The Darkest Pleasure
Lords of the Underworld 4
Gena Showalter
Dear Reader,
I'm thrilled to present
Join me on a journey through this darkly sensual world, where the line between good and evil blurs and true love is put to the ultimate test. And stay tuned for further adventures from the Lords of the Underworld as the stakes get higher, the quest more dangerous and the romance hotter!
Wishing you all the best,
Gena Showalter
This first Lords of the Underworld trilogy could not have been possible without the following amazing, wonderful, kick-ass people (whom I adore):
Donna Hayes
Loriana Sacilotto
Dianne Moggy
Randall Toye
Tracy Farrell
Margo Lipschultz
Keyren Gerlach
Kathleen Oudit
Juliana Kolesova
Diana Wong
Stacy Widdrington
Marianna Ricciuto
Pat Muir-Rand
Melissa Caraway
Kristin Foti
Kim Elliott
Vicki So
Josh Hilburt
Nancy Fischer
Sally Noonan
Brian McGroarty
The Harlequin Sales Group
Deidre Knight
Patricia Rouse
Susan Grimshaw
Kathy Baker
Max Showalter
Matt Showalter
Roy Showalter
Destinee Showalter
Sheila Fields
Jill Monroe
To Kemmie Tolbert, an amazing woman who loves books as much as I do
CHAPTER ONE
REYES STOOD on the roof of his Budapest fortress, five stories up, his feet balanced precariously on the highest ledge. Above him, moonlight seeped red and yellow from the sky, blood mixed with fickle gold, dark mixed with light, wounds freshly cut in the endless expanse of black velvet.
He gazed down at the gloomy, waiting void beneath him, the taunting ground opening its arms as if begging to embrace him.
Frigid wind blustered, ruffling his hair in every direction, tickling his bare chest, the hated butterfly etched up onto his neck and the remembered lifeblood splattered there. Not his blood, though. No, not his, but his friend's. Every stroke of hair against that phantom evidence of life and death was like kindling thrown into the fire of his blazing guilt.
So many times he'd come here, wishing for things that could never be. So many times he'd prayed for absolution, relief from his daily torment and the demon inside him responsible…relief from his utter dependence on self-mutilation.
His prayers had never been answered.
He ground his teeth. Mortals knew
His demon: Pain. His constant companion. The tempting whisper in the back of his mind, the dark entity that craved unspeakable evil. The supernatural force he battled every damned minute of every damned day.
'Not yet.' A few more seconds of anticipation, of knowing most of his bones would shatter on contact. He grinned at the thought. The razor-sharp bone shards would cut his injured, swollen organs and those organs would burst like water balloons; his skin would rip from the excess fluid and this time the lifeblood that drained would be his own. Agony, such blissful agony, would consume him.
For a little while, anyway.
Slowly his smile faded. Within days—hours, if he failed to hurt himself badly enough—his body would heal itself, totally and completely. He would wake up, whole again, Pain once more a commanding force inside his mind, too loud to be denied. But oh, for those few blessed ticks of the clock before his bones began to realign, before his organs began to weave back together and his skin to reconnect, before blood once more pumped through his veins, he would experience nirvana. The ultimate paradise. Rapture of the sweetest kind. He would writhe in the exquisite pleasure the pain brought with it—his
For a little while. Always, only, a little while.