confession of deep inadequacy. It's too realistic, as if somehow the dead kitten's neural maps – stolen, no doubt, for some dubious uploading experiment – have ended up padding out its plastic skull. He swears again, looks around, then takes the easy option: Down the stairs two steps at a time, stumbling on the second floor landing, down to the breakfast room in the basement, where he will perform the stable rituals of morning.
Breakfast is unchanging, an island of deep geological time standing still amidst the continental upheaval of new technologies. While reading a paper on public key steganography and parasite network identity spoofing he mechanically assimilates a bowl of cornflakes and skimmed milk, then brings a platter of whole grain bread and slices of some weird seed-infested Dutch cheese back to his place. There is a cup of strong black coffee in front of his setting, and he picks it up and slurps half of it down before he realizes he's not alone at the table. Someone is sitting opposite him. He glances up incuriously and freezes inside.
'Morning, Manfred. How does it feel to owe the government twelve million, three hundred and sixty-two thousand, nine hundred and sixteen dollars and fifty-one cents?' She smiles a Mona Lisa smile, at once affectionate and challenging.
Manfred puts everything in his sensorium on indefinite hold and stares at her. She's immaculately turned out in a formal gray business suit: brown hair tightly drawn back, blue eyes quizzical. And as beautiful as ever: tall, ash blonde, with features that speak of an unexplored modeling career. The chaperone badge clipped to her lapel – a due diligence guarantee of businesslike conduct – is switched off. He's feeling ripped because of the dead kitten and residual jet lag, and more than a little messy, so he snarls back at her; 'That's a bogus estimate! Did they send you here because they think I'll listen to you?' He bites and swallows a slice of cheese-laden crispbread: 'Or did you decide to deliver the message in person just so you could ruin my breakfast?'
'Manny.' She frowns, pained. 'If you're going to be confrontational, I might as well go now.' She pauses, and after a moment he nods apologetically. 'I didn't come all this way just because of an overdue tax estimate.'
'So.' He puts his coffee cup down warily and thinks for a moment, trying to conceal his unease and turmoil.
'Then what brings you here? Help yourself to coffee. Don't tell me you came all this way just to tell me you can't live without me.'
She fixes him with a riding-crop stare: 'Don't flatter yourself. There are many leaves in the forest, there are ten thousand hopeful subs in the chat room, et cetera. If I choose a man to contribute to my family tree, the one thing you can be certain of is he won't be a cheapskate when it comes to providing for his children.'
'Last I heard, you were spending a lot of time with Brian,' he says carefully. Brian: a name without a face.
Too much money, too little sense. Something to do with a blue-chip accountancy partnership.
'Brian?' She snorts. 'That ended ages ago. He turned weird on me – burned my favorite corset, called me a slut for going clubbing, wanted to fuck me. Saw himself as a family man: one of those promise-keeper types. I crashed him hard, but I think he stole a copy of my address book – got a couple of friends say he keeps sending them harassing mail.'
'There's a lot of it about these days.' Manfred nods, almost sympathetically, although an edgy little corner of his mind is gloating. 'Good riddance, then. I suppose this means you're still playing the scene? But looking around for the, er -'
'Traditional family thing? Yes. Your trouble, Manny? You were born forty years too late: You still believe in rutting before marriage but find the idea of coping with the after-effects disturbing.'
Manfred drinks the rest of his coffee, unable to reply effectively to her non sequitur. It's a generational thing.
This generation is happy with latex and leather, whips and butt plugs and electrostim, but find the idea of exchanging bodily fluids shocking: a social side effect of the last century's antibiotic abuse. Despite being engaged for two years, he and Pamela never had intromissive intercourse.
'I just don't feel positive about having children,' he says eventually. 'And I'm not planning on changing my mind anytime soon. Things are changing so fast that even a twenty-year commitment is too far to plan – you might as well be talking about the next ice age. As for the money thing, I am reproductively fit – just not within the parameters of the outgoing paradigm. Would you be happy about the future if it was 1901 and you'd just married a buggy-whip mogul?'
