Dead Girl Walking

Well, why not? I’d call home and ask Mom or Dad to come get me. I’d explain how I’d been dead for a little while, had this really cool talk with Grammy, and even got to pet Cola, but on the way back something went horribly wrong and I didn’t look like myself anymore. My parents were always solving triple-type problems from Cherry, Melonee, and Olive. Admittedly, my problem was more complex than locating a missing pacifier and dodging projectile spit-up, but my parents would know what to do. They would make everything okay.

I winced at the tube in my arm as I reached for the phone. Not so easy, I realized when the heart monitor sped up. My head didn’t feel so good, either — my brain was like a pinball machine with steel balls ricocheting around.

Still, I persevered, until my hand clenched the phone. My brain might be fuzzy, but fortunately my fingers knew the routine. I punched in my home number and waited for the familiar ring. Instead there was a click-click sound, then a young, uptight-sounding woman droned, “Community Central Hospital. May I help you?”

“Yes!” I croaked. It sounded like “uh.”

“How can I assist you?”

“Call.” This came out like a crow saying “caw.”

“I see that you’re calling from Room 289. I must inform you that this is a restricted line, so if you’re attempting to make an outgoing call, you’ll need proper authorization.”

“What the hell are you talking about?” is what I wanted to say, but it came out like a crow caw again.

“I regret that I cannot be of further assistance. Please contact your floor nurse or your physician.” The phone went dead.

She didn’t sound like she regretted not helping me. But that was the least of my problems.

I wanted to cry, but that would hurt too much. What was wrong with my throat anyway? Had I damaged my lungs in the car crash? I remembered the sound of gears grinding and the squeal of tires, but I had no idea what happened to my body afterwards. Impact with a truck had to be pretty serious, and seriously not pretty. But this body didn’t seem broken or even bruised. Mostly my head hurt. Even thinking about my head hurting hurt.

My thoughts and memories were the only part of me I recognized. Had the accident done so much damage that I’d needed plastic surgery? I imagined a doctor wheeling my body into the emergency room, taking one horrified look at my broken everythings and declaring my only hope was a total body makeover. But why an entire new face? Especially one that belonged to someone else?

When I looked in the mirror again, there was Leah.

To make sure it wasn’t a trick mirror, I angled the glass at the bed and saw a bed. I angled it at the metal tray and saw a metal tray. I angled it back at my face … and Leah was still there, her eyes mirroring my fear.

Not a hallucination.

Not a nightmare.

Not me.

But Leah? I mean, Leah Montgomery! At school I was so awed and intimidated by her that I avoided getting in her way. She wasn’t mean like Moniqua or sarcastic like Kat. Leah was loved and feared; aloof, controlled, royalty. Her power went beyond beauty and wealth. Leah possessed that elusive “X Factor.” That mysterious quality I’d sensed in Trinidad that separated ordinary people from extraordinary stars.

Kids around school bragged about their “Leah Moments.” Like Hollywood celebrity sightings, Leah Moments usually began in mundane ways. “I’d forgotten a book, and while I was getting it from my locker, Leah came over and told me she liked my shoes and asked where I’d bought them.”

“Her pen dropped on the floor, and I picked it up for her and she thanked me!”

Or sometimes it was just a casual brush with Leah fame, like pulling into her parking spot as she was leaving.

I had had a Leah Moment a few months ago. Unfortunately, it had not gone well. Since extreme humiliation was not something to brag about, I’d never told anyone about it … well except Alyce. (I mean, I had to tell my BFF Alyce everything). Here’s what happened.

The office secretary told me about this new student, Margret from Iceland. So Alyce created an amazing basket, which I couldn’t wait to deliver. Inside the basket were snacks, coupons, school newspapers, spirit banners, and an adorable stuffed puffin (Iceland’s unofficial mascot). Margret squealed excitedly over the basket and hugged the toy puffin. Then she went into the restroom, and I noticed she’d dropped the puffin. So I picked it up and as the restroom door opened, I tossed it to her. “You forgot your puffin.”

Only, you guessed it — not Margret.

Leah Montgomery caught the puffin with a pinched, puzzled expression. She shook her golden head and said, “I don’t think so.”

“Sorry,” I murmured. “My mistake.”

“Obviously.”

“I thought you were someone else.”

“Oh?” She arched her blonde brows. “Who?”

“Not actually someone else, that’s not even possible. What I mean is …” Under Leah’s glacial stare my brain froze. What had I meant to say? Something clever and witty, like my book Celebrities Are People, Too advised. But my mind blanked.

Afterwards, I would torture myself by replaying this scene in my memory. Leah’s hair flowed symmetrically like a waterfall, spilling golden waves over her slim shoulders. She wore a chic red-belted dress, a cropped jacket, and open-toed, gold-heeled sandals. Her makeup glowed with glossy peach lipstick and a luminous glitter trail across her dusky eyelids. Everything about her seemed so perfect … making me feel less than adequate. That’s my only excuse for fumbling my words, rambling on like an idiot, saying something lame about puffins and baskets.

“Whatever.” Leah held the puffin’s black tail delicately, with two French-tipped fingers. “I believe this is yours.”

Before I could even say “thanks,” she’d tossed the toy back at me and turned to join her groupies, who suddenly appeared out of nowhere. She whispered to them, pointing in my direction, and they all convulsed into giggles.

Humiliated, I shoved the fuzzy puffin in my backpack and took off running. After only one or two wrong turns, I reached my next class just as the bell rang. And the puffin remained tucked away in my locker for a month.

Now I was living the ultimate Leah Moment. There could only be one Leah Montgomery and I was definitely not her. I had to tell someone, but who would believe me? I didn’t know what to believe myself. Except I had a sick feeling this was all my fault. “Turn left,” Grammy had told me.

Instead, I’d turned right and landed in the wrong body.

I didn’t just look like Leah.

I was Leah!

When Leah found out that I’d shanghaied her body, she was going to be supremely mad. Hmmm … where exactly was Leah? If I was in her body, was she in mine? Was this like that movie where the mom and daughter switched bodies? Or were Leah and I both sharing this body? Like a two-for-one body offer.

Leah, I thought, raise our hand if you’re in here with me.

Nothing happened.

“Leah,” I whispered in that awful croaking voice. “Where are you?”

The heart echo quickened and each beep slammed me with new fear. I looked at myself — or well, Leah — and tried to understand how my body wasn’t my body. It just didn’t make sense. You couldn’t change bodies like switching a TV channel.

This. Could. Not. Be. Happening.

Yet it had happened. And until I figured out to make it un-happen, I was stuck looking like the most beautiful and popular girl in school.

Alyce is going to die when she sees me, I thought. Except I’m the one who died … or did I?

Desperately, I wished I could talk to Alyce. She believed in all things weird and could come up with an explanation for my body change. But if calls were restricted from this room, how could I reach her?

Maybe a nurse could help.