My anxiety was now intense least the discovery I saw impending should, in spite of our endeavours, overwhelm us.
Under these circumstances I determined to take a resolute course. I operated on my little Julia. I succeeded. I brought away the foetus, and removed with it all danger of discovery.
The result was not so favourable with regard to the health of my patient. Our overheated passions had put an end to youth's dream of uninterrupted enjoyment in a continual round of sensual pleasure, and Julia had now to reap the harvest of her indiscretion. She soon fell into a weak state of health, and I recommended immediate change of air.
Her father, alarmed at her indisposition, took her to Baden, and after a residence of some months there, the roses again revisited her cheeks.
At Baden, she was greatly admired, and soon received an offer for her hand, which her prudent father did not feel justified in refusing and she became the wife of a Russian prince, who if he did not get with her that unsatisfactory jewel, her maidenhead, at least became possessed of a cunt well practised in all the arts of love and lechery.
Thus terminated my amour with one of the most agreeable and most salacious girls I have ever known, and my prick still stands at the recollection of the various luscious scenes in which we have mutually carried away by the violence of lust in its most enticing form.
CHAPTER V
I now gave myself up without reserve to the pleasure of love.
All my patients who showed the least susceptibility were overcome by my potent argument, and vigorously fucked.
I varied my pleasures in every possible way. Nothing which could enhance the enjoyment did I scruple to call into action. I fucked. I kissed. I sucked. I underwent all these operations myself, and I found a delicious retreat between the buttocks of one of my fairest patients, I hesitate not to own it. I penetrated those regions intended by nature for further purposes, and I declare that the pleasure I derived was proportionally as great as the act itself was indecent.
I became a lover of this mode of dalliance and never spent with so much relish and impetuosity as in the beautiful bottom of a fair woman.
And it must be owned that these parts themselves are wonderfully well adapted for the purpose. The natural construction of the entrance, the soft interior, and the length with which they are capable of receiving the longest male member, render the art unique; while the fiery heat experienced by the operator, and the accumulation of delicious sensations, produce in their turn a stiffness, a vigour, and enjoyment without parallel.
One of our greatest poets, he whom no censure, no authority could debase to mere conventualism, extols in his own fervent gloomy strains the much forbidden pleasure.
Oh, lovely woman, by your maker's hand For man's delight and solace wisely planned;
Thankless is she whose nature's bounty mocks, Nor gives love entrance wheresoe'er he knocks.
A considerable portion of my pleasure consisted in reading and showing to others curious amorous works. Of these I possessed a large collection. Several of them were in themselves a budget of exciting literature, of a rare and costly description.
One of them was the celebrated work of the Marquis de Sade, over which it is said that extraordinary man went out of his mind.
I allude to 'Justine,' and if the quintessence of sexual excitement and glowing scenes that beggar description can be productive of sufficient effect to produce such a result, even to the author himself, this rare and fearful work is certainly the one capable of doing so. The wonderful descriptions it contains, the fiercely exciting scenes it depicts, and the exhibition of so many varied means of producing the acme of enjoyment, render it no less valuable for its deep effectual influence over the passions than for its deep philosophy and wonderful power of reasoning which stamp it as the work of a genius of extraordinary talent.
Satiety, that enemy to the indulgence of the soft enjoyment, now attacked me, I wanted a change. My powers were naturally great, my health robust. My member became sick of sliding in and out of places so often visited, and in which it had so frequently left his tears of gratitude.
I longed for an unripe beauty, a young girl, a child even-to caress, to lie with, to suck. I found a lovely little girl of thirteen years of age, who had been under my care for a spinal affliction, in the treatment of which complaint I had been for a long time acknowledged a successful practitioner.
She had been an inmate of my house in order to be more fully under my care. Her friends were resident in another county, and had such confidence in my discretion that I believe had I even proposed to have slept with their niece they would have thought it was only a part of my system.
Mary had been with me about a week, when I found so much pleasure in her society that I began to feel a curious sensation about the region of my privates on beholding and listening to her sometimes in the evening.
I made her sometimes sit with me by the fire, when I would place her on my knee, so that her sweet little bottom would be immediately over my stiffened member, which by its throbbing and jerks caused her to sit rather uneasily, and thereby induced a gentle friction which was highly agreeable to me.
One evening, having been more than a week without food for my passions, which were becoming riotous, I could restrain myself no longer. I began to play and romp with my little companion in such a manner that I frequently had my hand on her naked knee, and even once or twice on her thigh.
Her flesh felt soft and warm, and my desires began to master my reason. I tried further advances, taking care not to startle the innocent girl out of her confidence in me.
By degrees, under the pretence of tickling her to excite her laughter, I reached the goal of my desires. My hand, the tip of my fingers only, touched her pouting little beardless cunt. A thrill shot through at the contact. It was soft as her damask cheek, and the warmth of its velvet skin sent fire through my veins.
I now endeavoured to advance, but she held her legs firmly together, not apparently altogether relishing the tickling sensation my intrusion produced.
She was an excitable little girl, however, and soon, by suddenly pretending to throw her backwards, I got her to open her legs. And then, oh! how I stand when I even refer to it. I placed my smooth fingers in the open slit; it was as moist as the interior of her lovely mouth, and the opening was small, and apparently intact.
My readers may wonder perhaps at the above remark, but my experience has shown me that in very many cases young girls, long before they reach the age of fourteen, cannot strictly be said to be possessed of a perfect maidenhead.
The cause is this. What with the early efforts prompted by nature to break through the restraints she has herself placed in that tender spot, by the self-introduction of their little fingers, and other inanimate objects, and the effects of the society, and even the bed-fellowship of boys from twelve to fourteen years of age, who frequently effect a penetration in very young children with their small but stiffly erected member, young girls on reaching puberty are seldom possessed of the imaginary jewel in its full perfection, at least so far as regards the lower and middle classes of society.
I could enumerate many instances of the truth of what I here affirm. For instance, I recollect a case which occurred at school at which my father had placed me.
The master of the academy had a little daughter, nearly twelve years of age, when the circumstance happened to which I am now drawing attention. This child was allowed considerable liberty, and she would after school hours mingle with us in the playground.
There were not wanting boys ready to take advantage of such opportunity to investigate the hidden treasures of nature. Little Miss being inspired with a similar desire, soon had several admirers, with whom it was a delightful pastime to feel and tickle each other's curious little secrets.
From feeling they soon arrived at conjunction, and it was not many days before one of the boys possessed of a longer and stiffer instrument than his companions, fairly penetrated her gentle belly, and deposited his little drops of pleasure within her vagina.
He was of course followed by others, and this young girl, before she reached the age of twelve and who was
