabbing her to death for the cash in her purse. If only he could get that lucky.
The saleswoman behind him began to whisper. At first he thought she was making a cell phone call and trying to keep her conversation private. Then he realized she was making comments about him. Sleazy crook who runs this business can’t even keep his wife happy. Now he’s after that poor PR girl who used to work here before he fired her.
Rudker jerked around to face her. “Shut up!”
The woman drew back in shock.
Phony bitch. He turned around without further comment.
She was quiet for a moment, then started up again with her snake-like whisper. Sula’s right, you know, and she may beat you at your own game.
The elevator jerked to a stop. Rudker turned around again. “You’re fired.” The door opened and he stepped off.
The saleswoman ran after him, calling, “Why?”
Rudker ignored her, crazy as she was, and strode through the lobby. A few people glanced up, aware that something was going on, but no one looked him in the eye. He stopped long enough to snap at the security man, “Keep that woman away from me.”
He stepped out through the glass doors and into the bright sun. The back-stabbing saleswoman didn’t follow. Rudker took in the blue sky and warm breezed and longed for a day on the golf course. He suspected it would be a quite a while before he could relax that much again.
Taking the wheel of his big rig and powering it down the road helped clear his mind and reinstate his confidence. For a few minutes. Soon the voice from the elevator was in his head. It insisted Sula was dangerous. She went to the clinic in San Juan, it whispered. She traveled halfway around the world to gather evidence against you. She is hell bent on sabotaging Nexapra’s development and will stop at nothing to accomplish her mission.
Rudker could not silence the voice or ignore it. In his gut, he knew it was all true. Sula was a fanatic. By raising the stakes, she had changed the rules of the game. Now anything was fair. Rudker could play at that level too.
Cricket was in a funk. He couldn’t believe the city council had voted to amend the zoning regulations. Now the only thing standing between Prolabs and its new chemical-spewing factory was an environmental impact report. That report, which was being produced by a county-appointed committee of three, would not have any real “green” input.
He sat on his back deck in a canvas chair and stared into the tall pines trees. He wanted to smoke a joint, but he wouldn’t let himself. Not until he had formulated his next step. He was giving some serious thought to quitting pot anyway. A comment he’d heard behind his back yesterday made him realize he had become the very thing he’d run from all his life-a stereotype.
So much weighed on his mind. The council vote had been close: four to three. The big surprise had been Walter Krumble of district four. He was an old conservative-by Eugene standards-who liked the status quo. He rarely sided with any kind of change, progressive or not. As Krumble liked to say: “Yes votes mean spending more of the taxpayers’ money.”
Why had the old man gone along? Cricket always suspected the worst of big business and this was no exception. Krumble had been pressured, he was sure. But what could he do now? If the environmental report came back with a watered-down analysis that said, “Go right ahead, the birds can move and the frogs don’t mind the poison,” then the foundation would be poured. They were out there digging it right now “in anticipation” of a green light.
It was time to get serious. Cricket slowly rose to his feet and stretched his legs from their lotus position. He had to mobilize people who could commit to a long-term camp out. He needed to arrange a support group to bring in food and water. It would take several days to get it all going, but that would give the bulldozers time to finish digging. His Love the Earth group would slip in after hours between the digging and the pouring and make themselves at home.
Robbie heard the phone ringing but couldn’t wake himself up enough to answer. He felt drugged, unable to think straight. Yet his mind wouldn’t shut down into complete unconsciousness either. He drifted, his brain floating from one scrambled memory to another. Next he was falling down the side of a mountain, rolling and smashing into shrubs and rocks.
Jason’s voice boomed in his ears. “Robbie! Wake up!” His head was lifted up, but his eyes wouldn’t open. Thumbs pulled back his lids. A bright light flooded his eyes and made the muscles in his temples hurt. He fought to close his lids.
“Hey. You’re scaring me. Wake up!” Jason pinched his cheeks and dragged him to his feet. Robbie realized he was in their dining room. He felt too weak to stand, but Jason wouldn’t let him go. He sensed himself being dragged, then a blast of cold air hit him. The shivers brought his body to attention. His legs became responsive and began to carry some of his own weight. After walking for a while, the oxygen helped bring his brain around. He realized Jason was asking him the same question over and over: “Did you take any of those pills?”
What pills? Robbie shook his head.
“Are you sure?”
He didn’t know. Random scenes and thoughts from that afternoon came back to him. He had tried to kill himself. Yet here he was, still alive. Robbie began to cry. He didn’t know if it was from relief or frustration.
Chapter 25
Thursday, April 22, 3:12 a. m
Sula woke in the middle of night to the loud repetitive calling of what she later learned were Coqui tree frogs. Hundreds of the creatures, all belting out “ko-kee,” over and over, created a cacophony of overwhelming noise. How did people sleep here? She remembered the open window and got up to close it. She gulped down some water from the sink, worried for a moment that it might not be safe to drink, then went back to bed.
She awoke again at 6:33 a.m. bathed in sweat. With the air conditioning off and the window closed, her stucco-walled room had heated up. She reopened the window, relieved to hear only the faint sound of the ocean and the familiar hum of traffic. The air was just as warm at six in the morning as it was at midnight. She loved it.
She realized the research clinic would not open for hours, so she decided to wander around and enjoy herself. If she had packed a suit, she would have gone for a swim. Instead, she showered and dressed in the shorts and t- shirt she’d packed after reading that the average year-round temperature in Puerto Rico was seventy-eight degrees.
The breakfast room offered complimentary bananas, muffins, and coffee and she helped herself to all three. A little later, Sula started down the Isle de Verde, a long business strip that ran parallel to the coast line.
Nestled among familiar fast food restaurants-Burger King, Kentucky Fried Chicken, Taco Bell-were small stucco shops with Spanish names that offered tourist take-homes. Sula checked out a few gift shops, selling mostly t-shirts, towels, and swimsuits. A pair of bright blue nylon shorts with orange dolphins made her think of Tate. She wondered if she and her son would ever take any vacations together. More than anything, she wanted to take him