Her fingers twitch, and his ears flush red; but she doesn't follow up the double entendre. 'You don't feel any responsibility, do you? Not to your country, not to me. That's what this is about: None of your relationships count, all this nonsense about giving intellectual property away notwithstanding. You're actively harming people you know. That twelve mil isn't just some figure I pulled out of a hat, Manfred; they don't actually expect you to pay it.
But it's almost exactly how much you'd owe in income tax if you'd only come home, start up a corporation, and be a self-made -'
'I don't agree. You're confusing two wholly different issues and calling them both 'responsibility.' And I refuse to start charging now, just to balance the IRS's spreadsheet. It's their fucking fault, and they know it. If they hadn't gone after me under suspicion of running a massively ramified microbilling fraud when I was sixteen -'
'Bygones.' She waves a hand dismissively. Her fingers are long and slim, sheathed in black glossy gloves
– electrically earthed to prevent embarrassing emissions. 'With a bit of the right advice we can get all that set aside. You'll have to stop bumming around the world sooner or later, anyway. Grow up, get responsible, and do the right thing. This is hurting Joe and Sue; they don't understand what you're about.'
Manfred bites his tongue to stifle his first response, then refills his coffee cup and takes another mouthful.
His heart does a flip-flop: She's challenging him again, always trying to own him. 'I work for the betterment of everybody, not just some narrowly defined national interest, Pam. It's the agalmic future. You're still locked into a presingularity economic model that thinks in terms of scarcity. Resource allocation isn't a problem anymore – it's going to be over within a decade. The cosmos is flat in all directions, and we can borrow as much bandwidth as we need from the first universal bank of entropy! They even found signs of smart matter – MACHOs, big brown dwarfs in the galactic halo, leaking radiation in the long infrared – suspiciously high entropy leakage. The latest figures say something like seventy percent of the baryonic mass of the M31 galaxy was in computronium, two-point-nine million years ago, when the photons we're seeing now set out. The intelligence gap between us and the aliens is a probably about a trillion times bigger than the gap between us and a nematode worm. Do you have any idea what that means?'
Pamela nibbles at a slice of crispbread, then graces him with a slow, carnivorous stare. 'I don't care: It's too far away to have any influence on us, isn't it? It doesn't matter whether I believe in that singularity you keep chasing, or your aliens a thousand light-years away. It's a chimera, like Y2K, and while you're running after it, you aren't helping reduce the budget deficit or sire a family, and that's what I care about. And before you say I only care about it because that's the way I'm programmed, I want you to ask just how dumb you think I am. Bayes' Theorem says I'm right, and you know it.'
'What you -' He stops dead, baffled, the mad flow of his enthusiasm running up against the coffer dam of her certainty. 'Why? I mean, why? Why on earth should what I do matter to you?' Since you canceled our engagement, he doesn't add.
She sighs. 'Manny, the Internal Revenue cares about far more than you can possibly imagine. Every tax dollar raised east of the Mississippi goes on servicing the debt, did you know that? We've got the biggest generation in history hitting retirement and the cupboard is bare. We – our generation – isn't producing enough skilled workers to replace the taxpayer base, either, not since our parents screwed the public education system and outsourced the white-collar jobs. In ten years, something like thirty percent of our population are going to be retirees or silicon rust belt victims. You want to see seventy year olds freezing on street corners in New Jersey?
That's what your attitude says to me: You're not helping to support them, you're running away from your responsibilities right now, when we've got huge problems to face. If we can just defuse the debt bomb, we could do so much – fight the aging problem, fix the environment, heal society's ills. Instead you just piss away your talents handing no-hoper Eurotrash get-rich-quick schemes that work, telling Vietnamese zaibatsus what to build next to take jobs away from our taxpayers. I mean, why? Why do you keep doing this? Why can't you simply come home and help take responsibility for your share of it?'
